i truly hope you are ok. just please give me respect. being schizophrenic isnt an excuse to treat someone like that. i know it can be tough to deal with but its not an excuse. i can still be your friend but its so hard dealing with being treated like that. it just keeps happening. one person after another does it to me. i cant take it anymore. i know it isnt right. no one deserves it. not even you.

you dont have to die and i never had to deal with anything. im not going to post that because im not looking to dox you or anything ok. i did make a choice, because i care. it just really hurts that you would treat me like that. i still care about you and i am sorry for how i presently feel. it just is very painful to know someone feels like i deserve pain despite giving so much care. it was hard for me at times but i tried despite feeling like i couldnt. i lived through so much pain and you only want me to feel more. i dont even wish pain upon you. i dont know what i did but im sorry. i wish you the best and dont want you to die. im scared and growing worried. i dont know what i did. im sorry. i am grown and things are different from how they once were. i know how hard that can be to deal with first hand. just please give me some respect too. it hurts way too much. i hope you are safe and ok.

people like you are why i dont feel safe anywhere. you dont let me have my safe place even after ive established my boundaries with you. you have become disrespectful. i dont know what you expect. please stay away from me and do not interact with me. i tried to be kind but clearly it was unnecessary on my part. im hurt. leave me alone. you have intruded far enough.

please leave me alone. i dont appreciate this. whats done is done. stay away from me.