Coward

Shane’s nails are scrambling down Ilya’s back, leaving dark marks, his breaths are loud hiccuping gasps and cut off moans and his head is rubbing against the mattress under him squirming wriggling head thrown back in pleasurepleasurepleasure and god Shane loves being fucked so much. And Ilya growls and starts fucking him harder, deeper, somehow and Shane just gasps out.

“Love your cock oh my god” and Ilya is nodding frantic into his throat, biting at his neck. “For you” Ilya slurs out and Shane goes “yeah? It’s for me?” And his voice is pitchy and dazed and he’s he’s so fucking hard leaking wet and messy all over his cock and hip. Ilya nods nods and says “yes sweetheart for you” and Shane whines, broken sound and his toes curl and his leg kicks out, a jolt of his prostate being bullied by Ilya’s thick cock and Shane is nodding and is all.

“Yes, fuck my cock, all mine, belongs to me” and ilya is whining like a puppy, biting at Shane’s ears, jaw. And Shane is being fucked beyond thought, sense.

“Mine mine mine” Shane breathe, his hand fists tight into the back of Ilya’s curls and pulls, twists hard.

“My fucking cock Ilya. Made for me, made just for me, isn’t it? To fuck me like this- oh god” he shakes because he’s so close but he can’t stop “you belong to me, your cock belongs to me Ilya belongs inside me I’ll look after it I’ll always make it feel so good I promise I promise it’s all mine I’ll be so good to it. Love your cock. My cock” and Ilya is like.

Jesus Christ. I’m going to die. He feels insane, at being owned, at being made for Shane and knowing how badly he’s needed at Shane, Shane Hollander being possessive of him.

So I do think Shane dates Rose but the trigger is different. They have the tuna meltdown but Shane freaks out because he has a moment of clarity where he should not be fantasizing about cutting open his fuck buddy and licking their ribs. He should not be upset that the bloody teeth he gets in the mail are not ilyas teeth (he gets them semi regularly because ilya also sends him the teeth knocked out from other players but covered in his blood) and shane has ilya tied up in this web that he isn't even aware of and its just...its not normal. Shane is in love with Ilya and is incapable of being normal about him and maybe he should pull back. To be fair to Ilya.

So he tries something with Rose, tries to have a normal and appropriate relationship. Unfortunately ilya has already ramped up the insane letters and texts after the tuna meltdown rejection. Rose drives him over the edge. He's sending her and shane credible threats, he's mailing her dead animals and knives. She's like Shane this is not normal, how long have you had a stalker and when he's like 9 years, she's so freaked out that Shane realizes its just never gonna work with a normal person. He has no frame of reference as to why she's so scared and is kinda judging her. He's talked to ilya about the stalker in the past and ilya has always minimized and romantized the stalker's intentions (gee I wonder why) and clearly ilya is the only one who gets Shane's whole deal.

Meanwhile after the ccm commercial Shane starts using his professional connections to be as tied to Ilya as he can. His team is the driving force behind the rivalry narrative, he tries to have a finger in any pie that involves Ilya. This takes longer to ramp up because Shane needs to build his career before he starts being really effective but by the time they go to the cottage every single person in Ilya’s life is somehow also connected to Shane.

Meanwhile they are still hooking up and because they are mutually obsessed there's no real slip up because any time one of them says something thats intensely creepy, the other one is like 🥰 i feel so seen.

Ilya using hockey's bigotry to drive a wedge between Shane and his friends. Making it so that he's the only confidant Shane has, no one else understands Shane the way he does. Using Shanes internalized homophobia and need for secrecy to wind himself into all parts of Shane's life, until he has all of Shane's secrets (why does this feel like a threat whenever Shane things about this too hard? Better not think about it.) Rooting himself so deep into Shane's life that Shane could never get rid of him even if Shane wanted to. Reminding Shane that he couldn't get what Ilya gives him anywhere else because then he'd have to risk telling someone else, isn't he lucky he has Ilya to treat him so well.

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IF ANYONE UNDERSTOOD ME I KNEW IT'D BE YOU, LEGEND‼️‼️‼️

The one blind spot of this au is that I struggle to picture a Shane that would be attracted to someone who doesn't play hockey lol (hence where YOUR perfect mutual stalker au comes in), but I've decided that the slow grinding loneliness of being at the top with no one who truly knows him and understands him would help remove Shane's hockey tunnel vision a little bit. Shane is just so, SO lonely in this au. He never got his flint of desire!!

And that's where Ilya comes in. Because he's gonna manufacture that flint of desire from the ground up. And it really is so simple to make Shane his, and his alone, to use Shane's fear of discovery against him - it's us against the world, baby. Isn't that romantic? Aren't I so wonderful to stay a dirty little secret for you? Wouldn't you be willing to do anything for me, when I've already given up so much for you?

Yeah, Ilya's the one at Shane's house that they bought together, Ilya's the one living off Shane's salary, waiting for Shane to come home, to call him back, Ilya's the one who never complains, soothes Shane that he's RIGHT to be afraid, he's RIGHT to never tell anyone about them, because what would happen if they knew,,,

And how could Shane ever leave someone who's giving up so much for him? Who knows him sOoo well,,, he could never.

Stalker au where Ilya is Shane Hollander's biggest fan who's figured out Shane's big gay secret and who knows that they are actually soulmates who are meant to be together forever so he slooowly integrates himself into Shane's life, becoming a confidante, a trusted friend and then,,, well. Something more. Little does Shane know that all their miraculous twist of fate meet-cutes were very carefully orchestrated - Ilya wasn't going to leave it up to FATE to get the man of his dreams, are you kidding?