Mmmmmm bubger

I'd rather be called a retard than "neurospicy"

I haven't talked to anyone outside of family or work for over a month now and I'm still above resorting to befriending an AI chat bot

I've been working on a new vtuber model/identity but I'm struck with the fear that after all the work and costs it's just going to flop like my current one and I'll end up in a worse place than I already am with the realization that I'll never overcome my social disconnect and am forever stuck on the outside looking in.

I'll admit that the silliest things make me depressed. Like making a new reddit account to start planting seeds/promoting a new thing I'm working on, making a post and immediately having the post deleted because of reddit auto filters since I don't have enough points. Like it's just such a solid reminder of how far gone the internet is from what I grew up with. Corporations came and in shitted it up so much every website has to have intense anti-bot measures that it's hard to just post like a normal fucking person.

Honestly, I would just like to have at least one more date before AI irrevocably destroys the world

I feel like the modern algorithm based internet is intentionally designed to dehumanize you and make you feel hopeless.

I haven't talked to anyone outside of work or family in three weeks