It's Our Time To Shine

Today 

I realised where my life spiraled out of control

I realised when I began to grow hard 

I realised when I began to change 

It was so long ago now

I had not even noticed 

Until today 

When you were mentioned 

It has been so long

Since I have not brushed you under the dusty rug 

Of memories I need not remember 

With apathetic comments of how little I care 

But today I let you stay 

And I thought about what had happened 

And I realised that was when it all began 

When I lost hold 

When I started brushing life under the rug

Instead of sweeping it straight outside

Of my mind

To wonder else where

Under someone else’s rug

I let you fester for so long

When you were never worth it

And you made me so dirty

But today I realised

And today I cleaned the last of you away

May your scattered remains

Finally bring me peace  

You were everything detestable 

You were what I couldn’t have 

You were all I avoided 

You were all my thoughts could comprehend 

You were beneath me 

You were too much 

You were my greatest indulgence 

You were my lush 

You are the calm and comfort of a lazy Sunday 

The taste of mint and man and ease 

With a touch reminisce of the suns glow upon the trees

Sacrosanct like the opening notes of my favourite song

I am mystified through the purple haze as the breeze rejoices your flight

And I tried to hold on to all that you are 

But you are water droplets through my quivering  hands 

So I have decided to turn you into words 

Powerful, strong and true, and all that is you

Because I can enjoy words, I can reflect upon words 

But words cannot bound me 

The way you once had me bound 

I reserve the right to live my life however the fcuk I damn well like

And who are you to bitch and judge when your life is filled with love

We are all imperfect humans scrounging through the mud

Some people are merely arrogant fools living on their imaginary pedestals

The feeling of a strange tongue as it dances with your own

Becoming familiar as you converse without words

A smile pressed against  a smile

Mouths fighting for domination in heated passion

Capturing soft lips with soft lips

Surrendering, defeat tastes so sweet

Two supple fleshy folds licking all over sensitive skin

Evoking  an untamed wildness 

So much, too much, not enough

Gasping for breathe 

Pulling, tugging, moaning, groaning, sweating

And then you find ecstasy 

I was 19 and stupid, you were 21 and dumb

You believed my overconfidence meant experience

I believed your actions meant love

Looking back we were merely fools in lust

Lost in the seduction of a forbidden romance

I screamed your name in a heated pant

You remained quiet inside