j's whiney blog

i wanna beg her for forgiveness and i didn't do anything wrong lmao

i wanna be happy and healthy and get married and have my own house and me and my partner have separate bedrooms so we can have our own space but we both have huge beds so we can always sleep in the same room when we want and the house is the perfect size and i always have the right amount of energy and we have cats and maybe one dog and i walk it every day for a whole hour

what a horrible night but at least all the ways my body reacted to drinking too much made me l00se

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never needed to be in a coma more than i do right now

want to go outside and lie down in the road

i will never fit anywhere ever. i was made wrong. i am evil. i am am abomination. i need to be put down for my own good

i am a monster and deserve nothing good

hm hate myself and believe whole heartedly i am the worse and my ocd is bad and i want to not be healthy i want to punish myself in every way i deserve to be r@ped tbh

i need to go to therapy so bad but i don't have it until the eighth lollll i forgot how much i fucking drown without it i feel terrible