The end of my journey
Phew, I am proud to say that I have just finished editing my podcast!! And now comes the end of my research log as well as my half year journey in exploring the very beautiful Tibetan bone apron.
I need to say that taking this module is one of the best decisions I have ever made. At first, I couldnât imagine doing research on a single object for a whole academic year. I remember how surprised I was to see the pile of research log at the beginning of the first term. I simply couldnât see myself sending emails to professors and museums, reading books after books, and finally coming out with a really âprofessionalâ podcast illustrating every single thing you need to know about the object in a year.
However, here I am, with my lengthy tumblr, and my little podcast.Â
I had a look at all my blogs again and was amazed by how one learns little by little throughout time without even noticing it. For example, I had absolutely no idea about Indian Tantrik or Tibetan Buddhism whatsoever before, not to mention those terms like âwrathful deitiesâ, âyidamâ, ââchamâ etc. However, as time goes by, as I read more and more about the subject, these unfamiliar terms started to become part of me.
I still remember my astoundment when I saw the sky burial pictures, and learned about the significance of death and bones to Tibetan. The visualisation of the deities as the means of meditation to reach Enlightenment, and the extreme of such kind with complete mental sacrifice and spiritual drama in the Chod ritual are things that I will never forget. Not to mention all those unexpected links between things that seem so distinct from each other - the Shamanist and Tibetan Buddhist costumes, archaic beliefs of hunting people all over the world, the similarities between Dutch genre painting Vanitas and the meaning of bones to Tibetan, and the mysterious red fabric attached onto the bone plaques and its relationship with the British expedition to Tibet. All these seem to remind us of the universality of the beings in this world.
This research is never an easy task. I borrowed and bought loads of books (that I wasnât even sure were relevant or not), sometimes I read pages of materials that were not really relevant. Sometimes I just had no idea where to find answers to certain questions. Asking is always the way out, and I guess imagination and the ability to make sensible correlation and assumption always helps - this is what I learned from Dr. Brooks from the Archaeology Department.
Last but not least, I must say I am deeply impressed by all the scholars who devote their lives in doing research, especially those who immerse themselves into a completely different culture and environment. Rene De Nebesky-Wojkowitz, Robert Beer, Audrea Loseries-Leick, and many more... they spent almost their whole lives learning the Tibetan language, staying in Tibet, living with the informants, translating Tibetan text and recording all the symbols and motifs on Tibetan objects. It must be really challenging, but they didnât stop half way. Sometimes I canât really tell the significance or meaning in pursuing a research of such kind - to preserve the unique culture? To publicise their religious practices and beliefs worldwide? When I read the Encyclopaedia of Tibetan Symbols and Motifs, I just wonder, it is true that Robert Beer spent several decades drawing the Tibetan symbols and motifs, however, who will actually read the Encyclopaedia except those who are doing a research of such kind, like me? Or maybe, it is simply the desire in acquiring knowledge, in knowing something that we donât, in becoming something that weâve yet to be, that pushes these scholars this far?
I canât really tell. I wish I had the answer.
Still, I have come this far. Now I think of it, it is actually a little bit sad that I wonât be studying and researching on this object anymore - I think that is what you called, to miss something. (and Durham, and my year abroad, and everything maybe)
But to conclude this memorable journey, allow me to use the line in my script (that I spent ages coming up with). Since I embarked on this journey with the Tibetan bone apron, I have unraveled a whole new world.












