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Garden of Secrets - Masterlist

“why do you still use tumblr?”

imagine hating on me and i’m in my room like this

j i’m glad others are saying it because yes it is sad liam is dead but also i am sad for the victims and the others that won’t get the justice they deserve. i am sad he’s gone but also let’s not forget that he was openly homophobic and transphobic. plus the law suit with his ex. plus him making a song about sexualizing bi girls. and how he went on a hate parade to talk shit about one direction.

i went to close my eyes and i could see the chemicals in my brain swirling around my sulci like oil puddles on hot black tar and as i laid there i felt a combination of being drugged and death of my body ive never felt like this before like everything ive ever wanted to be was everyone ive ever loved and everyone who’s ever hurt me was everyone i always needed to be and i laid there and said hey dont think just feel because everyone you know will be gone so soon and how lucky is that how lucky are we to be so impermanent and a blip in the montage of existence and yet here i am in love with you in love with all of you and here we are together at the same time and i close my eyes and i am so grateful.