dreams & dreamers. "does any part of you still look at the sky and hurt?" @atheeos from dirth.
the better question would be: will it ever stop hurting? the answer, she thinks, is no. it’s hard to look at the world around her and feel happy, even with the blight gone. only the griffons manage to get a smile out of her these days, and that’s mostly because assan has learned that 'juggling' worms makes her laugh. she looks at the elf for half a second before sighing, dropping her head.
“everything hurts, in a way. i wasn’t built for all of.. that. all that we did.” to lead, she means. she could fight like a dog, but lead others? some to their death?
he asks about the sky — she can barely look at the dirt and not feel guilt, rage, hatred. guilt at surviving, rage at what had been taken, hatred at herself for not doing more. the real, true question is: does she deserve to not hurt anymore?
bree already knows the answer, so she asks something easier, less thorny on her tongue, “do you not? you’ve probably felt losses a million times worse than mine.” there is no judgment in that, not even certainty. just a feeling. she stares at the ground, hunching over on the rock she sits on so that she can draw something in the dirt.
“does it not always hurt to look at the sky and know they never will again?