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In my dreams you are with me

In my dreams you are well and with me

But dreams don’t always come true

I don’t know how get to that place where they do

But if you can’t be with me

I hope you are well with me

My mind wants to hurt you

To prove to you that I’m ok

But my heart wants to hold you

And to tell you are safe

I want you to be with me

But maybe that door is closed

So I want you to be well with me

I know you want to prove to me that you are ok

And to hurt me with the things you say

I go silent it’s what I do

Be well

even though you are not with me

I want you to be well with me

Of my shattered convictions

They could never hold the water

Of my deepest longings

There was no room for contradiction

No window for a light

I’m afraid of losing traction

I’m afraid I’m afraid

If all falls apart

Then it never should have been

Or maybe it’s the way

So many choices

Not sure I made the ones

That are following the voices

Of a divine inner humm

Life is what you make it

And what it makes of you

Somewhere beyond the mistakes

Is a place I almost knew

But maybe that’s ok

Maybe I’m just a wanderer

Maybe that’s the way

We all become who we are

You never know til to you get there

You never know til your gone

That love is always behind you

And always where you

Run

My heart is never what it once was

It will never be again

This damn resolution

Years of waking up to pain

When will you come?

When will you stay ?

Someone pushing home

Someone pushing me away

Please! Make my heart feel settled

Please make me feel at peace

Take me to a mountain meadow

Where I can fall asleep

Asleep in the sun

You never know til to you get there

You never know until your gone

That love is always behind you

And love is always...where you

Run...