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Practice Update (2/25): Celebrini (x)

I'm pretty sure that Macklin says 'I dare you to eat it' and then Will pretends to eat it just to get a laugh from Mack. so fucken cute i can't.

guys i just saw this on tiktok I am NOT okay omg

(gif by @sobadbad )

i’m seeing lots of folks talk about this moment as ilya being jealous, and friends, this is not jealousy

this is self-loathing. this is self-contempt. he is staring into a mirror. (side note, this reddit post about mirrors symbolizing internalized homophobia in hr is well-worth a read)

he is not angry at shane. he’s furious at himself. he’s disgusted with himself. altho i don’t think it’s just internalized homophobia in this case. it’s more about his shame in general, because he actually let himself think that maybe someone would love him back. that he would be worth staying for, when no one has ever stuck around for him before

and he let himself believe for one tiny little moment that shane hollander, MLH golden boy, would risk (really risk, not just this dalliance a few times a year) his career and reputation and heart for him. what a fool. he should know better, because when has anyone ever loved him like that? never, except his mother, and she’s still gone, isn’t she? so what did he think he was doing, letting himself get pulled in so deep that he actually thought he might get loved back

ilya + shane's titties

+ bonus