jack off spades

‎‎‎ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ‎──       𝐿𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝑀𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈   🍂 ‘   2006  ’

Edits ── #murderbfs

Theories ── #psychosis but make it academic

HCs ── #clinically tested to be considered normal over like minds 

Memes ──  #not your average bromance

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ follows from @nakaharasknife

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"ᴘʀᴀʏ ꜰᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. ᴘʀᴀʏ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀꜱᴇʟꜰ."

‘    We are not templars with god-given rights, there are no holy wars to fight, Nigel. Who are the enemy now? We are, because we wanted more from life than what it had to offer. ’

It isn’t death he worships but its deliverance, the miracle of freedom wrapped in slews of blood and smoke. He thinks Alex meant it. He must have meant it.

That Alex chose this, that he pulled the trigger for him.

Oh, the holiness of it. His boy, his undying salvation, slaying the monster that once held them both. The body of a man once known is scarcely seen, not when he can look at Alex with the kind of love that curdles into need.

In that moment, Nigel’s devotion burns clean. Alex, blood-streaked and trembling, is his religion.

I've been thinking about the scene where Nigel says that his parents are probably away, busy with work, cutting to his dad being very much at the house; it's his way of either not wanting Alex to know the relationship he has with his parents, or keeping him completely separate from that part of his life.

Once Alex sees him as this abused kid, it'd break this little collective fantastical prophecy they've designed,, he needed it to be just them, completely isolated (which he was managing to do in every other aspect of his life) so that Alex could kill his dad with no guilt and really come into the jack Nigel knows he is.

I just always thought it interesting how Nigel really villainised his dad and tried to keep a light air about it, saying, "He's got the gun," with a smile on his face. To Alex, it turns into a threat not only to Nigel’s safety (he’s out of school and snooping around his house) but also his own.

Because if Alex had properly met his father (apart from the general dismissed meeting before the performance), he could not strip the human away from the person. If he had no prior connection or if he saw him only as a personal 'threat' to himself (and Nigel), then he could enact the prophecy, or at least wouldn't break from the bubble of delusion and connectivity they were both in.

This is all with the mind that Nigel had planned the murder of his parents out way earlier. (Or had at least wanted to and deemed Alex as his saviour Jack, that allowed it to be a possibility). In any case, I think trying to hide a friend away from your abusive family dynamic is always at the forefront of Nigel's mind (or anyone in that situation, really). So this scene really stood out to me and hit me in the feels whenever I watched it.