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Please miracles come forth I'm so desperate

I see the pain and grief death causes. So I can't put someone through that. But what about my pain? What about how hard it is to just live?

Allah plssss let me be at home this time next week 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

I should just kms at this point

I feel so stupid and useless. Always the dumbest person in any room. And I hate when I say anything that sounds smart because it feels fake because I'm fake. And I'm such a loser. I know an honest person (the kind I hate) would say it to me like it is and tell me ending things would be for the best. I CAN just read but not doing so is a choice i make not studying not doing anything being so useless is MY doing and i should be embarrassed that I'm 24 and I've never had a job have no degree no skills nothing I'm wasting oxygen and space and I sound like a joke. I don't deserve pity because it is my fault. Everything I did led me here. It's hilarious. How can someone be so fckn dumb?????

Can't even die. This fckn sucks. Boooooooooo

LET ME OUT. PLEASE. THIS TIME COME AND SAVE ME. PLEASE. DONT MAKE ME GO. I WANT TO LIVE.

I'll ramble here. I made a whple twitter acc to just say shit but now there are ppl there that are familiar and I don't want to be perceived or whatever so I'll it here. How I'm a loser and a disappointment and I really really really want to yk. But I'm also a coward and hopelessly hopeful so I am here. But there is a flight tomorrow to somewhere i don't want to go and it has a seat with my name on it and I'm praying that I faint before and don't get on it because I think I'll actually end it. I'm so tired man I just wish i was better

Why am I even here

Screaming into the void hoping anyone who can help will hear but I NEED A MIRACLE. I don't want to go back to ****** and neeeeeeeeeeeeed smth to happen, break idc just let me have my desires