niko romanov

I just show up here once a year, throw a post in the void and run away

Sorry about the radiosilence. Well... in February, after passing the exams, I went home for the holidays. It was great, even though I was haunted by a strange feeling, a mourning feeling and a distortion in the perception of time. Then I went back to study, a new semester began. And then the war started. My beloved lives in Ukraine, and I live in Russia. Probably, this spring was the most fearful and absolute terrible period in my life. I'm very sensitive, especially to someone else's pain, and sometimes it is almost unbearable. Everything is fine now (as much as it is possible in such situation). I passed the exams, there are a couple more ahead of me. I'm waiting for the end of summer to go home. I don't know when my beloved and I will be able to meet. I can't plan my life further than a couple of months ahead. I really want to go back to shibari, it helped me once. Hope everything will be fine in the future

ok I passed the exams and got the photo films for November and December!

Half of the exams are over, it's funny to feel how much I'm breaking away from myself in this fuss. Again these days when you never look out the window