No Buns On Pesach >:з

Now trying to draw as fast as i can because i am lazy (adhd) and starting to work on my research papers

Ohh thank you so much for asking! And finally I feel like I have enough strength and stability in my life to answer! Yay 🥹

I am SO much better since the last time I posted 💖 and this is greatly thanks to you and to every comment, message and donation I received - not just recently, but overall… Because when I was feeling my lowest, I would open “activity” page and scroll down and just read all the sweet things everyone had written to me and with me… All the reblogs with comments in tags, which still make me giggle and kick my feet every time I read them; all the interactions and shared thoughts and just nice things people said and shared, and this literally kept me afloat :> I can’t express enough how grateful I am to have so many people care about me and enjoy what I do! You are a blessinggg 😭✨

At peak depression I would have said that I don’t deserve that. But fk depression. I know I do. And you, too, deserve to know that you are amazing, and your work is fantastic, and you absolutely are among the people who really, really made a difference for me.

You, and all those who asked me how I was doing, and all those who reblogged my whining post and wrote nice things in the tags (I re-read every one of them many times), and all those who reblogged my commissions post, and all those who just reblogged any of my work and wrote nice things, and all those who shared their thoughts and distracted me from bad things… And of course, those who ordered commissions (I am almost done btw!), and ohmygod! - those who donated something (and some a lot 😭❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹) without any question…

And my sweet, gentle, endlessly kind and patient beloved ones, who are so far away, but they supported me anyway, loving me even when I was a mess and couldn’t answer for weeks….

You all saved me, like literally. I will never forget that.

As for what’s going on in my life, here is a little update -

My boss had left the country to visit his relatives and deal with some paperwork in Russia, which needed his physical presence - he was supposed to leave on September 12 and come back on October 16. And I had no idea how I was gonna survive that month, because I literally lived paycheck to paycheck… That was when I broke down and wrote that post - and you guys helped me out SO MUCH, I was able to buy my antidepressants and food for cats, and pay rent for the whole month 😭✨💖.

And guess what? That mf STILL HASNT RETURNED. October 16 came and went, and he just messaged me that “hehe whoopsie-daisy it’s taking longer than I thought”. But I already had my pills and your support and I wouldn’t let the icy silence of deep damp earth claim my weary bones that easily 😎 I agreed with the landlord that he’d allow me to find a roommate and postpone one month of payments til I find one - or another job - or both. My good irl friend who has a few cats gave me some litter filler and cat food, my landlord’s parents who live in the next apartment insisted on giving me food (grandmas… grandmas are the same everywhere, bless them), so I survived and the kitties did too!

Also guess who is meeting a potential roommate tomorrow 🙏✨And who is starting her new job (in a kindergarten :з) first day next week? 💜🧚‍♂️

Sooo, yeah, that’s it. Also, today was the first thunderstorm of the season in my region. I adore thunderstorms, and I saw it as a good sign, and even the cats weren’t scared, despite it being the first thunderstorm in their lives, because I held them in my lap.

Need I say that I love you all so so so much! So much more than words can convey…

Look at them. They have the same bellies 🥺💚

And it’s about time I draw him too, because Cosmic your children are adorable 🥰

@cosmics-canteen ‘s Muskeg and my mutant cultist OC who made some questionable decisions

I had to draw them together too!! Such a bountiful harvest from Nurgle’s garden!

I have a soft spot for Death Guard wielding farm equipment… like father like sons… they just look so good and organic with their scythes and hayforks and idk sickles…. Farm bois, friends of nature! In a better timeline Guilliman and Mortarion would have a farm together, and Mortarion’s biggest problem would be to explain to this nepo baby how soil works…

Oooh and you wanna know about her?? 🥺🥺🥺 I can write what I know!!!

I even sat down and made a proper art because there is no work tomorrow and yay I have time!

I have no idea how to name her yet, because originally it was a self insert - but the more I looked at her the more I realized that she’s her own girl with her own story, and there are some things she does I’d never do 😅

Essentially she is a Chaos Cultist, but her cult is just one person, and the only reason she is still alive and even has some sort of protection from the big mean four is that they find her just very fcing amusing xD

She is a cook! A Chaos Cook. The book in her hands is the Chaos Cookbook of the Ruinous Recipes, written entirely by her - some recipes she comes up with herself, but there are a few there she unearthed or perfected! And everything she cooks is like *really* messed up in a very Warpy Chaosy way - and the thing is that the hundreds of recipes here are divided almost equally between the Chaos Gods that benefit from the cursed meal’s effect - she has Berserker Biscuits for Khorne that will make you like super strong for a little while, but also you might or might not get just a liiiitle batshit insane, Pomegranate Pox Pastry that tastes great and can cure some minor injuries, but there is a chance you’ll develop a mild case of pomegranate seeds growing on your skin…. Magnificent Memory Marmalade that students love to take the night before exams so they can remember EVERYTHING they ever heard about the topic they are asked for - very convenient! Unless you take too much and start remembering things that someone else heard and certainly not you… if it gets too bad, you can also tap into the memories of dead people, and also you won’t be able to stop answering the question the teacher asks you until you say it ALL, even if your throat and tongue starts hurting… But that’s okay, if you get a little too tired from reciting a every memory of every human on a subject you were asked to answer, you might enjoy the next recipe - The Lazania! Yeah, with a “z”, because it’s from the word “lazy” :з There is nothing wrong with it! No, really! It’s very good! And you won’t even have to get up for seconds - because it multiplies in your tummy the moment you start feeling even a tiny bit hungry! And the taste and the fullness returns - tastier than before! And if you’re worried you’d get bored of Lazania’s taste…. You won’t :> It’s magical, silly! It will feel as good as the first bite, if not better - forever! Or, uh, at least for some impressive amount of time. The only downside I can think of - although I wouldn’t really call it a downside - is, well, one might get a little bit plump with their belly being just a tad too full for months…. But come on, the Galaxy is a harsh and cold place, what’s wrong with a bit of softness?…

Look at them. They have the same bellies 🥺💚

And it’s about time I draw him too, because Cosmic your children are adorable 🥰

@cosmics-canteen ‘s Muskeg and my mutant cultist OC who made some questionable decisions

I had to draw them together too!! Such a bountiful harvest from Nurgle’s garden!

I have a soft spot for Death Guard wielding farm equipment… like father like sons… they just look so good and organic with their scythes and hayforks and idk sickles…. Farm bois, friends of nature! In a better timeline Guilliman and Mortarion would have a farm together, and Mortarion’s biggest problem would be to explain to this nepo baby how soil works…

Oooh and you wanna know about her?? 🥺🥺🥺 I can write what I know!!!

I even sat down and made a proper art because there is no work tomorrow and yay I have time!

I have no idea how to name her yet, because originally it was a self insert - but the more I looked at her the more I realized that she’s her own girl with her own story, and there are some things she does I’d never do 😅

Essentially she is a Chaos Cultist, but her cult is just one person, and the only reason she is still alive and even has some sort of protection from the big mean four is that they find her just very fcing amusing xD

She is a cook! A Chaos Cook. The book in her hands is the Chaos Cookbook of the Ruinous Recipes, written entirely by her - some recipes she comes up with herself, but there are a few there she unearthed or perfected! And everything she cooks is like *really* messed up in a very Warpy Chaosy way - and the thing is that the hundreds of recipes here are divided almost equally between the Chaos Gods that benefit from the cursed meal’s effect - she has Berserker Biscuits for Khorne that will make you like super strong for a little while, but also you might or might not get just a liiiitle batshit insane, Pomegranate Pox Pastry that tastes great and can cure some minor injuries, but there is a chance you’ll develop a mild case of pomegranate seeds growing on your skin…. Magnificent Memory Marmalade that students love to take the night before exams so they can remember EVERYTHING they ever heard about the topic they are asked for - very convenient! Unless you take too much and start remembering things that someone else heard and certainly not you… if it gets too bad, you can also tap into the memories of dead people, and also you won’t be able to stop answering the question the teacher asks you until you say it ALL, even if your throat and tongue starts hurting… But that’s okay, if you get a little too tired from reciting a every memory of every human on a subject you were asked to answer, you might enjoy the next recipe - The Lazania! Yeah, with a “z”, because it’s from the word “lazy” :з There is nothing wrong with it! No, really! It’s very good! And you won’t even have to get up for seconds - because it multiplies in your tummy the moment you start feeling even a tiny bit hungry! And the taste and the fullness returns - tastier than before! And if you’re worried you’d get bored of Lazania’s taste…. You won’t :> It’s magical, silly! It will feel as good as the first bite, if not better - forever! Or, uh, at least for some impressive amount of time. The only downside I can think of - although I wouldn’t really call it a downside - is, well, one might get a little bit plump with their belly being just a tad too full for months…. But come on, the Galaxy is a harsh and cold place, what’s wrong with a bit of softness?…