𝓗𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓸 𝓦𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭

Everytime you send me messages about your arguments your desperation or something else nonsense from hundreds or thousands of miles away I just wish I had never existed or vanished or been erased away or had the whole fucking world wiped away and I still wish I could have always been alone and never have any people I know so that I could worry about nothing care about nothing or even be nothing and just thinking about it already makes me feel intoxicated and suddenly I realize how vicious and how inhumane I am and I do not know how I can figure out how to keep living after this so then I just live like a ghost like a zombie or a living dead as always and waiting for another day or night when you send messages.