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I'm so jealous of my friend. We spend every single day together like from 9 am to 9 pm and she basically only eats when she feels she's hungry. When we talk about food and stuff she always avoids talking about it but she told me that her biggest fear is being fat. She has so much control over food. And like days ago was her bday and she ate only one thing or two while everyone else (including me) was binging. She always tells me that im skinny and all but u need to see her thigh gap. Its hugeee and her legs and everything is so skinny. On her bday we were taking pictures together and i wrapped my arm around her waist but i couldn't feel it. Like why not meeeee. I need to have control like she has and sometimes she says "oh i havent eaten anything today" like its casual. Ik she doesnt starve herself, she only eats when hungry. And the other day i was with her mum and her brother called her worried that she didnt want to eat anything because she wasnt hungry. I WANNA HAVE CONTROL LIKE SHE HAS.