A mountain in a panic attack
The mixing bowl, the cuisinart, the popcorn maker, the butter dish, all flew upward in a sudden rush. The roof of the building detached and flew skyward, silent like a lost balloon.
Gravity had failed. The tiles came undone around my feet, drifting off. I realized the problem and followed earthquake protocols to get outside. Down the stairs, and then the stairs rose up. The grass stood tall and straight, then, as if plucked by a child's hand, they started upward, too.
I'd been upset about the kitchenware. They’ll find new orbits, I figured, once they find new gravities to hold them. Until then, I hung out, the house all dismantled. The gravity was failing everything.
I tied a string around my glasses, and leaned way back when I had to pee. The earth beneath my feet streamed into space like so much spilled kitty litter. The sand rose up like backwards rain. I had to pinch my nose to prevent suffocating in a standing burial.
After that there was just blank space around me. There was a hemp rope tied around the top of a mountain over in the distance. When I tried to walk I couldn’t. I’d step into nothing, push my foot against nothing, and get nowhere. No gravity, no resistance. Just sneakers looking for footing.
So it’s me and the mountain and the hemp rope at the crest. I wondered, for too long, if gravity carries sound. Will my voice carry if my body can’t? I pondered this for two days. Self-conscious about shouting at a mountain.
“Yama-san!” I said. It’s day three, though the sun flew away, so who knows. Who even knows where this light is coming from.
Yama-san just keeps floating around. I take a good look. With no surface to rest on, his bottom is showing. Jagged and snarled roots of trees and brown dirt. It all feels arbitrary. Where does the spirit of a mountain start and end? Stones and crust in segments, layers of dust that cooled and melted and cooled and melted.
He would come and go in and out of focus. I inhale, he compacts himself. Exhale, he expands. When dust rolled off, it doesn’t fly skyward, but rolls down his sides, collecting at his belly.
I inhaled, he tightened. I exhaled, he grew. I watch him to be sure. I focused on the snow crest, his hemp rope crown. I saw trees bloom, and wilt, bloom, and wilt. Stones grew too. At a certain size they crumbled, and rubble rolled down the slope. Grass blooms and turns brown and returns taller. A swarm of cicadas rises up every 17 breaths, swarms and dies.
The breath is the timekeeper and the world gets larger. A thousand breaths and I see a kingdom rise, 100 breaths the castle burns, 2000 breaths the cuisinart is reinvented. Finally my feet meet the swollen belly of the mountain planet.
“Yama san!” I yell. “Now what?”
Nobody is able to tell me.