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Synopsys: From studio chaos and midnight phone calls to gentle confessions and years of longing finally unraveling, this is a story of love that doesnāt explodeāit grows. Softly. Quietly. Steadily. Because some love stories donāt start with fireworks. Some start with a shared dreamāand a boy who always brought you dinner.
Word count: 10k
Warnings: none, I think?
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Love that grows from friendship is the quietest kind.
It doesnāt strike like lightning or unravel like a slow-burn drama. It unfoldsāgently, without fanfare, in between coffee breaks and color palettes, late-night edits and sleepy glances across cluttered work tables.
Sometimes, itās years in the making. Years of inside jokes, of shared playlists, of standing at the edge of each otherās dreamsānot to take credit, but to make sure the other doesnāt fall.
Thatās how it was with you and Bang Chan.
You met as traineesāboth wide-eyed and tired, shoved into dance studios and vocal booths with a dozen other hopefuls. You didnāt want to be an idol, not really. It was your parentsā idea. āJust try,ā they said. āYouāre talented. See where it goes.ā
It went exactly as far as it needed to. Long enough to meet him.
You dropped out before debut. Not because you couldnāt keep upābut because you realized the spotlight was never yours to chase. What you loved was the storytelling, the world-building. Not standing center stageābut shaping what the audience would feel when the curtain rose.
So you stayed. You worked your way through internships and freelance projects until you were offered the role that finally felt right.
Creative Director ā one of the youngest in the company.
Now, youāre the one behind every comeback concept. The one in charge of moodboards and visual narratives, teaser aesthetics and tour stage designs. Itās your job to build the world fans fall in love with.
And for Stray Kids, that means working closelyāsometimes painfully closelyāwith their leader, your best friend.
Because if Bang Chan is the engine behind every song, youāre the one driving the car.
And itās never just work, not with him. Itās ramen eaten at 2AM over concept moodboards. Itās his sleepy laugh when he watches your editing notes play out in real time. Itās the way he rests his chin on your shoulder while watching final cuts of music videos, completely unaware of how still the world goes when heās that close.
Heās your best friend.
Youāre the one who reminds him to sleep, to eat, to take breaksānot because he needs to be looked after, but because he forgets he's allowed to pause. You notice the signs before they show: the way his voice gets quieter when heās tired, how he stares through screens when heās overwhelmed.
The boys call you omma when youāre scolding them over cluttered dressing rooms or skipped mealsābut with Chan, itās different. Itās quieter. Closer.
He never resists. Heāll let you steal his laptop mid-session if it means getting ten minutes of fresh air. Heāll groan but follow you when you tug him out of his chair, muttering about deadlines heāll still meet anyway. He listens when you speak, even if itās just to say, āYou good?ā after a long day.
And Chan⦠he leans into it. Into you. Not because he needs saving. But because with you, he finally lets himself breathe.
The meeting is scheduled for noon, but youāre already in the conference room ten minutes early, iced americano in one hand, your tablet in the other. Youāre flipping through early design concepts for the album visualsādark tones, nostalgic accents, a slightly rough edge to match the overall sound.
Then the door swings open, and in walks Bang Chan with the most unbothered smile on his face and a paper cup balanced on top of his head like some kind of crown.
āRoyalty has arrived,ā he announces with mock grandeur.
You donāt even look up. āYouāre late.ā
āIām ten seconds late.ā
āYouāre ten minutes late.ā
He drops into the chair across from you, the coffee crown still perched atop his curls. āSemantics.ā
You set your tablet down and give him a look. āI listened to the tracklist demo last night.ā
His eyes sparkleāproud, expectant. āAnd?ā
āItās solid,ā you admit, then pause, narrowing your eyes. āExcept for Railway.ā
He gasps. Full drama mode. āRailway is a masterpiece.ā
āItās a sensual R&B track in the middle of an emotional, identity-driven concept album,ā you say, deadpan. āExplain how that makes sense.ā
āItās a song about trains,ā he says, with a straight face that doesn't even crack.
You blink. āItās not about trains.ā
āItās literally called Railway. It has train sounds in the background.ā
āYou added those in post.ā
He grins, finally cracking. āOkay, but metaphorical trains. Itās layered. Nuanced.ā
You roll your eyes so hard it almost gives you whiplash. āYou wrote a thirst trap and tried to sneak it in between two ballads.ā
Chan shrugs, leaning back in his chair like a kid who just got caught red-handed and couldnāt care less. āBalance. Gotta give the people what they want.ā
āI am the people and I want you to pick a concept and stick to it.ā
āBold of you to assume youāre not the target audience of Railway.ā
Your cheeks burn immediately, but you recover fast. āBold of you to think I havenāt heard all fifteen versions of it in the studio, including the one with the backup moaning.ā
He chokes on his own coffee.
You smirk, victorious.
The meeting continuesātechnically. You both talk about visual elements, comeback schedules, and how to pace the release teasers. But between the points on your shared document, there's laughter, teasing, soft eye contact that lingers a second too long. You bicker like co-workers. You banter like best friends. And somewhere between debating whether red or gray better fits the mood of the lead single, you feel it againāthat quiet undercurrent of something warmer. Something slower.
Maybe it's love. Maybe it's just him. But either way, you donāt say it out loud. Neither does he. Not yet.
Jeonginās girlfriend wasnāt usually the nervous type. She had pitched branding concepts to CEOs and fought tooth and nail over key visuals with entire creative teams. But today was different. Today, she was presenting her draft designs for Stray Kidsā new comeback albumāto Bang Chan and you, the groupās creative director.
Sheād heard the stories.
Chan was a perfectionist. Jeongin said heād once rejected a logo because the spacing between the letters felt ātoo emotionally distant.ā
And you? Jeongin didnāt say much, but Hyunjinās flower girl had muttered once that you could make even the cockiest stylist cry if a color palette didnāt align with the concept vision. Apparently, you had taste and werenāt afraid to weaponize it.
So, yeah. She was a little terrified.
She arrived exactly on time, nerves bundled in her chest, carrying her portfolio and a neat little stack of mock-ups. The meeting room at JYPEās creative wing was bright, modern, andāthankfullyāquiet.
Chan was already there, lounging back in his chair with a coffee half-forgotten beside him. And you were at his side, leaned forward over the table, highlighter cap in your mouth as you scribbled a note on a storyboard draft.
She paused at the door.
You glanced up first. āYou must be Jeonginās girlfriend.ā
There was no icy professional front, no judgment. Just a soft, genuine smile as you stood to greet her. āIām glad youāre here. He said you were nervous, but thereās no need. Weāre not scary.ā
āYouāre not scary?!ā Chan said, voice teasing as he reached for his coffee again, as he looked at his maknae's beloved girlfriend with mischief in his eyes. āShe terrifies me. Have you ever seen her throw a Pantone book?ā
You kicked him lightly under the table. No hard feelings. Just playful banter between two people who are close. Super close. Have been for a long time,
The meeting flowed naturally after that. Her designsāmoody, tactile, layered with handwritten lyricsāseemed to land well. You traced your finger along one of the printed covers and murmured, āThis⦠This feels like the right kind of intimacy.ā
Chan didnāt even look at the mock-up. He was already looking at you when he said, āTold you she was perfect.ā
The rest of the review blurred. Jeongin's girlfriend took notes, absorbed feedback, but mostly she watched the two of you: the way Chan leaned toward you unconsciously, the way you nudged his coffee back toward him without thinking, the way his eyes softened when you laughed at something only the two of you seemed to understand.
By the time the meeting ended, she was no longer intimidated. Just intrigued.
She met up with Jeongin, Hyunjin, and flower girl at a nearby cafƩ that evening, unable to keep the thought to herself.
āSheās in love with him,ā she blurted out, pulling off her coat.
āWho?ā Jeongin asked, blinking.
āYour creative director. Sheās in love with Bang Chan.ā
Hyunjin actually dropped his spoon. His girlfriend nearly snorted her drink. Jeongin choked on his pastry.
āNo, no,ā Jeongin said once he caught his breath. āTheyāre like siblings.ā
āWorse,ā Hyunjin added. āTheyāre like⦠mom and dad. Not in a weird way. Justāyou know. The leadership pair. Itās strictly family.ā
āShe literally forces him to eat lunch,ā Jeongin added. āThatās not romance. Thatās parenting.ā
āBut theyāre so close,ā she argued. āTheyāre always touching. And the way he looks at herāā
āTheyāve been like that since we were trainees,ā Hyunjin said, tone final.
āTheyāre just affectionate,ā flower girl added. āItās normal. Theyāve been best friends for so long, they donāt even notice it anymore.ā
She frowned. āSo youāre telling me theyāre not in love.ā
The three of them answered at once:
āNope.ā āNot a chance.ā āAbsolutely not.ā
Still, as she took a sip of her coffee, something about their certainty didnāt sit right.
Because sometimes love doesnāt show up with fireworks and declarations.
Sometimes it slips into the everydayāinto quiet meals, gentle nudges, and the way someone instinctively reaches for your coffee before you even realize you've forgotten it.
The building was quiet.
Too quiet, really. Most of the staff had left hours ago, and even the clamor from the rehearsal studios had gone still. The only light in the control room came from the soft glow of monitors and the pale overhead bulbs that buzzed like they were tired, too.
Chan sat slumped on the couch, head tilted back, eyes fluttering open every few minutes like his body hadnāt gotten permission to rest just yet. His hoodie was bunched up under his chin, exposing the curve of his throat. His laptop blinked idly beside him, abandoned. For once.
You returned with two warm bottles of banana milk, holding one out without a word.
He took it with a sleepy smile, not even asking where youād found it at this hour. Of course you had a stash somewhere.
āIām going to tell HR that youāre my emotional support manager,ā he said, twisting the cap off.
āIād be unemployed in five seconds,ā you replied, taking a sip of your own.
Silence settled in again. But not the heavy kind. This one was soft, comfortable. The kind that only existed between two people whoād done this a thousand timesāsat in the quiet, side by side, not needing to say anything.
You nudged his knee with your own. āYou need to go home.ā
āI am home,ā he muttered.
āChan.ā
He peeked over at you with a small grin. āI know, I know. Youāre right. I just⦠need five more minutes.ā
āYou said that an hour ago.ā
āYeah, well, I like hanging out with you.ā
It was such a simple sentence. No weight to it, no emphasis. But it made your heart skip anyway.
You looked away first, pretending to inspect the label on your drink. āDonāt say stuff like that when youāre this tired. Youāre emotionally unstable.ā
āYou say that like Iām not emotionally unstable when Iām fully rested.ā
You rolled your eyes, but he was still watching you.
There was something about his gaze tonight. Not intense. Just⦠real. Like the usual noise had quieted enough for him to really see you. Like he didnāt have to be Bang Chan the leader or producer or hyung for a second.
Just Chris.
And Chris looked at you like your presence alone had made his day survivable.
You softened. āDo you want me to call you a car?ā
āNo.ā
āWhy?ā
āBecause then I won't get to spend time with you.ā
You blinked. That wasnāt the answer you expected.
He laughed, a little embarrassed now. āSorry. I didnāt mean it like that. I justācan you stay for a little longer? Just until I fall asleep. Youāre better than melatonin.ā
āGreat. Iāve been downgraded from creative director to sleep aid.ā
Chan reached out lazily and caught your sleeve, tugging you closer so that youād sit beside him again. Shoulder to shoulder. Familiar.
āIām serious,ā he said softly, āYou keep me sane.ā
You turned to face him, but he was already closing his eyes again, leaning his head onto your shoulder like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Maybe it was. And maybe thisāthis quiet, sleepy, warm version of himāwas the truest one of all. Sometimes too honest. Too raw. But never overwhelming. Always inviting. That's the charm of Bang Chan. That's why STAYs all over the world fall in love with him, without knowing him personally. He's a walking green flag. A boy with the kindest of souls, warmest of smiles, and prettiest of words. He always knows what to say to calm one down, to cheer someone up, or to make them believe they are worth it. That's why it seems so unfair to see him spiral, drive himself crazy over the public's perception of him.
It was almost 2:37 a.m. when your phone lit up.
You groaned, face buried in your pillow, blindly reaching for it with one hand and squinting at the caller ID: Han Jisung. You debated ignoring itāsurely he butt-dialed. But then came the second call, immediately after. Then a third. You sat up, heart skipping into emergency mode, and picked up.
āIs everything okay?ā
āNoona,ā he whispered like someone was holding him hostage, āheās doing it again.ā
āā¦Doing what again?ā
āThe thing.ā
āWhat thing, Jisung?ā
āThe thing where he writes songs he wants to strip to on stage!ā
You blinked. āWhat?ā
āIām serious. Heās got the lights off, thereās a red LED bulb on for ambiance, and heās been looping the same R&B drum beat for an hour. It sounds like a perfume commercial. Iām scared.ā
You sighed and pushed your hair back. āYouāre exaggerating.ā
āIām not! Changbin and I left the studio for ten minutes to get snacks, and when we came back, heād taken off his hoodie and was humming into the mic with his eyes closed. Heās gone.ā
You pinched the bridge of your nose. āYou want me to come there?ā
āYes, please, I'm begging you. Bring holy water. And maybe something he can emotionally latch onto so he doesnāt write a demo called āVelvet Handsā or something.ā
You groaned but swung your legs over the bed anyway. āIf this is a prank, I swear to Godāā
āI wish it was. But this man looked me dead in the eye and asked, āWhat if this comeback had a pole?āā
You were out the door in under ten minutes.
By the time you arrived, the dorm lights were off except for the glow under the crack of the studio door. You could hear the bass from the hallway.
You knocked.
āCome in,ā Chan called, voice smooth as silk.
You opened the doorāand immediately paused.
There he was. Hoodie abandoned on the back of his chair, in just a white tank top and joggers, legs crossed as he bobbed his head to a slow beat with a rose-tinted LED light casting a glow over his desk. The scent of instant coffee and something vaguely sandalwood hung in the air.
He turned and lit up. āWhat are you doing here, sleepyhead?ā
You squinted at him. āThe better question is, what in the Fifty Shades of Chris is going on in here?ā
He laughed, easy and unapologetic, like he knew he was caught. āItās not what it looks like.ā
āOh? Because it looks like youāre scoring a mood lighting commercial for a lingerie brand.ā
āOkay, a little what it looks like.ā
āJesus, Chan.ā
You stepped into the room as Jisung and Changbin poked their heads in from the lounge couch, thumbs up in silent thanks.
Chan leaned back in his chair, stretching with a yawn. āI had an idea. You know how our last title track was super high energy? What if this oneās more sensual? Slower? Grown?ā
āYou already tried that with āDrive,ā remember? Half the fandom had to sit down.ā
He smiled again, a little too proud. āExactly.ā
You sat down across from him and gave him the lookāyour patented Donāt-Make-Me-Take-Your-USBs-Again glare.
āChris.ā
āYes?ā
āDid you eat today?ā
He opened his mouth. Closed it. Then pointed weakly at a granola bar wrapper.
You raised a brow.
āā¦Okay, no.ā
You sighed and got up. āIām making you food. Then youāre going to shower. Then youāre going to sleep. And then youāre going to tell me why your Google doc is titled āSongs to Commit Crimes To.āā
He grinned sheepishly. āIt was a working title.ā
āYou need supervision.ā
āAnd thatās why I called you,ā Jisung chimed from the hall, triumphant. āGood night, lovebirds!ā
āWeāre notā!ā you started, but heād already disappeared.
Chan laughed again, soft and fond, as you rummaged through their kitchen for ramyeon and eggs.
āYou didnāt have to come, you know,ā he said, leaning in the doorway.
āApparently, I did.ā
āYeah,ā he said quietly, eyes never leaving you. āYou always do.ā
The kitchen was quiet except for the soft hiss of water boiling and the occasional clink of a spoon against a pot. You moved around the space with ease, focused on a late dinner or early breakfast, who knew at this point, while Chan lingered near the counter, rubbing the back of his neck nervously.
He didnāt say much, just watched you. You could tell his mind was racing, but the usual confident leader was nowhere to be foundāreplaced by something quieter, more uncertain. After a long pause, Chan finally cleared his throat, voice low. āThanks for⦠always being here. For all this.ā He gestured vaguely at the steaming food and the calm around you.
You looked up, meeting his eyes, and he quickly looked away, cheeks flushed. The vulnerability was so subtle it almost went unnoticed.
āItās nothing,ā you said softly. āYou donāt have to thank me.ā
He gave a small, tired laugh. āI do sometimes wonder⦠if I deserve it.ā His words barely a whisper, as if afraid to speak them louder.
You stepped closer, resting a hand lightly on his arm. āYou deserve kindness. You deserve care.ā
Chan swallowed hard, eyes flickering between you and the floor. āSometimes Iām scared if I let myself feel that⦠Iāll lose it all. That maybe⦠youād see the real me, andā¦ā
His voice faltered. You didnāt interrupt. You let the silence speak, letting him find the courage on his own time.
He finally looked up, the faintest trace of a smile breaking through the exhaustion. āBut⦠having you here like thisāit means more than I can say.ā
You smiled back, squeezing his arm gently. No confessions. No grand declarations. Just two people finding safety in the quiet moments between the noise.
The apartment buzzed with warmth and chatter, fairy lights casting soft glows over scattered wine glasses and snack bowls. The girlfriends had taken over the living room, sinking into cushions and stretching out comfortably as stories flew back and forth like old friends reuniting.
Seungminās lover, the stage manager, was rolling her eyes fondly at yet another ridiculous Seungmin anecdote, while Hanās girlfriend laughed, shaking her head at Jisungās latest tattoo drama. Flower girl was quietly giggling, sharing one of Hyunjinās latest artistic disasters, and Jeonginās girlfriend ā the graphic designer ā sat cross-legged on the floor, sketchbook forgotten in her lap as she listened intently.
Then, inevitably, the conversation turned towards you. Something you were dreading the whole night, not even understanding how you ended up in this situation in the first place. Jisung's girlfriend worked closely with you, hence why she politely asked you to join. However, being the only single person in the middle of such an ensemble was a nightmare turned reality.
āSo, what about you?ā Seugminās girlfriend asked, eyes flicking toward you with a teasing smile. āAnyone special in your life these days?ā
You took a slow sip of your wine, feeling all their curious eyes settle on you like a spotlight.
āHonestly? I donāt really have time for dating,ā you said with a shrug, trying to keep it light. āWork is nonstop. And when I do get a moment, Iād rather not waste it on awkward small talk or meaningless dates.ā
Jeonginās girlfriend raised an eyebrow, smirking slightly. āSounds like youāre dodging something,ā she teased. āOr someone.ā
You smiled faintly, voice dropping just a bit, like sharing a secret meant only for them.
āI believe⦠everyone is given one true love,ā you said softly. āAnd maybe Iāve already found mine.ā
A beat of silence.
āBut Iām pretty sure itāll never be reciprocated.ā
The room fell quiet for a moment, the usual buzz fading as your words hung gently in the air. No one pressed you, but the understanding was unmistakable ā a shared tenderness beneath the playful surface.
Jeonginās girlfriend nudged Flower girl, whispering something that made them both giggle, breaking the spell.
āOkay, enough of the heavy stuff,ā Seungmin's girlfriend declared, pouring another glass of wine. āLetās hear more embarrassing stories about our boys.ā
Laughter bubbled back up, filling the room again, but the little moment stayed with you ā a quiet truth shared with those who cared.
Your fingers trembled slightly as you sent a quick message, the warmth of the wine making your words a little looser than usual.
You Hey⦠you awake?
Chrisā„ļø Always. Whatās up?
You Just⦠had a little wine. Might be feeling a bit buzzed. But donāt worry, Iām fine.
Chrisā„ļø Buzzed, huh? That sounds like trouble.
You Iām a responsible adult, I swear.
Chrisā„ļø Sure, and Iām a unicorn. Come on, you donāt have to pretend. You sound exactly like you after a glass or three.
You Okay, maybe three. But Iām good. Promise.
Chrisā„ļø Good or not, do you want me to come get you? Or at least stay on the phone until youāre safe?
You Iām okay, really. Just⦠buzzed enough to text you random stuff.
Chrisā„ļø Thatās what worries me.
You shifted on the couch, laughter still ringing from your friends around you, but your eyes were fixed on the screen. The noise of the girlsā chatter softened at the edges as your mind floated to the familiar warmth in Chrisās messages. You hated feeling vulnerable, hated the idea of needing someoneābut his steady presence was a quiet comfort, a lifeline you didnāt realize you needed so much.
The night stretched on, and soon enough, a knock at the door pulled you from your thoughts. There he wasāChris, quietly standing with that familiar worried smile, ready to make sure you got home safely. In the chaos of deadlines, meetings, and your self-imposed armor, he was the calm you could always count on. Maybe one day, youād be brave enough to tell him exactly that.
You were too buzzed to notice, but Chris saw how all the girls shared a knowing look upon his arrival. He greeted everyone tenderly, considering the girls were his brothers' significant others, he tried to keep as close to them as possible, without ever intruding. However, he couldn't really decipher the suggestive eyebrow raises or cheeky winks sent towards him over your shoulder as you hugged everyone goodbye.
The ride home was quiet, the city lights blurring past the windows as you nestled into the passenger seat, your head heavy with tirednessāand maybe the wine, too. Your eyes fluttered shut before long, surrendering to the pull of sleep.
Chris glanced over at you from the driverās seat, his heart squeezing softly at the sight. You looked so peacefulāsoft features relaxed, breathing steady and calm. The world slowed down around him in that moment, and all the noise and stress of his endless schedule faded away.
He thought about how often you were the oppositeābusy, always moving, juggling a million things at once. But right now, in this small, quiet space, you were just⦠you. Unguarded. Vulnerable. And breathtaking.
There was something about the way you trusted him so fully, letting go enough to fall asleep beside him. It made him feel honored, like you were letting him hold a piece of your world no one else saw. That fragile quiet filled him with a warmth he couldnāt explain, a tenderness that made his chest ache in the best way.
He reached over carefully, brushing a stray strand of hair from your face, his fingers lingering for a moment on your cheek. If only you knew how deeply fond he was of youāhow every small gesture, every laugh, every late-night conversation stitched you closer into the fabric of his heart.
Tonight, he promised himself, heād just be here. Quiet. Present. Grateful for this moment.
Because loving youāhowever quietlyāwas the most real thing heād ever known.
The dressing room buzzed with restless energy, but the mood was far from lighthearted. Beneath the surface, tension rippled through the groupāsubtle shifts, hesitant movements, and uneasy glances that betrayed discomfort.
Chan stood by the door, trying to keep the peace, his voice calm but strained. āPlease, letās remove the tape on Jisungās tattoos. Heās clearly uncomfortable.ā
The stylist gave a polite nod but didnāt make any real move to fix it.
Across the room, Changbin tugged at a rough, scratchy shirt, biting back a grimace. āIām allergic to this fabric,ā he muttered, voice low but edged with frustration.
Then, almost like salt in a wound, a staff member handed Minho a compression shirt, smirking as they said, āHere, this one should fit betterāyouāve gained too much weight lately.ā
Chanās eyes flickered with disbelief and something sharperāhurt, maybe. The words hung in the air, heavy and cutting.
He continued to try, his tone measured but growing firmer, āEveryone deserves to be comfortable. Please listen to the members.ā
But his words seemed to vanish into the background noise as the staff ignored his requests, their dismissive attitudes making the room heavier.
And then the door swung open.
You stepped in, all business and steel-clad determination, the kind of presence that instantly demanded attention. The chatter died down to a hush. Chan watched you, admiration blooming quietly but fiercely inside him. You scanned the room with a steady gazeāsharp, unyielding, utterly confident.
āWhatās going on here?ā Your voice was cool but resolute, cutting through the tension like a blade.
Chanās chest tightened as relief and respect washed over him. Watching you take charge reminded him why he trusted you so completely.
In that moment, he thought about youāyour unbreakable character, the way you carried yourself with quiet, unwavering confidence. You never compromised your principles, never faltered when it came to protecting those you cared about. Your vision for the groupās comfort and well-being wasnāt just a jobāit was a passion, a fierce dedication that inspired everyone around you.
He admired how you stood up without hesitation, how your belief in respect and kindness was absolute. You moved through the room with purpose, addressing the stylists directly, your voice steady and firm.
āI donāt care how youāve done things before,ā you said, eyes locked on theirs. āMaking the members uncomfortable isnāt acceptable. Jisungās tattoos arenāt a problem to āfix.ā Changbinās allergy isnāt a fashion statement. And Minho deserves respectāno one talks to him like that.ā
The stylists exchanged uneasy looks, suddenly aware that their usual arrogance wasnāt welcome here. You held their attention with the kind of authority that came from years of knowing exactly who you wereāand what you would stand for.
āAdjust everything immediately, or Iāll find someone who will. This stops now.ā
āThank you,ā Chan said quietly, his voice low enough that only you could hear. His tired eyes met yours, filled with a rare vulnerability. āI tried to tell them to change whatever needed to be changed, but no one listened. Sometimes I'm just too polite to get my point across.ā
You softened, the sharp edge of your professional armor slipping just for a moment. The weight of the day faded away as you took a small step closer. Gently, you reached up and ran your hand through his hairāthe familiar curls now tamed, smoothed down by the stylists.
āI was actually imagining you leaving your hair naturally curly for this comeback,ā you murmured, your fingers lingering in the strands. āBut I guess the staff straightened it anyway.ā
Chanās lips curved into a sheepish smile. āThat was my call,ā he admitted quietly. āI thought people liked the straightened look better.ā
You shook your head, a small laugh escaping. āNo way. Everyone thinks youāre way hotter with your curls. Fans go crazy for it.ā
His eyes twinkled with something like relief, maybe even gratitude. For a brief moment, the chaos around you both dissolvedāthere was just the two of you, quiet and intertwined. In the middle of the dressing room frenzy, it felt like the only place that truly mattered was the connection shared between the two of you.
The studio feels unusually quiet this afternoon. The usual buzz has softened to a gentle hum, like the calm before a storm. The others are busy with their last preparations for the Japan trip, but you sit still, fingers hovering over your laptop, words caught somewhere between your mind and the screen.
Chan looks your way, hopeful but cautious. āYouāre coming with us, right?ā
His question is simple, but it carries more weight than you can say. Your heart twists painfully at the thought.
You want to go with them. You want to be there, beside him. But your feelings for him are getting tangled, overwhelming ā and youāre scared what might happen if you donāt keep some distance. You need to protect yourself.
You shake your head gently. āI think Iām going to stay in Seoul this time.ā
Chanās eyes widen for a moment ā surprise, confusion, maybe even a flicker of hurt, quickly masked. āOh. Okay.ā
He wonders why youāre staying behind.
Does she not want to be with me? Did I do something wrong? I donāt want to lose her ā sheās the one person I can always count on. But maybe Iām too much, or maybe Iām not enough.
You avoid his gaze, your heart pounding. āItās nothing to do with you. I just⦠need some space.ā
Chan tries to decipher what those words really mean.
Space? Does she mean distance? Or something else? Does she even feel the way I do?
The room suddenly feels colder, heavier.
Chan swallows and forces a small smile that doesnāt quite reach his eyes. āAlright. If thatās what you need.ā
I want to reach out, to tell her everything ā how I feel, how scared I am of losing her ā but Iām too afraid. What if she doesnāt feel the same? What if I ruin this?
You watch him quietly, your carefully held walls starting to crumble.
He deserves to know. He deserves to hear that you care, that the space you need isnāt because you want to leave him behind, but because you need time to sort through feelings that overwhelm you.
But the words stay locked inside.
As Chan zips his bag, the silence between you grows heavier ā fragile and full of unspoken things neither of you dares to voice.
You both sit there, two hearts aching quietly, afraid to cross the line into the unknown. You stand up, gathering your things slowly, the weight of unsaid words hanging in the air. Chan watches you, his fingers twitching at his sides, as if he wants to reach out but holds back. Before you walk away, his voice is barely above a whisper.
āHey⦠if you change your mind, just text me. I'll pay for your flight and all,ā
You turn, catching the sincerity in his eyes ā a soft, vulnerable light that you donāt often get to see. Your chest tightens. Without thinking, your hand brushes lightly against his arm. Itās a small touch, almost hesitant, but it sends warmth rushing through you both. Chanās breath catches. For a heartbeat, the distance between you feels smaller, less certain. You give him a shaky smile. Finally, he pulls you into a warm embrace, one that feels like home. He's renowned for his hugs; his muscular arms feel safe and calming as they encircle you, and as you're surrounded by his sweet vanilla scent, it becomes harder and harder to keep your distance.
āThank you, Chris.ā
He nods, fighting the urge to hold you there a little longer.
As you leave the studio, your heart aches ā filled with hope and fear tangled together, knowing that maybe, just maybe, this fragile moment is the start of something neither of you dared to say out loud.
The day had been relentless for Chrisāhours packed with rehearsals, last-minute adjustments, and the stress of their TV showcase looming large. Every little detail needed to be perfect, and the weight of it pressed down on him heavier than he expected. It's always difficult for him to manage all this chaos without having you there. By the time he finally got back to his hotel room, his mind was still racing, the exhaustion in his body nowhere near enough to quiet his thoughts.
He stared at the ceiling, the buzzing of his phone beside him offering a small comfort. Without really thinking, he swiped it awake and dialed the one person he knew would calm the storm in his chest.
You answered on the second ring, your voice sleepy but warm. āHey.ā
āHey,ā Chris said, voice a little rough. āLong day⦠couldnāt sleep.ā
You yawned softly. āSame here. Whatās on your mind?ā
He let out a tired chuckle. āEverything and nothing. The showcase prep is driving me crazy. The kids are great, but the pressure⦠you know.ā
You listened quietly, the calm steadiness of your voice smoothing the edges of his tension. āYou always manage to hold it together, Chris.ā
āOnly because I have you to remind me to breathe,ā he said, and the sincerity in his tone made your heart skip.
For a while, the two of you just talked ā quiet, easy conversation about silly things and shared memories, letting the comfort of each otherās presence work its magic. The cityās distant noises faded away, replaced by the soft intimacy of the call.
āIām really glad you picked up,ā Chris whispered.
āMe too,ā you answered, your eyes closing as the warmth of the moment wrapped around you.
āHey, promise me youāll get some sleep tonight?ā
āI promise,ā you said.
A long pause. Then, his voice, softer now. āGoodnight, pretty girl.ā
āGoodnight, Chris.ā
The phone slipped from your hand as sleep finally took you, the quiet sound of Chrisās even breathing the last thing you heard before drifting off.
As soon as he got back, you were over at his place. He didn't even get to unpack, which for a meticulously clean and organized person like him was equal to hell, but he wanted you there as soon as it was possible. He dialed your number from the airport shuttle, begging to see you. And you can't say no to Chan. It's impossible. And he knows.
The apartment was filled with the comforting aroma of a home-cooked meal, Chris moving around the kitchen with practiced ease. You admired the way he handled the pans and spices ā precise, confident, and calm. Unlike his usual self-consciousness in public, here he was in his element, effortlessly creating something delicious. You slipped in to help, chopping vegetables or stirring sauces, your laughter blending with the soft music heād put on.
When Jeongin and his girlfriend arrived, the atmosphere shifted to playful and lighthearted. Jeonginās grin was impossible to miss.
āDouble date vibes tonight, huh?ā he teased, elbowing his girlfriend with a sly smile.
You and Chris exchanged quick, shy glances. Both of you turned a shade of pink, feeling that familiar mix of warmth and awkwardness as Jeonginās joke hit right where it counted. You laughed nervously, trying to play it cool, but the teasing was relentless ā and honestly, it just made the evening feel more special.
After they left, the night settled into quiet comfort. You and Chris retreated to his room ā his sanctuary, a place full of soft lighting, scattered notebooks, and the faint scent of his cologne mixed with the faintest trace of coffee from his late-night sessions.
You settled into the familiar nest of blankets and pillows on his bed, limbs entwined like you always did. The world outside faded away. His hand found yours, fingers curling around yours with that gentle, grounding pressure that made your heart beat a little slower.
He brushed a stray lock of hair from your face, lulling you to sleep. He slowly leaned in, sure that you were already floating in dreamland, pressing a little kiss to your forehead. His voice was low, hesitant but filled with something youād longed to hear.
āI missed you so much,ā he whispered, so soft that you barely heard it.
Your breath caught ā a smile tugged at your lips. You didnāt say anything, you knew he didn't mean for you to hear his quiet confession, so you stayed put. Nuzzled into his chest. The silence wrapped around you both like a tender promise.
And as you drifted off to sleep, still tangled in each otherās arms, you felt a warmth settle deep inside ā the quiet certainty that maybe, just maybe, you werenāt alone in feeling this way after all.
You lie there, feeling his heartbeat slow and steady next to you, and the quiet weight of his words resting softly on your skin. Itās everything you didnāt dare say out loud, and suddenly everything feels both fragile and certain at once.
You want to tell him that youāve been afraid ā afraid of losing this, afraid of hoping too much, afraid of how much you care. But right now, words feel unnecessary. You just want to stay here, wrapped up in the warmth of him, and believe that maybe, this could be the start of something real.
You donāt know what tomorrow holds, but for the first time in a long time, you feel brave enough to let the possibility in. Maybe love doesnāt have to be scary. Maybe it can be this quiet, steady, and soft. Maybe itās already here.
You Hey, did you actually eat today or are you surviving on caffeine and sheer willpower again?
Chanā„ļø Haha, I had a sandwich. Barely counts, I know. But donāt worry, Iām not turning into a walking skeleton yet.
You Barely counts? Chris, youāre supposed to be the leader, not a starving artist. I swear, if I see you at the studio looking like youāve forgotten how to human, Iām dragging you out for food myself.
Chanā„ļø Deal. Speaking of dragging, when can we schedule that meeting to go over the tour details? I need your magic on this.
You How about Thursday afternoon? Iāll bring snacks as a bribe.
Chanā„ļø Thursday it is. You bring snacks, Iāll bring the caffeine. Perfect.
You Also, have you noticed Changbinās been acting weird lately? Like, seriously weird?
Chanā„ļø Haha, you mean the way he stares at the new personal chef like she hung the stars? I caught him trying to āaccidentallyā get into the kitchen more than once.
You Right?! Iām pretty sure heās got a crush. This is going to be interestingā¦
Chanā„ļø Oh man, imagine the chaos. Should we start placing bets on how long before he actually talks to her?
You Youāre on. But if he messes it up, Iām blaming you for not coaching him properly.
Chanā„ļø Fair enough. Guess I better start my mentorship duties early.
You knew he hadnāt eaten properly all day. You saw the way his eyes were a little tired, how his movements had the usual restless energy but lacked the usual spark. So, you did what you always didāshowed up at the studio, determined to drag him away from his work.
When you slipped into the control room, Chris was hunched over the mixer, headphones around his neck, completely absorbed. You cleared your throat softly, and he looked up, surprised but relieved in equal measure.
āHey,ā you said, voice gentle but firm. āCome on. Youāre not finishing that without food. Iām taking you out.ā
He hesitated for a moment, that familiar crease between his brows, but then he gave a small, grateful smile. āYouāre relentless.ā
You took his handāa quick, familiar squeezeāand led him out before he could say no. The city lights blurred past the windows as you drove to a quiet little restaurant you both liked. The kind of place where the lighting was soft, and the music was just low enough to hear your own thoughts.
Chris was different here, relaxed. He pulled out your chair with a gentlemanās ease, ordered your favorite dishes without asking, and laughed softly at your jokesāthose little things that made his presence feel like home.
You watched him across the table, the way his eyes caught the candlelight, the easy warmth in his smile. It stirred something deep inside you. A flutter of hope mixed with the fear that maybe, just maybe, this wasnāt just friendship anymore.
You wanted to reach out, to tell him all the thoughts swirling in your mindāthe late nights you spent wondering if he felt the same, the quiet moments you replayed where maybe he was sending signs you missed. But you stayed silent, because saying it aloud felt too fragile, too risky.
Chris caught your gaze, and there was something in his eyesāa flicker of the same hesitation, the same unspoken yearning.
The conversation drifted softly, filled with comfortable silences and light teasing. Neither of you rushed to cross the invisible line, but the space between you was charged with all the things you werenāt saying.
When you finally left the restaurant, the night air cool against your skin, Chris slipped his hand into yours without hesitation. It was a small, simple gesture, but it said everything neither of you dared to speak.
And as you walked side by side, your heart thrumming with a nervous hope, you realizedāthis was real. And it was terrifying.
But somehow, you didnāt want to look away.
Chris stepped back into the studio, the familiar hum of equipment greeting him like an old friend. He barely had time to drop his bag before Han and Changbin were all over him like a storm.
āSo? How was the dinner? Did you finally say it? Spill the tea, hyung!ā Jisung practically bounced on the balls of his feet, eyes shining with excitement. āYouāve been dragging this out forever, man! Sheās perfect for you, you know that, right?ā
Chris sighed, rubbing the back of his neck as he tried to dodge the barrage. āI didnāt say anything, okay? It was just dinner.ā
āJust dinner?!ā Han threw his hands up dramatically. āHyung, thatās like the first step to confessing! Youāve got to put the moves on her, make her see that youāre the one!ā
Changbin, whoād been silently watching the exchange, finally stepped in with his trademark calm tone. āHan-ah, maybe ease up a bit. Channie hyung, listenāif youāre scared or unsure, thatās normal. But you donāt have to rush it. Just be honest. Start small. Show her you care, and when the time feels right, tell her.ā
Chris looked between the two, a small smile tugging at his lips despite the pressure. Jisung was a hurricane of energy and encouragement, sureābut Changbinās steady voice made more sense.
āI know. Itās just⦠hard,ā Chris admitted quietly. āI donāt want to mess this up. She means too much to me.ā
Han clapped him on the shoulder so hard Chris nearly stumbled. āThen stop overthinking and just go for it! Weāve got your back, hyung.ā
Changbin nodded firmly. āWe do. And no matter what happens, youāve got us.ā
Chris let out a breath he hadnāt realized heād been holding. With friends like theseāsome chaotic, some calmāmaybe he wasnāt so alone in this after all.
The rest of the group was glued to the karaoke machine, belting out pop hits with that mix of enthusiasm and off-key charm only close friends could appreciate. The room was alive with laughter and music, but you had slipped away to a quieter corner with Hyunjin, Flower Girl, Jeongin, and his girlfriend.
The soft clink of glasses punctuated the hum of conversation as the girls leaned in, eyes sparkling with curiosity.
āSo,ā Flower Girl teased, swirling her drink, āYou called someone your āone true loveā on girlās night. We need details. Who is he? Whatās going on?ā
Jeonginās girlfriend grinned, adding, āYeah, spill it! Any advances? Is he making moves or what?ā
Hyunjin was already dramatizing the moment, his voice dropping to a mock-serious whisper. āCome on, this is a moment worthy of a drama. Does he know heās won your heart? Has he confessed yet, or are you torturing him like the dramatic lead you are?ā
You laughed softly, feeling a little warm from the wine and the company. āMaybe things have been⦠different lately,ā you said, eyes darting around just enough to keep them guessing.
The girls exchanged knowing looks, ready to pry more, but before they could launch into another round of questions, Chan appeared.
His eyes were a little glassy, and a goofy grin spread across his face as he wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you close with affectionate familiarity. āHey, no leaving me alone, okay?ā His voice was low, slightly slurred but full of warmth.
You leaned into his embrace, the buzz in your head settling into a calm comfort. āIām not going anywhere,ā you murmured, a smile tugging at your lips.
Hyunjin gasped theatrically, clutching Flower Girlās arm. āWell, thereās your answer, ladies! The clingy best friend has arrived!ā
Jeongin rolled his eyes but grinned. āItās about time.ā
You glanced up at Chan, who was looking at you with a softness that made your heart flutter and your worries melt away, at least for the moment. Chan tightened his hold on you, but the teasing from the girls was relentless.
āHey, Chris,ā Flower Girl said with a sly smile, āYou do know noonaās been calling someone her āone true loveā at girlās night, right?ā
Jeongin chuckled, nudging Chanās side. āYeah, weāre all trying to figure out who this mystery guy is. Itās like a secret mission for us.ā
Chanās smile faltered for the barest moment. His buzzed brain knew better than to get upset. He didnāt have the right to be jealous ā not when you hadnāt said anything, hadnāt given him a sign. Still, a flicker of something like possessiveness tightened in his chest.
āYeah, well,ā Chan said, voice a little rougher than usual but carefully calm, āIām not worried. Whoever he is, he better be worth it.ā
You caught the shadow in his eyes and squeezed his hand softly. āNo one else compares.ā
The girls exchanged amused glances, clearly loving the low-key tension.
Hyunjin smirked. āAw, poor Channie hyung. So sweet, but so defeated.ā
Jeongin laughed. āDonāt worry, hyung. Youāre not losing noona just yet.ā
Chan just shook his head, a small smile tugging at his lips, though inside he was quietly fighting down a storm of hope and fear ā the same storm you were feeling.
The night air was cool and soft as Chan wrapped his jacket around your shoulders, his fingers lingering just a moment longer than necessary. You walked side by side down the quiet streets, the buzz of the party fading behind you like a distant memory.
He was quieter now, the confident teasing replaced by a gentle protectiveness that made your heart flutter. You could feel his warmth, steady and reassuring, as you both navigated the dimly lit sidewalks.
At your doorstep, he hesitated, eyes searching yours like he was looking for permission without words. You leaned into him, still a little tipsy, your breath catching as he pulled you closer.
Without any grand confession, just a simple, heartfelt murmur, he whispered, āI donāt want to say goodbye just yet.ā
That was all it took.
Before either of you could overthink it, his lips found yoursāsoft, a little shaky, but full of everything he hadnāt said aloud. You melted into the kiss, fingers threading into his hair, the world shrinking until it was just the two of you in the quiet night.
When you finally pulled back, breathless, Chan rested his forehead against yours, a shy smile tugging at his lips. āGoodnight,ā he whispered, voice thick with feeling.
And just like that, everything changedāthough neither of you quite knew it yet.
The studio was quiet, the usual hum of equipment softened by the early morning calm. You arrived early, clutching your tablet filled with notes and schedules, ready to dive into the dayās agenda. Chan was already there, leaning against the desk with his usual relaxed smile, but there was something different in his eyes today ā a flicker of something unsettled.
āHey,ā he said, voice low but steady. āCan we talk about last night?ā
You glanced up, offering a polite smile but immediately returning to your notes. āIād love to, Chris, but we have the new tour timelines to finalize, and the creative direction for the lighting effects still needs your input.ā
He stepped closer, hopeful. āI meanāus. What happened.ā
You nodded, voice clipped but careful, āRight now, Iām focused on ensuring the choreography cues sync perfectly with the stage design. I think if we prioritize that, the rest will fall into place.ā
Chanās expression faltered, his smile tightening. āYouāre dodging me.ā
āNot at all.ā You tapped on your tablet, scrolling. āIām just being responsible. The boys need us to be sharp. Weāll get to personal stuff later, okay?ā
He sighed, running a hand through his hair, eyes searching yours for a crack in the armor. When none came, he took a step back.
āFine,ā he said quietly, hurt clear in his voice. āGuess Iāll figure it out on my own.ā
Without waiting for a reply, he turned and walked away, leaving a silence heavier than any words. You sat there, heart pounding, guilt settling in even as you tried to bury it under the weight of your work.
You watch him walk away, your chest tight. You tell yourself itās just about workāstaying professional is the only way to keep things from spiraling out of control. But deep down, the ache is undeniable. Youāve been protecting yourself, building walls because these feelings scare you more than you want to admit. Could you handle the possibility of losing him as more than a friend?
Chanās footsteps fade down the hall, but in his mind, the moment replays over and over.
She wonāt talk to me. Sheās shutting me out. The frustration twists in his gut, but underneath it all, thereās a small flame of hope. Maybe you're scared too. Maybe you just donāt know how to say what you feel.
He thinks about how carefully you always carry your heart, how you put on that strong, unbreakable front like a shield. But to him, that isnāt weaknessāitās a kind of bravery. And it makes him want to protect you even more.
I canāt give up on herānot now.
Back at your desk, you force your focus back to the glowing screen, but your mind is tangled in āwhat ifs.ā What if youād been softer? What if youād let yourself be vulnerable? But the fear of crossing that line, of exposing yourself to pain, keeps you locked in your professional shell.
You take a deep breath. Tomorrow, maybe, youāll try again.
Your inbox dings just as you wrap up your work. You open the email from Chris, expecting the usual files for the comeback lighting setup. But then you see itāa whole folder attached, titled with your name.
Curious, you click it open. Inside are dozens of raw, unpolished demosāall love songs. Written by Chris himself. Songs heād never meant anyone to hear yet, especially not you.
Across town, Chrisās phone buzzes urgently. Itās Jisung's girlfriend, the PR manager of Stray Kids.
āHey, Chris, quick question,ā she says, trying to keep her voice professional but with a hint of amusement. āDid you mean to send some files just now? Because thereās a folder attached withāuhānoona's name on it. I was included on the email thread, so I saw it.ā
Chris freezes, confusion twisting into panic. āWait, what? I didnāt send anything like that. Which folder?ā
She chuckles. āThe one titled with your Creative Directorās name. That one.ā
Chrisās breath hitches. His mind races. āNo, no, that canāt be right. That was not supposed to go out. IāI donāt even remember attaching that.ā
Chan hears Jisung's voice on the other side of the call, in full teasing mode.
āDude! You seriously sent your secret love song folder? The one you never share with anyone?! Man, youāre so busted!ā
Chris runs a hand through his hair, heart pounding in his chest.
āYeah⦠Iām officially doomed.ā
Chris was already halfway across the city when his phone buzzed with your message: āIām at the studio. We need to talk.ā Panic clawed at his chest, his mind spinning out of control. He couldnāt let you listen to those songs. Not like this. Not now.
When he burst into the studio, he found you thereāsitting quietly in his chair, headphones on, the soft glow of the computer screen illuminating your face. One by one, the songs played, each one carrying the weight of his most hidden feelings.
His voice stumbled out, frantic and breathless. āThis wasnāt supposed to happen. None of this was supposed to happen. The kissāme sending those songsāit was all a mistake.ā
You slowly took off the headphones, your eyes shining with unshed tears, voice trembling but steady. āWas it really a mistake? Do you mean any of those things you wrote in those songs?ā
Chris hesitated, heart breaking at the sight of your fragile expression, the quiet sadness that clung to you like a second skin. But instead of softening, his frustration boiled over.
āNo, youāre not the one who should be sad,ā he snapped, voice rising. āYou still have your one true love out there, you said so yourself. You're the one who didn't want to talk about our kiss in the first place, probably because of him. Youāre the one who gets to be happy with someone else after this, while I lose my best friend and the love of my life at the same time.ā
His words hit like a slap. Your breath caught. Your voice cracked with fury and heartbreak as tears spilled down your cheeks. āThatās you, you absolute idiot! Itās always been you, Christopher! Ever since you snuck me food during our trainee days, Iāve been in love with you. You're the one I was talking about that night, you're my one true love.ā
The room fell into a heavy silence, the weight of your confession hanging between you. Chrisās eyes softened, searching yours, finally understanding just how long and how deeply this had been brewing inside you both.
Chris's breath hitched, eyes wide with disbelief and an overwhelming rush of happiness. The weight of yearsāof silence, of hidingāseemed to lift all at once. His heart pounded louder than ever before, as if finally free to beat without restraint.
Without thinking twice, he closed the small gap between you in one swift step. His hands reached up to cup your face gently but urgently, trembling just a little. And then, without hesitation, he pressed his lips to yours.
The kiss was fierce and full of everything heād been too scared to sayāthe longing, the fear, the hope, and the unshakable love that had quietly grown between you all along.
You melted into him, your hands threading through his hair, grounding him. Time blurred. The noise of the world faded away until there was only thisāonly the warmth of his lips, the steady beat of his heart matching yours.
Chris pulled back just enough to look into your eyes, his own shining with relief and something rawāvulnerability mixed with hope.
āIāve loved you for so long,ā he whispered, voice trembling but steady. āSince those trainee days when Iād sneak you food because I didnāt want you to go hungry. Since every time I stayed up late, not just because of work, but because I was thinking about you. I was scaredāscared you didnāt feel the same, scared Iād lose the best thing Iāve ever had if I said anything. But I canāt hide it anymore. You are the one I want. Youāve always been the one.ā
He brushed a stray strand of hair behind your ear, his fingers lingering on your cheek as if memorizing your face. āYouāre my person. My home. Iām done being afraid.ā
His gaze never wavered as he waited, hoping you could see just how true it all was.
Love with Chris never needed an occasion.
It weaved itself into the hours between rehearsals and meetings, slipped through quiet spaces where no one was looking. It lingered in how he reached for your hand when the cameras werenāt on, how he always had a snack stashed away just in case you hadnāt eaten. It lived in stolen glances during choreography, in warm coffees passed to you before your fingers got too cold, in songs he never meant to share but somehow always found their way to you.
The music swells through the studio, crisp and thunderous beneath the harsh hum of overhead lights. It echoes with every stomp of sneakers against the polished floor, every timed breath of eight bodies moving in sync. You stand just off to the side, tablet balanced against your chest, tracking cues and transitions with practiced precision.
But thereās a warm weight pulling at the edges of your focusāsomething gentle, persistent, and wearing a black sleeveless tee.
Chris.
You try not to watch him. You do. But thereās something about the way his brow knits together when heās concentrating, the way his mouth tugs into a half-smile every time he catches your eye. The way his gaze keeps sliding back to you, like he canāt help it.
Youāre wearing his hoodie. Thatās probably part of it.
Itās a simple thingāgrey, worn-in, oversized. Youād thrown it on without thinking when the studio air turned too cold this morning, sleeves hanging long past your fingers. It smells like clean laundry and faint cologne and something undeniably Chris. And maybe thatās whatās messing with his head.
Because you notice it, tooāthe split-second beat he misses in the choreography, the tiny stutter in his footwork.
āChris!ā Changbinās voice cuts through the music, sharp but amused. āYou planning to look at the floor or your girlfriend the whole time?ā
Chris startles, eyes widening like he forgot where he was. The rest of the boys chuckle. Seungmin shakes his head, muttering something about āheart eyes,ā and Hyunjin just smirks knowingly.
Chan stumbles through the rest of the sequence, then jogs over to you when the track cuts out. Heās flushed and slightly breathless, his hair sticking to his forehead.
āIām so sorry,ā he pants, eyes flicking to the hoodie and then back to your face. āYouāreāuhādistracting.ā
You blink, playing innocent. āMe?ā
He groans quietly, tugging on one of your sleeves. āYouāre wearing my hoodie. Itās not fair. I canāt think straight.ā
You grin, amused and fond all at once. āThen maybe donāt give me things if you donāt want me wearing them.ā
āI want you wearing them!ā he blurts, then immediately winces at himself. āI just⦠not during rehearsals. My brain short-circuits.ā
You raise a brow. āYouāre blaming your dancing mistakes on me?ā
He shrugs sheepishly, eyes crinkling. āMaybe. But only because I keep looking at you and thinking sheās in my clothes. Like, mine. It does something to me.ā
You donāt say anythingāyou just hold his gaze a second longer than necessary. His cheeks flush again.
Then, before he runs back, he leans in with a quick, stolen whisper: āYou can keep it, by the way.ā Your heart stumbles the tiniest bit, just like his feet had.
The green room feels quieter than usual, the kind of quiet that settles after a long day but before the next begins. You slip in first, the sound of your coffee lid popping open the only interruption. Thereās a warm hum of laughter somewhere down the hallwayāJeongin and Han, probably still arguing about something ridiculousābut in here, itās calm.
You curl up on the far couch, tucking your legs beneath you, fingers wrapped around the paper cup.
You barely get a sip in before you feel itāthe slight dip of the cushion behind you, the warm presence youāve come to know instinctively. He doesnāt say anything at first. Just settles in, letting his knee brush yours, letting his arm stretch out behind you on the couch like he has every right to it.
Then his voice, soft and scratchy from overuse: āHey.ā
You glance at him sideways. āHey.ā
He tilts his head, eyes drifting to your cup. āIs that your first one today?ā
You sigh. āSecond.ā
He hums thoughtfully, unconvinced. āDid you eat anything?ā
You give him a pointed look. āChris.ā
āIām just asking,ā he says, lips curving. āI worry.ā
āYouāre not my mom.ā
āNo,ā he agrees, inching closer. āIām your boyfriend. That gives me, like, triple the authority.ā
You roll your eyes, but the affection in your chest blooms anyway, soft and steady. Especially when he leans his head gently onto your shoulder, nestling into the crook of your neck like heās found his home there.
āI like you like this,ā he murmurs. āSoft. Sleepy. In my hoodie.ā
āYou really like this hoodie, huh?ā
He lifts his head just enough to look at you. āI love it on you. You have no idea. Itās unfair.ā
From the hallway, Jeonginās voice rings out, sharp with mock jealousy. āHyung! Share! Sheās gonna forget the rest of us exist!ā
Chan doesnāt even flinch. He wraps his arms around your waist and replies casually, āThatās the plan.ā
You laugh, warmth unfurling through your ribs, and let yourself fall back against his chest.
Itās one of those rare moments where the day slows down enough for it to feel almost like a secret. The studio lights are dimmed, the hum of activity dulled to a background hush, and Chris stands by the console with a mischievous glint in his eyes.
You walk in expecting a conversation about deadlines.
You get a boy holding out his tablet like it contains treasure.
āI wrote something,ā he says, barely able to hide the eagerness in his voice. āI wanted you to hear it first.ā
You narrow your eyes in amusement. āAnother love song?ā
His smile faltersājust a little. āYeah. I guess I canāt stop.ā
You take the tablet from him, earbuds already offered. āI feel like Iāve become your muse or something.ā
He watches you closely as you press play. The melody is soft, gentle, like a heartbeat in lullaby form. And the lyricsāfull of quiet longing and the kind of devotion that feels built over years.
When the song ends, you take the earbuds out slowly.
Chris is still watching you.
āI donāt even know when it started,ā he says, voice barely above a whisper. āBut now itās like⦠every chord, every verse⦠they all sound like you.ā
Before you can reply, the door creaks open and Hyunjin walks in dramatically, tossing his hair like heās entering a stage. Jeongin follows, mid-laugh.
āWhat are we listening to?ā Hyunjin asks, already grinning. āAnother ballad? Another āI love you more than airā moment?ā
Chris glares. āItās not like that.ā
āSure itās not,ā Jeongin smirks. āWeāre just saying, maybe spare us the next eight-song EP titled āMy Girlfriendās Smile, Vol. 1ā.ā
You snort, unable to help it. Chris groans.
But thenāhe turns to you, all jokes aside, and says quietly, āIf Iām gonna flood the studio with songs, they might as well be about the best thing that ever happened to me.ā
The boys both groan.
You, on the other hand, are already replaying the melody in your head, heart swelling with every beat.
Love that grows from friendship is the quietest kind.
It doesnāt strike like lightning or unravel like a slow-burn drama. It unfoldsāgently, without fanfare, in between coffee breaks and color palettes, late-night edits and sleepy glances across cluttered work tables.
Sometimes, itās years in the making. Years of inside jokes, of shared playlists, of standing at the edge of each otherās dreamsānot to take credit, but to make sure the other doesnāt fall.
Thatās how it was with you and Bang Chan.
You learned the language of his silences, the softness behind his steady hands. And he learned to trust the steady rhythm of your presenceāthe kind of comfort that doesnāt need words to be felt.
No grand declarations, no fireworksājust the steady warmth of two souls intertwined, quietly daring to be seen, quietly daring to belong.
And in that quiet, you found a love so true it's unnecessary to shout from rooftops.















