Said It's All In Your Head

I want to die so, so badly.

I just don't know how to explain to someone the genuine fear that I will never be happy, and not in the "oh life sucks" type of way but the "i don't think I'll ever be content in my heart or soul with the life I live" type of way because life doesn't let you follow your dreams and live wonderfully or sweetly

"Woowee, I'm tired," I say at 4am, not planning to go to sleep for another two hours

Idk one of the worst feelings I get is like when you're with your entire group of friends and you can't help but sit there with this overwhelming feeling of terror in your chest because you know you'll never be as good as them

Can't help but just feel shit about myself sometimes

I know it's been said before but I'm just gonna say it again... Harry should've been a professor

wow you haven’t really lived until you wake up in the morning and just cRY because,,,,life

Some people got a lot of nerve to be out here annoying me like that

What the fuck are we even living for

I hate when you feel so stupidly worthless over something so dumb oh my God

I laugh at the stupidest and smallest things because it’s a temporary relief from everything else

I'm just trying to have a good time why do you have go put me down

Yikes why is life so HARD im TIRED bro

Idk man I'm just depressed and I want help and I want to reach out but also I'm anxious and I don't want to bother anyone or waste their time or come off as attention seeking I just want to feel better

Sometimes I just start thinking about everything and everything feels so fucking trivial and insignificant and I can’t understand why I'm even bothering with stuff that’s not gonna matter if I'm dead anyway

Being mentally ill is so fucking wild sometimes like you can be sitting there having a good day and all of a sudden you’re like “yeah nope not anymore”

You ever feel that terrible sinking feeling like you're trying so so hard but nobody cares so why should you even try at all?