i feel like i'm the worst so i always act like i'm the best

NTs often believe that when you don’t get out of bed you’re just lying around comfortably like ‘ahh this is nice’, when in reality it’s:

• aching muscles

• feeling like you want to get up and walk around but you can’t

• running out of things to do without having to move and descending into this really bad kind of boredom where you feel like all you can do is stare at a wall and think about how much you hate yourself

• dissociating

• getting really sweaty

• –> smelling bad

• not going to the bathroom until your bladder feels like exploding

• not eating or drinking properly

• always feeling either to hot or too cold and just not finding a solution

• rolling around, not being able to find a comfortable position anymore

• feeling like your whole body is trying to tell you to be active while your brain is blatantly refusing it

• thinking about how you could’ve read like 3 books by now but haven’t and don’t want to start one either

• being irritable and angry

• falling asleep and completely messing up your already poor sleeping schedule

• eating chips or other snacks in bed, getting crumbs everywhere and still feeling them days later

• feeling like a failure