I want to use tumblr but I for some reason don't get shown much of my mutuals posts anymore, I'd say maybe one post a week per person even if they are posting daily, and I suspect the same of my posts aswell. I'm not typically getting many likes so I didn't think much of it, but about two weeks ago I hit like complete ghost which was weird. Anyway I tried twice in the last week to post "if you see this please like or comment so I know its visible" type posts and even tagged one with popular tags and still got no interaction. Its been about a month of this now I think. Annoying. Its very possible this post will also reach no one, but I will leave it on my blog anyway if someone wonders if im offline and goes to look.

Yeah what was i just saying howi grew out my bangs finally. well they're back and my hair is much shorter whateverrrr im never going to grow it out

One of the only things that I can tolerate right now is being alone. My emotions are far too unreliable for consistent talking to friends and such right now, maybe avoiding any situations at all is the wrong way to handle it, but it's so unfair of me to hate someone for no reason or to be angry over nothing. I don't want to act black and white like that, regardless of if its positive or negative emotion, and I can't stop myself right now its such a sudden flip. I thought I was doing really well with that but everything is so intense again i can't pull myself out or think at the moment. I feel bad for disappearing from talking to people much, but I'm not sure what the better option is. I can't tell anymore if my mental health is improving or getting worse but im still trying to do the things you're supposed to to get "better"

I can't believe how much I used to care about being pretty/not being ugly anymore as a teenager. Literally the least of my problem,s ok so im not conventionally attactive im fat and have a skin condition but i cant remember the last time I've had even a week with some mental peace and stability I can make it max a few days before having some sort of mental health episode of varying severity that seems like more of the issue here. Based on how people are reacting to me recently I feel like I may be even delusional saying things that are nonsensical but I have no idea about what or if im just paranoid imagining that people think im delusional. Hey couldn't crack that if I tried

Starting to think mental illness is detrimental to my life 🤔

National holiday guys its my dogs birthday, everyone say happy birthday milo. He is 6 now

Felt like watching the 2009 vmas paparazzi performance, aka one of the most iconic stage performances of all time also the reason my grandma banned me from listening to demonic lady gaga on the car radio, and I just found out she was 23 doing that. 22 when she dropped the fame album. Probably like 21yo coming up with hits like just dance, lovegame, poker face, etc. Not going to think too hard about what I've done at 22