Nonbinary Knight

I am absolutely struggling to find a couple of RE: VILLAGE fanfics (on ao3) that I read a while ago.

I can't remember if they were part of the same fanfic or different ones.

One involved Karl collecting the ashes/dust/etc of the Dimitrescu daughters after Ethan Winters killed them. He put them in a necklace or something like that.

The other involved Lady Dimitrescu, her daughters, and I believe a reader S/O dying at the hands of hunters. They were trapped and injured and decided not to separate.

My anxiety is particular bad today. It's due to a couple of things that have happened this month.

That's not too important. Right now my mind is absolutely spiraling so I'm going to post some of my thoughts here.

I don't want to be here. I spend so much of my time worrying about what's happening to me or what could happen. There's so much going on in the world and in my personal life but rather than feel worried or anything, I'm just tired. I am so tired.

I'm tired at flinching at the sounds of slamming doors. I'm tired of worrying about whether something is going to happen again. I'm tired of wanting to hide away in my room because it feels safer. I'm just tired.

I don't like feeling this way. It puts bad thoughts in my head. I try to fight them off and I think I win. The problem is it leaves me empty. I won't do anything to myself, but I have no desire to actually do anything with my life.

It's Transgender Awareness Week and this week I want people to be aware of me.

I'm just kidding! But for real, it is a good time to be aware of trans people, their struggles, and those that we've lost. It's important to keep them in mind, especially with the amount of anti-trans legislation being put up in courts.

It took me a while to come out to my family, but I've never felt better about it. Being out online was a lot easier for me.

This is the link to my GoFundMe page: https://gofund.me/b58ffa22. I want top surgery, but it's expensive. I appreciate any donations, but sharing the link would be just as helpful to me. Thank you so much.

Gender dysphoria has been kicking my ass lately. I don't know if it's because I just keep seeing more/hearing more about other people's top surgeries or what, but it's wrecking me.

I just want top surgery. I just want my insurance to cover some, any, of it and not just automatically say that they won't cover trans surgeries. I just want it.

I don't like where my head goes during these dysphoric days. I don't like the bad thoughts that worm into my brain. The thoughts of something scaring a doctor and forcing the insurance to help. Any form of surgery, even if it's not technically top surgery, would be better than nothing. I hate it. I just want to feel comfortable in my skin for once.

I'm years away from it...and I hate that reminder.

I have a GoFundMe that I created hoping that I would eventually have the balls to link it where family might be able to help out. I don't even know if they will, but eventually I'll have that courage.

So earlier this year I would post the links to all my reviews over here but that was a lot of effort and not really worth it. So I'll do this instead.

This Is Our Rainbow:

Check out my Tiktok video about this book.

Check out my review of this book.

I'm more active on my other accounts. Check me out there.

Check out all my other reviews.

Check out my Instagram account.

Check out my TikTok account.

All my links: https://linktr.ee/nonbinaryknight_reads

My recent TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@nonbinary_knight/video/7002266993751559429

My recent Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CTNj3G3hjuy/

My most recent review: https://nonbinaryknight-reads.blogspot.com/2021/08/review-stage-dreams.html

RR means re-read and S means straight I’m also posting my reviews on Nonbinary Knight Reads and Reviews if anyone wants to read them. I also now have a Linktree that has links to all my other social media accounts where I am posting about the books I’m reading. I only read 5 books this month, but here they are.

A Touch of Ruckus by Ash Van Otterloo

Pitfall by Kelli Jae Baeli

Painted Moon by Karin Kallmaker

Going Viral by Katie Cicatelli-Kuc

Wildfire by Toni Draper

I don't think I mentioned it but I have a TikTok where I post LGBTQ+ book recommendations. I'm also planning on posting reviews of books there as well. In fact, I recently posted a video where I reviewed the 19 books I read in June in 60 seconds. That specific video can be found here.

I spent June sharing my Pride Month Book Recommendations on Twitter and Instagram. It would be a lot to post over here, but I did make a post on my blog. If you want to check it out, click the link below.

Most of these recommendations will be sapphic in nature, but I did make sure there were other identities represented.

RR means re-read and S means straight

I’m also posting my reviews on Nonbinary Knight Reads and Reviews if anyone wants to read them. I also now have a Linktree that has links to all my other social media accounts where I am posting about the books I'm reading.

Worthy of Love by Quinn Ivins

The Princess Deception by Nell Stark

Hot Dog Girl by Jennifer Dugan

The Girl from the Sea by Molly Knox Ostertag

George by Alex Gino

Swipe Right by Tagan Shepard

Accidental Honeymoon by Miranda Macleod

I Kissed a Girl by Jennet Alexander

Thrust by Rachel Spangler

Weekend Girl by Alex Powell

Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli

Teddy Spenser Isn't Looking for Love by Kim Fielding

I Wish You All the Best by Mason Deaver

Zenobia July by Lisa Bunker

Gracefully Grayson by Ami Polonsky

Ana on the Edge by A.J. Sass

Home is Where the Heart is by Jenny Frame

Unbridled by D. Jackson Leigh

Tink and Wendy by Kelly Ann Jacobson

RR means re-read and S means straight

I’m also posting my reviews on Nonbinary Knight Reads and Reviews if anyone wants to read them.

In the Silences by Rachel Gold

Armchair Detective by Kelli Jae Baeli

She Drives Me Crazy by Kelly Quindlen

Dithered Hearts by Chace Verity

Gillette Park by Gerri Hill

Safe Harbor by Radclyffe

Honey Girl by Morgan Rogers

The Love Curse of Melody McIntyre by Robin Talley

Can't Take That Away by Steven Salvatore

The Falling in Love Montage by Ciara Smyth

Plain Bad Heroines by Emily M. Danforth

Under Her Influence by Amanda Radley

Unburied Fables by Various Authors

The Road Ahead by Amanda Radley

Never Kiss Your Roommate by Philline Harms

The Holiday Detour by Jane Kolven

The Prince and the Dressmaker by Jen Wang

Cattywampus by Ash Van Otterloo

RR means re-read and S means straight

I’m also posting my reviews on Nonbinary Knight Reads and Reviews if anyone wants to read them.

Flight SQA016 by Amanda Radley

Grounded by Amanda Radley

Outsiders by Various Authors

Drama by Raina Telgemeier

Something to Talk About by Meryl Wilsner

Lethal Affairs by Kim Baldwin and Xenia Alexiou

Tell Me How You Really Feel by Aminah Mae Safi

Passion's Bright Fury by Radclyffe

Dreams by Serena J. Bishop

Gulf Breeze by Gerri Hill (RR)

Hidden Truths by Jae

Night Call by Radclyffe

Back to September by Melissa Brayden

Second Chances by Amanda Radley

White Wings Weeping by Lesley Davis

A Curious Woman by Jess Lea

Detour to Love by Amanda Radley

44 Hours by Donna Jay

Kim Reaper Volume 1: Grim Beginnings by Sarah Graley

In the Spotlight by Lesley Davis

Eight Kinky Nights by Xan West

Starstruck by Lesley Davis (RR)

Side Effects by VK Powell

Just Enough Light by A.J. Quinn

Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up With Me by Mariko Tamaki

Kim Reaper Volume 2: Vampire Island by Sarah Graley

The Lady's Guide to Celestial Mechanics by Olivia Waite

Royal Family by Jenny Frame

Far from Home by Lorelie Brown

RR means re-read and S means straight

I’m also posting my reviews on Nonbinary Knight Reads and Reviews if anyone wants to read them.

Conflict of Interest by Jae

Party Wall by Cheyenne Blue

One Day You'll Leave Me by Debra Flores

Life Rewired by Lynn Galli

Table for Two by Kate Gavin

Requiem for Immortals by Lee Winter

Great Bones by Lynn Ames

Good Vibes by Cara Malone (RR)

Paper Love by Jae

In Development by Rachel Spangler

Too Close to Touch by Georgia Beers

Leveled by Serena J. Bishop

Dark Wings Descending by Lesley Davis

Just for Show by Jae

Written in the Stars by Alexandria Bellefleur

Homecoming by Celeste Castro

Royal Court by Jenny Frame

Behind the Pine Curtain by Gerri Hill