Ryokan with delicious foods

I really appreciate it ;; - ;; (I will go little bit of vent here)

I always wanted to give anyone who appreciate me the best I can, that's why every request I receive take a while. I'm very happy every time I receive them. Because since day 1 on tumblr, I always have a dream I got an ask from someone who sees my art. I actually very happy.

To be completely honest, I draw because I wanted to have friend who also had the same passion as me. Unfortunately, I'M EXTREMELY NOT GOOD WITH GROUP CHAT;;;;;;; I know it's a good way to make friends through there, but I guess my mental health and things happened in the past making me can't do that (even tho everyone in group chat is kind)

so, what I do? I DRAW

I draw until someone approach me, I always believe this since day 1. At the end of the day, I just wanted someone who listen without judging me anon ; v ;) without making fandom like competition as well. However it's still very hard for me, I guess this is things I need to work on as well since no one is perfect;;;;; (this is probably getting confused because I'm horrible explaining things LMAOOO)

I live in third world country anon....things......is not as good as the others *laughs* especially these days, so everything is getting worse unfortunately ; - ;). I'm planning to quit my job as well (and accidentally your ask is the first thing I read after I had argument with my boss and had a bad day after my shift today, so thank you ; - ;)

As weebs in third world country and born without privilege, sometimes......you see people living your dream. This is also hard when I wanted to join conversation, how do I tell people no matter how hard I work, I will never be able to buy or go to places I wanted to. Or I have to work and wait certain amount of years in order to get things I wanted ....it's very hard to see people get things you wanted for A DECADE so easily, I often crying because of this

Again, I just ended up drawing, for mutuals, and online friends. Their respond always makes me happy, that least I can do to feel seen and belong (sounded like people pleaser I know lol)

So yeah.... I often jealous whenever I see fanart with same fandom like me, get lots of comment with passion like "I guess my art is just ugly and not good enough since they just leaving likes haha YOU SUCK LOOOOLLLL (my head)

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ things I can do is just drawing, I'm still FAR from good. Seeing my age as well and how talented younger artist these days. Again, at the end of the day, I just want a place where I can be myself.....but looks like I have to wait a bit and keep drawing