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Hi, dear person!

This blog was created so that I can keep myself entertained after I come home from work. I don't plan on disposing a bunch of information about myself here, but I'll tell you this much:

✨I am 26

✨my pronouns are she/her, but it doesn’t really matter, in my mother tongue there are no pronouns

✨I am not a native English speaker, so you might run into spelling mistakes and gramatical errors, but hey, we’re all here to have fun

✨I’m not really comfortable with sexual themes, please do not expect me to write smut or anything similar

✨I also like music a lot, so if you have any song suggestions send them my way

✨I have ADD, if you cannot understand what I’m trying to express in my writing, I’m really sorry, my brain be doing that

𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

✨Be nice!! To me, to others, and to everyone! Criticism is appreciated only if it is uplifting and does not make anyone else uncomfortable.

✨Please do not ask me to write anything sexual, I'm not comfortable with that!

✨Please do not steal my work, if you'd like to translate or quote anything, let me know.

✨Please take the fact that I am not a native English speaker into consideration. I might make some mistakes and I would appreciate it if you'd let me know if my spelling or grammar is faulty, just be nice about it!

✨Please let me know if you find something I have written disturbing or offensive, I am trying to do my best so that I won't hurt anybody, but I'm human and mistakes happen. I will change/remove all content that might cause harm.

𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

lonely with our love - bang chan

Synopsys: As a rising music producer you land the opportunity of a lifetime, co-producing Stray Kids’ albums alongside Bang Chan. But as your relationship deepens beyond the studio, the harsh realities of fame, distance, and ambition threaten to pull you apart—until a viral song exposes the truth neither of you can ignore.

Genre: angst, with a fluffy end >.<

Song mentioned: Charlotte Cardin - Lonely with Our Love

Word count: 3.1k

花吐き病 - han jisung

Synopsys: Han Jisung catches Hanahaki disease—coughing up petals and blood from unrequited love. As his symptoms worsen, his bandmates rally to protect him, while he tries to get in contact with the girl he got into this mess for. Between humor, heartbreak, and fragile hope, Jisung must confront his feelings—and find a chance at love before it’s too late.

Word Count: 10,4k

Genre: ANGST (but it's a happy ending)

TRIGGER WARNINGS: Graphic descriptions of blood and illness, anxiety and panic attacks, fear of death / terminal illness themes, emotional distress / heartbreak / unrequited love, hospitalization / medical procedures, mentions of injury or blood loss, fainting/weakness / fatigue.

따뜻해진 너 - lee know

Synopsys: I don't know what this is, I wrote it at 1 am, please bear with me. Minho is soft and sleepy tho. 😭

A late-night spiral, a bathroom breakdown, and the realization that love doesn’t always come in words—but in every quiet, unfiltered thing he does.

Genre: fluff

Word count: 889

sherlock - kim seungmin

Synopsis: Seungmin goes into a spiral trying to figure out what he could have done wrong to make you so upset that you're giving him the silent treatment.

Word count: 2,5k

Genre: fluff

ENJOYYYYY!

tiktok trends that reveal your relationship - skz ot8

Synopsys: I think the title says it all, random viral tiktok video styles and how they expose your relationship with each skz memebr separately.

Word Count: around 800-900 each

Warnings: none, I guess?

ENJOY!

butterfly kisses - bang chan

Synopsys: Did I see the latest Racha Log where Hannie zoomed in on Chan's eye? Yes. Did I get cuteness aggression from his insanely long lashes? Also yes. Am I gonna make it everyone's problem by writing a 2k-word piece about it? Absolutely yes.

Warnings: the reader is mentioned to have worked out with Chan

Genre: FLUFF

ENJOOOOY!!!!!

𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅𝐅𝐀𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐒𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

SKZ - PRE-BOYFRIEND TEXTS

BANG CHAN // LEE KNOW // CHANGBIN // HYUNJIN // HAN // FELIX - TBD // SEUNGMIN // I.N.

SKZ - BOYFRIEND TEXTS - OT8

Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 5 // Part 6 // Part 7 // Part 8 // Part 9 // Part 10 // Part 11 // Part 12 // Part 13 // Part 14 // Part 15

SKZ - PIC TEXTS

BANG CHAN // LEE KNOW // CHANGBIN // HYUNJIN // HAN // FELIX // SEUNGMIN // I.N.

𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅𝐀𝐋𝐓 𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅

STRAY KIDS HOT MEGAVERSE

someone i could love - han jisung // homecoming - han jisung // clingy - han jisung - coming soon

真夜中のドア - kim seungmin // homecoming - kim seungmin // clingy - kim seungmin - coming soon

phoenix - hwang hyunjin // homecoming - hwang hyunjin // clingy - hwang hyunjin - coming soon // birthday bash - hwang hyunjin

ensemble - yang jeongin // homecoming - yang jeongin // clingy - yang jeongin - coming soon // birthday bash - yang jeongin

never be like you - bang chan // homecoming - bang chan // clingy - bang chan

midnight pretenders - seo changbin // homecoming - seo changbin - TBD // clingy - seo changbin - coming soon

willow - lee know // homecoming - lee know // clingy - lee know - coming soon

᥇ꪖꪀᧁ ᥴꫝꪖꪀ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ᦓᛕƺ ρꪶꪖꪗꫀ᥅

Chan lives for the panic he is able to cause in Stayville with the smallest of actions. He loves rage-baiting his fans, deceiving them with little white lies, or by simply posting something so outrageously… how shall we phrase this?… heated? Heated… that he sends the whole fandom into a horny frenzy.

When, on a random Tuesday, out of nowhere, a new SKZ Player episode pops up—and to everyone's surprise, it's Chan's song this time around—the fans are excited to listen to "Deep Dive." Everyone knows Chan is utterly down bad for his girlfriend; he made an entire album of love songs for her as a Valentine's Day gift, so this one must be about her and his deeply rooted feelings for her. Right???? RIGHT???

WRONG.

It's an angsty, sensual R&B song with an unreliable narrator who simply enjoys the pleasure of things without taking feelings into consideration—a good-for-nothing jock who manipulates for his own pleasure.

This is not something a deeply in-love, sweetheart boyfriend, “gotta go kiss the wifey,” would put out there—especially if he and the aforementioned wifey are still together. So the public jumps to the only logical conclusion: they broke up.

Twitter goes crazy that day:

"NOT BANG CHAN FUMBLING OUR MOTHER I KNEW THIS WAS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE" "OUR PARENTS ARE DIVORCED. SOMEONE PLEASE CHECK ON THE KIDS" "Guys, if they really broke up, we should respect their privacy." "DEEP DIVE IS A BANGER BUT AT WHAT COST?????" "How does one go from 'I’ll go on the stairmaster because my girlfriend is on it' to singing about hating commitment and coldly using others for their own enjoyment?" "MEN AIN’T SHIT AND BANG CHAN JUST PROVED THAT"

Chan doesn't hesitate to sweep into the conversation with damage control. He goes on Bubble, and he's just as provoking and annoying about this as he usually is:

I got scolded by wifey ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ To be fair, I asked permission to release that particular song She said it was No. 1, charting-for-months category She is a HUUUGE The Weeknd fan, wanted to write something similar Never again Wifey’s too important yep yep Even Jessica scolded me It was nice knowing you, STAY Jessica is on her way to beat me with a slipper please tell wifey I love her

ꪶꫀꫀ ᛕꪀꪮ᭙ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ᥴꪖꪻ ᦓ꠸ꪻꪻꫀ᥅

Minho has absolutely no idea what mayhem he caused. He was just casually talking about his new cat-sitter on Bubble and how Soonie, Doongie, and Dori seem to hate their guts. He finds it absolutely hilarious—after all, he is responsible for raising three mischievous rascal babies who shamelessly play favorites, particularly when it comes to you, and only listen to three people on this earth: Minho, his mom, and his beloved—you.

At first, he doesn't even notice a shift in the online sphere, until he's called over by Seungmin in the green room, who just decided to scroll through FANS to kill the idle time between his hair and makeup session.

Funnily enough, the insider social media platform is filled with funny edits of Soonie, Doongie, and Dori causing mayhem around the new cat-sitter—protesting to get you back as their caretaker, lighting the JYP building on fire with Minho and div1 inside, and so on.

The text posts are not so funny, though. Everyone is convinced that this new character in Minho’s and the kitties’ lives has replaced his beloved and cherished-by-the-masses girlfriend:

"guys maybe she’s just busy??? like let’s not jump to conclusions" "THEY BROKE UP AND THE CATS ARE IN MOURNING" "no because imagine being the new cat-sitter and getting jumped by three tiny menaces who are loyal to another woman" "if she’s gone i’m going with her idc i’m not staying in this economy without the loml" "this is worse than a breakup announcement because WHY ARE WE FINDING OUT THROUGH THE CATS" "HE DIDN’T EVEN SAY ANYTHING ABOUT HER. NOT EVEN A “she’s busy today” NOTHING. SILENCE." "IN THE STREET INTERVIEW SHE CALLED HER HIS CAT SITTER. NOW HE'S CASUALLY TELLING US ABOUT A NEW ONE?????? THAT MEANS ONE THING IN KOREA"

Minho gets fed up quite quickly with the chaos going on, so he simply decides to put everyone jumping to conclusions in their place:

LEE KNOW replied to a post "IN THE STREET INTERVIEW...": ↪ It means my girlfriend is travelling with us on this tour.

ᥴꫝꪖꪀᧁ᥇꠸ꪀ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ᦓρꪮꪻ꠸ᠻꪗ ρꪶꪖꪗꪶ꠸ᦓꪻ

It seemed like a good idea at first: making your Spotify account public so that STAY can access your playlist and see what songs you're listening to at any time of the day.

They loved your Bubble recommendations, often asking for songs for certain moods and moments, and they really seemed to enjoy the curated playlists you created based on the requests they made on Bubble or what you saw online.

However, this time around, making your “currently listening” available for the people who followed your profile didn’t seem like such a good idea: your friend was going through a breakup, and they asked you to go on a road trip, where you're blasting angsty, post-breakup, you-don’t-know-what-you’ve-lost, I’m-better, fuck-you songs back to back to back.

Of course, Twitter goes absolutely ballistic, as some update account dedicated to your Spotify keeps posting the songs playing, with timestamps and all:

"NOT THE “CURRENTLY LISTENING” BEING A CRY FOR HELP" "WHY IS EVERY SONG ABOUT BREAKUPS HELLO?????" "WHY HAS TRAITOR BY OLIVIA RODRIGO BEEN LOOPING FOR THE PAST 10 MINUTES????" "this is a villain origin story in real time" "if they broke up i don’t believe in love anymore actually" "NOT TOLERATE IT CHANGBIN HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?????" "JULY???????? DID HE CHEAT ON HER??????" "Not even a week ago, she referred to Changbin as a walking green flag, and now we get this????? Poor girl, she must have gotten played hard." "c'mon guys she's probably just in her feels, he looks at her as she hung the moon, there's no way they broke up"

Your “shout the lyrics as loud as you can to feel better” session is interrupted by a call from your boyfriend.

“Little bunny,” Changbin sounds frantic, and you kind of panic once you hear the genuine fear in his voice, “are you planning to break up with me?”

“What the hell?” you exclaim. “Of course not, where did you get that idea from?”

“Well, STAY on Twitter think something happened, because you keep listening to heart-wrenching breakup songs, and at first I found it funny, but now I started doubting myself.”

You giggle and explain the situation to him, assuring him that you don’t plan on breaking up with him anytime soon. You can hear him relax on the other side of the line, and he offers to join you for your singing session so he can also help support your friend.

Your friend ends up posting on their story—showing the three of you in the car—thanking you for being their support system, both you and your boyfriend. You repost it to your own account, and STAY seems to calm down after that.

ꫝꪗꪊꪀ꠹꠸ꪀ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ᥇ꪮꪮᛕ ᥅ꫀᥴꪮꪑꪑꫀꪀᦔꪖꪻ꠸ꪮꪀ

It starts innocently enough. Hyunjin is just casually scrolling through FANS when someone asks him for a book recommendation. Something emotional. Something meaningful. Something that “hurts a little but heals you after.”

And Hyunjin, being Hyunjin, delivers.

He recommends a book about a devastating, all-consuming breakup—the kind of love story that collapses slowly, painfully, beautifully, until there’s nothing left but memory and regret.

He doesn’t think much of it. It’s just a book he liked. It made him feel things. That’s it.

But STAY, of course, do not take it as “just a book recommendation.”

Within minutes, Twitter is spiraling:

"HE RECOMMENDED A BREAKUP BOOK. IT’S OVER." "HYUNJIN WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO US ON A TUESDAY" "someone check on his girlfriend RIGHT NOW" "WAIT. DID THEY BREAK UP AND THIS IS HIS WAY OF PROCESSING" "I refuse to believe a man in love recommends THIS unless something is WRONG" "he really said “read this and suffer with me” 😭" "guys, he basically told us a romance novel about their first meeting, he's not announcing his breakup like this" "the fan asked for an emotional book, he recommended one. don't jump to conclusions yet."

Hyunjin goes into dance practice not knowing about the chaos he caused. It's until I.N walks up to him, asking what he posted on FANS, because the internet is going crazy.

Hyunjin checks his phone multiple times, the internet has indeed turned a simple book recommendation into a full-scale relationship investigation, complete with timelines, “clues,” and someone analyzing the metaphorical meaning of his last Bubble message from three days ago.

He puts the phone down.

“…It’s just a book,” he says weakly.

Jeongin raises an eyebrow. “Tell that to STAY.”

Hyunjin reaches for his phone again, suddenly a little less relaxed.

More posts load in.

People are now connecting his recommendation to unrelated photos, old livestream comments, and something about “sad eyes in the last TikTok dance challenge.”

A few hours later, he posted an art dump, all of the pictures and paintings portraying the same two, very recognizable figures - you and him - all passionate and in love, with a very cheeky, but straightforward caption "she makes all the heartbreak remain fictional".

ꫝꪖꪀ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ᦓꪶ꠸ρ ꪊρ

Han Jisung is media-trained, okay?

He learned in his eight years of being an idol to dodge bullets like “Who’s this song inspired by?” or “What does this lyric mean?”—even the infamous “What’s your ideal type?”

So sue him if he messes up once his relationship is revealed and, for once, it’s not a PR disaster with the clear instructions “deny, deny, deny!”—and those same questions come up just like that.

Because after mind-altering classes of “I’m focusing on my career” and “STAY are my number one priority” and the worst of them all, “STAY is my girlfriend,” it is pretty damn hard to answer, “Do you share your songs with your girlfriend before releasing them?”

No one who knows Han Jisung in person bats an eye when his answer starts like, “I mean, IF I had a girlfriend—HAD—HAVE—whatever—”

However, the biggest issue is, STAY don’t know him in person. And a blabbering response like this leads to one agreed-upon conclusion across the fandom: Han Jisung is newly single. Him and his girlfriend, who fuels him with radioactive-looking drinks, have broken up.

And oh boy, does the internet go livid:

"HAN JISUNG EXPLAIN YOURSELF RIGHT NOW" "he really said girlfriend in past tense and thought we wouldn’t notice" "HE STUTTERED. MEN ONLY STUTTER WHEN THEY’RE LYING" "if I had—had—have—whatever OH MY GOD HE’S GOING THROUGH IT" "guys maybe he just misspoke??? like let’s be rational" "he went through all three tenses like he was picking one that hurts the least" "WHY IS NOBODY CHECKING ON HIM"

If you think Han Jisung was stressing during that interview, well—nothing actually compares to his situation once he sees the discourse online. What if his girlfriend is now mad at him for his horrible, horrible slip-up?

His first thought is to call her. And boy, oh boy—is she laughing at him and his panic. Because why would she be offended, when Jisung is the most perfect boyfriend and she knows everything is going great between the two of them? And she knows how anxious he gets in these situations; she understands him on a deeper level, because of course she does. She is perfect—Jisung’s thoughts exactly.

Once he’s sure he didn’t accidentally break up with his girlfriend on live television, he rushes home and practically shoves his phone into her hands, knowing she’s the best one to handle damage control on his Bubble account:

HELLO BABY QUOKKAS YOUR MOTHER QUOKKA IS HERE AGAIN You have nothing to worry about, Little Quokka had a terrible slip-up I'm not going anywhere He's terribly sorry for scaring you He gets confused like that sometimes ISN'T HE SO CUTE WHEN HE'S ALL CONFUSED? God, I hope he never figures anything out He just fell asleep on the couch Big day for a little guy like our Hammie He needs his rest hahaha

ᠻꫀꪶ꠸᥊ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ꪖᥴꪻ ꪮᠻ ᛕ꠸ꪀᦔꪀꫀᦓᦓ

Paris is loud in a different way than Seoul.

Not chaotic—just constant. Cameras clicking, people talking over each other in a dozen languages, stylists rushing past like it’s a timed event. Felix stands in the middle of it all like he belongs there, dressed in something soft and expensive, blonde hair catching every flash like it was made for it.

He’s glowing. Like he's utterly untouchable.

The interviewer is smiling too, clearly a fan.

“Felix, you’ve had such an incredible year,” she says, mic angled perfectly, voice warm. “Music, touring, brand deals left and right, you're the most sought out person here at fashion week… and fans have also loved seeing more of your personal life lately.”

He nods politely, dimples deepening, bowing lightly out of reflex.

“Thank you. I’m really grateful.”

“And speaking of that,” she continues, casual—too casual—“we’ve all seen how supportive your girlfriend has been. How is she doing?”

It’s an easy question. It should be the easiest question. Felix doesn’t even hesitate.

He smiles—soft, automatic.

“She’s doing fine, I hope so.”

There’s a singular moment of hesitation between the two very distinct parts of his response. The first one says everything is alright—not just with you, but with your relationship. However, that little “I hope so,” that small addition, shifts the entire narrative. It implies uncertainty—that he hasn’t spoken to you lately to know for sure that you’re, in fact, doing fine. It also suggests that maybe there is something that could influence your apparent “doing fine” status, but despite that, he hopes you’re doing fine.

It sounds like an ex-boyfriend trying to mask the hurt of a breakup by going, “I wish them the best.”

At least, that’s what the internet thinks:

"I HOPE SO?????? FELIX WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU HOPE SO" "no because that pause was LOUD" "I’M SORRY BUT THAT’S A BREAKUP ANSWER" "that sounded like a man who does NOT have access to his girlfriend anymore" "that’s something you say about your EX" "he could’ve just said 'she’s doing well' AND MOVED ON" "guys maybe he just meant like… generally??? like wishing her well???" "WISHING HER WELL IS CRAZY"

He doesn't think about it twice, just moves on to the next media outlet out there, waiting to score a quick interview with him.

The huge influx of notifications is not new to him either. It's always like that during fashion week, tagged pictures, multiple stories, the Stray Kids account reposting everything, STAY's going crazy over his looks. Just the usual.

But when he opens his phone to see a genuinely worried message from Chan, asking if the two of you broke up, he checks the link his leader has sent without hesitation.

Once he watches back the interview, he clearly understands the public outcry. What he said is exactly what you say when someone asks about your ex.

Suddenly, he gets a message notification from you, and he relaxes.

"Lixie, I AM, in fact, doing fine. You don't have to hope anymore, Sunshine Boy."

A few hours later, when he's asked about his well wishes by an interviewer at the Louis Vuitton after party, he proudly reads out your message aloud, confirming that the two of you are actually doing really good.

ᦓꫀꪊꪀᧁꪑ꠸ꪀ - ꪀꫀ᭙ ᦔꪖꪻ꠸ꪀᧁ ᥅ꪊꪑꪮ᥅

It all starts really silly—exactly where it began. On TikTok.

The girl—your ex-friend, the one who appeared in the video where your relationship with Seungmin was exposed—posts a ten (10!!!!!!!)-part rant series where she describes how you “stole” Seungmin from her… but now she’s hooking up with him as revenge.

It’s hilarious at first. No one takes her seriously. Anyone who’s seen the initial TikTok video saw how disgusted Seungmin was by her. Moreover, Seungmin has always been an advocate for loyalty and has expressed it multiple times—that it takes him a long time to warm up to people, but once he does, he never lets them go.

Not only would he not cheat, but he would judge and cut out anyone insinuating such things from his life without a second thought.

Which he did—on camera.

So the first couple of days go by with the two of you, and most of the internet, laughing at her sorry ass.

However, the tables turn once a Dispatch article is published about the situation, complete with paparazzi pictures of the two of them together.

It takes you one single look to realize something is very wrong. For some reason, Seungmin has one less finger than in reality, one of his eyebrows is slightly pixelated, and he has three legs—due to the picture trying to resemble a walking motion, something that seems to have caused some trouble for the AI tool used to generate this “proof.”

Sadly, not everyone on the internet is able to tell when something is computer-generated, and despite the ridiculousness of the situation, people start believing it:

"NOT DISPATCH CONFIRMING IT?????" "oh this just got VERY serious" "wait why does that actually look real…" "GUYS zoom in on his HAND??? why does he have FOUR FINGERS" "no because why does he have THREE LEGS I’M CRYING" "guys please use your brains that man is GLITCHING" "I don’t know what to believe anymore" "first the TikToks now THIS???" "she said they were hooking up and now there’s proof" "what if she was telling the truth the whole time…" "Trying to set up Seugmin, who openly expressed that he's against AI, using a clearly AI-generated picture is absolutely mental. "

Seungmin does the most hilarious thing he could possibly do to respond to the allegations: he posts two Instagram stories.

The first one is a picture of his feet, with a wiggly “1” and “2” drawn next to each one.

The second picture is his hand, turned upward, fingers spread out—each one of them numbered from 1 to 5. In the palm of his hand sits your significantly smaller one, with a little heart drawn on top in your favorite color—the one he always uses when something is related to you.

Yeah, it’s quite obvious what was going on, even for the ones falling for the AI images.

꠸.ꪀ - ꪀꫀ᭙ (?) ᥴꪮꪖꪻ

In hindsight, Jeongin should have known the damage he would cause by posting the pictures.

He recently bought a coat—the exact same one from Bottega that he once gave to you and never asked for back. The internet knew about the coat: how he was a gentleman by giving it to you so you wouldn’t be cold on a date night, how he fell in love with the way it looked on you and never minded you keeping it forever.

What the internet does not know is that he bought the coat again for himself, after Bottega requested that he wear it to the airport. He didn’t quite have it in him to ask for it back, even for one appearance, so he did what he believed was the more reasonable option: he purchased a new one. Same exact color, same model. Easy peasy, right?

Well… not really.

He posts on Instagram first, showing off his outfit. Then he does the whole airport-walk shebang like he’s supposed to.

Then he gets on a plane.

And while he’s up there, completely offline, the internet explodes—speculating that the coat from your outfit-check video, the one that revealed your relationship, the one where you were talking so highly of Jeongin and how the two of you share clothes, has been officially returned to him. Which clearly means… breakup.

The fashion couple is officially over. And somehow, to the people of the internet, it makes perfect sense:

"HE GOT THE COAT BACK. IT’S OVER." "no because WHY would he suddenly have THAT coat again" "'we share clothes' yeah NOT ANYMORE APPARENTLY" "this is why I never trust happiness" "guys what if she gave it back to him… like officially…" "I knew it. I KNEW something felt off lately" "you don’t just take back clothes in a healthy relationship" "that’s a man who has accepted the breakup"