Lya

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a wip that I will probably never finish

Spoiler warning ahead: I’ve noticed that many people seem to feel a disconnect with Twilight, especially because of his seemingly polite indifference toward Yor and her feelings. In the latest chapter, some interpreted that he’s considering replacing her with Fiona… but honestly, I’d like to offer a different perspective:

From the very beginning of the chapter, we see something unusual: Twilight can’t focus — not even on Handler’s orders. This is significant because, although he’s always been under pressure from Operation Strix, we’ve never seen him lose his composure like this.

Sylvia notices it immediately: Twilight is mentally somewhere else entirely.

It’s interesting how many people took his earlier reaction as indifference or a polite rejection of Yor… when in reality, Twilight isn’t even fully processing what Yor is trying to tell him. He doesn’t realize she’s sending subtle signals — that she wants their marriage to be real, that there are feelings involved. He just doesn’t get it.

This connects back to the "honey trap" moment, when Twilight hastily (but accurately) assumed that Yor was romantically jealous of him and — absurdly — tried to seduce her while she was drunk, only to receive a (well-deserved) punch.

Clearly, his spy logic was flawed and poorly executed, and that’s why he ended up being punished — because he was actively about to manipulate Yor’s emotions.

Back then, yes, Yor was feeling jealous, but she was also struggling with trust and self-worth — with her role as a fake wife, a mother, a woman, and her value within the household. Twilight was honest with her when he talked about his mother, and he also gave her the validation and support she desperately needed at that time.

But this time… things are not so simple.

Now, Yor is fully aware of her feelings — and her selfish desires — so any "right" answer Twilight might give her feels just as dissatisfying as Yor expect.

And I dare say that, between the two of them, Twilight is the one who’s been most affected by that conversation.

While Yor is —painfully, yes— reaching a certain clarity about her feelings, Twilight is spiraling into a pit of confusion and anxiety he doesn’t know how to escape.

Because yes, Yor is affected. She feels insecure, a bit frustrated, and she believes she doesn’t deserve to be loved in return. But she knows what she feels. She can name it, even admit it in front of her daughter. That gives her a certain kind of freedom — even if she has to keep it hidden.

Twilight no.

Twilight only feels that something is wrong, and his mind keeps alerting him that something is missing. That he said the right things, that the agreement is still in place... and yet, nothing feels right. Nothing feels clear. Everything has turned into internal chaos because Yor seems slightly distant.

And it’s precisely in this vulnerable state that Fiona pulls her classic move: “What if I became your new wife now?”

And the surprising part is… Twilight seems to accept.

This just confirms that Fiona is more attached to the idea of winning Twilight as a challenge than out of genuine love. The moment she gets what she wants, she’s both terrified and relieved that it didn’t actually happen.

But no — It’s not that he wants to replace Yor. The truth is, Twilight is suffering from mental fog.

He’s running on autopilot, and his mind is desperately asking for a break.

Even Fiona is thrown off. She clearly expected the usual script: he politely rejects her, and she silently repeats, “Someday, I’ll be your wife.” But no. Twilight responds with a soft, “Oh… well, yes…”

At that point, Fiona could have said:

"I’m going to parachute into a pack of grizzly bears — wanna come along and take a break from Strix?" And Twilight would’ve replied: “Oh, yeah… sounds like a good idea.”

In fact, the other agent present notices everything — that Twilight, like any man, is clearly being affected by being married.At this rate, I wouldn’t be surprised if Sylvia and he end up connecting the dots: Twilight is emotionally involved… more than he himself can see (if they haven’t already figured it out).

Because in any other scenario, Twilight would have rejected Nightfall like always — he’s not interested in replacing Yor.

She’s the one who’s truly thrown him off, who has awakened something real. He’s defended her as his wife more times than even Fiona can tolerate.

But now, he’s simply… overwhelmed. He doesn’t know what he’s supposed to do, what Yor expects from him, what’s expected of his role, or even what he should feel.

And his defense mechanism is keeping him trapped in fear, anxiety, and exhaustion.

Because according to him, every problem stems from ignorance. If he doesn’t understand what’s happening to him, then it must be because he still doesn’t know enough. What he doesn’t realize is that, this time, logic doesn’t hold the answer.

And maybe — just maybe — this is the beginning of his true emotional growth. Whether it leads to healing… or to completely falling apart.

Do you love him more than omurice?