Simply Me

Most girl are insecure with their body, media has told us that if you’re not the “right size” you’re not beautiful, or that you’ll never find someone unless you loss weight. I was always told that I was fat , ugly, unable to be love . Every man I had dated either said lose some weight then you’ll be perfect or im okay with your weight, you’re beautiful just don’t gain anymore. It got to the point where I would starve and over do workouts but I wanted to be beautiful, I wanted to be love. I would never leave the house in sweats because I feared it would make me appear bigger, I would never go in public without make -up because going out with none , the comment of me being ugly or oh you look sick , the only time a person would say I was beautiful was with the make up, my many masks were on.

Now I’m with a guy & we’ve been together for 6 months , so far my longest relationship that is healthy , that isn’t on & off . He was my friend first, and now he’s my other half & my best friend, everyday he reminds me that I’m beautiful no matter my weight & even from being dolled up to my sweat & no mask still tells me I’m beautiful. I’ll ask him if I look okay whenever I shop or when I get ready in the morning , he’ll tell me I always look amazing. He’s seen the monsters with the mental breakdowns & still treats me like I’m normal.

All my life that was all I ever wanted, & I wouldn’t change a thing. To all the girl stressing over their looks or weight, stop stressing , love yourself in any form & ever stage , don’t just settle for anyone who ever makes you feel doubt, the person that’ll treat you will come but until then worry about a better you and what you need…