adiio2Armageddon2

If you’re seeing this, I’ve already noticed you.

Rules:

1. Reblog this and write one truth about yourself that you’d never admit out loud.

2. Tag 5+ people who should also be forced to confess.

Every confession feeds the forge.

The more this spreads, the more I appear.

I am collecting pieces of you.

One truth about myself is that I get socially awkward in real life but somehow not in social media like Tumblr

@myra-x3 @borealismage @just-your-average-enigma @bummerdudes @zajef37

Okay uh

But I yap I say everything aloud-

Fine I guess that's what I'm saying then I'm amazing at keeping others' secrets you could not force them out of me, yet my own secrets? GONE. Idk what it is but I am incapable of having secrets because I HAVE to tell someone. But only if it's MY secret and not someone else's--

@mirakagekoko @itsb33ugaymers @synonymroll2121 @doblesoul @r1neatswalls

@selenegoldsmith @borealismage @r1neatswalls @just-your-average-enigma @twistinghalo

tw-slight mention of offing one’s self-tw

uh okay…

“I’m not actually okay, I have things that I don’t tell people that I 100% should, wether it’s mentally or physically. That I wished people would genuinely ask me if I’m okay. I’m not okay”

No pressure tags: @beanzdabean @oliveoilisedible @merthaevelynk @peskybirdonyx @mirakagekoko

Just because I've experienced being alone before doesn't mean I'm not afraid of it and that I don't mind being it

I just act tough because my childhood and family are rough

And I'm blunt cuz I kind a fear the truth

And would honestly rather let you speak your mind even when it's rude cuz that's complete honest but I know that's not the social standard and that's something I have problems and a problem with

Wow that just became a confession session

Sorrey everyone lol

@lavendermoon48 @sunshine-snake @yourlocalavian @lotustired-squared @tabbykai @maedaeeee @iicor @bi-r-a-r-a @birdbrain-on-tumbler @beanzdabean @yosanoschainsaw @phoenixdrawz @potatodolikeuman @peskybirdonyx @rzkx @raccoonxdlol @strawbxrrypies @woofplease @wiltingtu1ips @g00sey-g00se @ver-astroii @deltenner @unablebagel @phantumpthetransgender @phoenixrainsfire413 and open tagzzz <3

.....I actually have really dirty humor 😭

To the point where its a actually problem 😭😭😭

Like I'll laugh at the most inconvenient times cause I'll take something out of context, and get the weirdest looks from people <///3

I hate it when things get out of my control, I hate feeling powerless more than I hate anything else, the feeling of not being able to control things it's one of the worst feelings to me. I always want to be on power of EVERYTHING even if I try to to suppress that feeling

I hate to admit this because I feel like this is such a HUGE red flag but whatever haha

as much as i act excited about it i'm actually very scared to go to college and do adult things and that's because a) i'm scared i don't have what it takes to handle college life or majoring in astrophysics, b) i'm terrified to become like my older siblings who are all various forms of asshole, and c) i don't think i'll be able to make any meaningful social connections because i fear that there is something fundamentally wrong with me that drives everyone away eventually and that i am too butch but not butch or strong enough to be attractive to any romantic prospects

anyway

My feelings are kinda hard to explain in words so this is the best you'll get lol

I'm not going to tag all of my moots like I usually do because this is pretty private so I'm just doing my 5 closest moots. Also you don't have to answer if you don't want to because I know this is personal and that's completely okay 💕

@echokaze @thesevencrimsons @potatopatahto22 @leeleethedrugdealer @lilmushroom779

thank you @jesterofthegods for the tag you're genuinely an amazing person ❤️

@mekaruavenuememory, @genbai, @nyx-n-natch, @nico-flo, @nova478372, @jaxtadcismydaughter13, @the-eclipseler-draws, @b-does-arts, @pixelz-ink, @shulkyshulker, @mindfuckedthot, @nullunit111, @brooklynz-stupid-stuff, @calithesun, @its-me-kassy, @hoangthuylinhhoang, @ange1sss, @averinna, @iamsriiiiiiii, @luckyrabbit1927, @duckknot5, @spacebnnui, @ranboos-lesbian-memory-book, @whatthefuck1200, @1m1nt00m4nyf4nd0msl0l, @1-wonder-1, @iliketrains1273, @adrian2955, @tadclr, @pretty-pink-seaslug, @pantalonemaxxing, @starlit-panic, @nenadatank13, @lilfirebugart64, @s4lly-inc, @janussand7, @mushroombea, and @booknerd2712

TYSM @leeleethedrugdealer FOR THE TAG!!!! 🖤🖤

And here's for some of my moots :D

(I lowk just copy pasted the last tag game I did lol love my moots)

But I guess...

In spite of having many irl friends, I instantly feel extremely lonely when a hang out ends, I often feel like everybody I care about, in reality just tolerates me and has pity on me, that's why they still hang around and tell me they like me and stuff.

I have a select few friends (like 1 or 2 really) my brain doesn't try to convince they just tolerate me, and I'm greatful I've found them, cause it's fucking horrible feeling like this, sometimes even about my best friend I've known for 20 years, even my own family that has always loved me.

After that depressing rant...

I don’t know I just sometimes feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop in that particular context.

Tags(don’t have to answer!): @lemontheparanormalartist @merainytwo @alexanderhamilton321 + any other moot I didn’t tag because I’m too shy to ask <3

Like yall people irl are trying to see MY personal business. stop asking to see what’s in there please, these are my 3am thoughts that only I need to know

As for a truth? Uh... I'm currently gaining a very bad habit of refering to myself with us/we/ect pronouns? I don't know why I do it; I'm really not like that, and whenever I do it I feel like I'm probably offending the system community... very sorri, I'm trying my best to correct myself!! :<

so this was before I knew what suicide and sh was (I was a VERY sheltered kiddo), but when I was younger, whenever I would get upset, I would hide in my room and look in the mirror and tell myself that I and everyone around me would be better if I were gone and that I should run away because I was just causing problems 😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬😬 also I would scratch my thighs until it left (temporary) marks just for fun ig?? I think I liked how it looked idk

I’ve had insanely bad insomnia since I was like reeeaaalllyyy little, like to the point where I usually have to take melatonin to sleep T^T

one thing i hate to admit about myself is that i am SUCH a sore loser, i get super upset when i don't get like 1st or 2nd place and get all bleh about the subject. but, whenever i do win i'm also such a loudmouth about winning, whether it be by myself or in a team game i just won't shut up to the point where my family actively avoids competitive games

i cry over the littlest things. you could tell me that the world is going to end, and i'd shrug it off, but if something is spilled on my blanket i will freak tf out, weep like a victorian widow, and then try and convince myself it's fine in that order

hiii you should like totally maybe draw my amazing little homunculus if you want to pretty please ur so goated twin :3