Finding Freedom

The weekend is here. Back to being a pathetic lover once again.

Finding freedom is finding happiness. If you think you know what will make you happy, but can't seem to achieve it, what do you do then? You can try to be happy with other things but the void never leaves and everything is just a distraction from what you don't have.

When you wake up in the morning and there's no one else in the world to speak to. That's the loneliest time of the day. Sun shining brightly, birds conversating with eachother and all you can do is observe.

What's the point if you have to do everything alone when you don't like being alone all the time? Wake up by myself, eat breakfast by myself, watch TV by myself, eat dinner by myself, go to sleep by myself. Be myself, by myself, by myself.... WTF

I just don't understand why I'm always abandoned and not chosen.

So tired of my heart feeling so broken

I must be cursed. I dont understand why I have to be alone. How has everyone figured out relationships and I'm just "unlucky". It's complete bullshit. I must be defective. Wtf! So sad and mad to say the least. Feels so hopeless. Omg!

I hate the weekends so much. They are super depressing. I swear I hate Saturdays soooooooo much!

Why is it that people are there when you need them? They are always missing. Then I get so mad about it. It's almost more upsetting than the initial reason why you are looking for support. Why are people not there when I need them?

I hate the fucking holidays

Yeah I guessed it right. I was cursed at birth.

Omg I don't know how much longer I can take this loneliness. I hate this!

So much sadness, anger and rage. I dont even know how to express it or let it go.

When you lose faith in humanity there's no hope.

I'm hating this world so much right now