OCD, Pure O, Intrusive/Obsessive Thoughts

hey a reminder that sexual intrusive thoughts are not sexual fantasies. sexual fantasies are about what you desire and sexual intrusive thoughts are about what scares you the most and your intrusive thoughts say a hell of a lot more about what you DONT want than about what you do. youre okay and youre safe and youre not whatever it is your intrusive thoughts want you to think you are. youre fine.

if you have a hard time knowing for sure that your intrusive thoughts arent actually fantasies, fantasies will make you feel good. intrusive thoughts wont. if the thoughts scare you, worry you, or stress you out, theyre not fantasies. promise

also groinal responses are a thing and they dont mean you actually want to engage in what your intrusive thoughts are saying

this is so important i dont think most people know about involuntary groinal responses in conjunction with intrusive thoughts/sexual obsessions, and its really important and vital for everyone to know that groinal responses dont indicate desire or interest in the sexual intrusive thought. your intrusive thoughts do not represent your tendencies, desires, interests, or actions you will take, they are your FEARS.

You know what absolutely boggles my mind? That healthy people exist. Genuinely healthy people. No mental illness, no physical illness, no chronic illness. Just healthy. What a life that must be. 

The more I think about it, the more having OCD really feels like having another person in my head. I know I can ignore them, but it’s still bothersome to have someone yelling at you all the time about your biggest fears. Some days I can live with the other person and kind of just look over what they’re saying as something annoying, and other days that person is the only thing I can focus on. It’s weird to not be alone in your own headspace, and the worse I get the more I feel like that entity solidifies as a real person in my mind, which is so strange.