a girl

I’m 5’4” and it took me a little over a year

- Family friends tell me to my face how nice I look instead of telling my parents behind my back how fat I look

- I really did go down a few pants sizes, at my heaviest I was a size 9, now I can fit into a 1.

- Clothes I felt fat and ugly in before fit me better now

- My old shirts and shorts look better on me

- So much of my old clothes are too baggy, donated a lot

- My face is less chubby

- Fingers are thinner- I actually wear extra small gloves at work now instead of regular smalls

- Stomach and thighs got smaller the most I think, calves barely changed AT ALL

- My hair thinned out

- I walk past a mirror at work everyday and am not as afraid to look into it

- I’m always cold at wok, my coworkers all say it’s not cold for them

- Butt and boobs both got smaller

- I don’t have to suck in my stomach anymore, belly bulge is gone

- I bruise easier now, I’ve always been clumsy and knock my hips into stuff but had a cushion fat layer, now I really hit bone

If you crave carbohydrates, your serotonin levels may have dropped. Eggs, cheese and pineapple are good for raising them again.

If you crave sugar, you may be dehydrated. Drink some water or green tea.

If you crave red meat, you may be deficient in iron. Eat dried fruits like figs or prunes, or beans and legumes, or take iron tablets.

If you crave dairy, your blood sugar levels may be low. Eat foods naturally high in glucose, like oranges or strawberries to raise them.

If you crave chocolate, your magnesium levels may be low. Eat brown rice, whole grain bread or spinach to raise them.

If you crave salt, your blood pressure may be low. Eat salted nuts, whole wheat pretzels, or drink salted water to raise it. If that doesn’t work, you may be dehydrated. Drink water or green tea. 

If you crave bread, your nitrogen levels may be low. Eat turkey, black beans or brown rice to raise them. 

oh no! a curse to lose 3 lbs!

i fucking hate self care posts made by neurotypicals so here’s one from someone who Actually Gets It

-can’t shower or take a bath? me either. dry shampoo can make your hair look and feel cleaner, and baby wipes or makeup wipes work great to get the top layer of grime off your skin.

-can’t wash your sheets and make your bed? i feel you. push your blankets out of the way and shake the crumbs off your sheet. it will at least be a bit more comfortable.

-can’t even change out of your dirty pajamas? been there. hit yourself with some febreeze and a lint roller. if you can, brush your hair. if you can’t, hair ties and bobby pins are fantastic.

-can’t make anything to eat? same. if you can, there’s no shame in ordering food. in fact, it’s probably better you eat something rather than go hungry. if you can’t, try and find something that comes pre-made or takes minimal effort to make. at the very least, drink some water.

can’t respond to messages or reach out for help? yeah, i get that. set an alarm for a few hours from now and respond to any messages you need to once you’ve given yourself time to prepare. if they’re Important Messages that need Professional Responses, you can find fill-in-the-blank format rough drafts on google. as far as personal messages go, don’t feel bad for sending a mass “I’m sorry, I’m in a personal emergency right now. I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.” response to everyone.

-can’t even sleep because it’s so bad? asmr videos always knock me out, personally, but i also watch a lot of bob ross. just try to find something quiet and soothing to use as background noise and take your mind off it, or at least give you a more peaceful environment to think about it.

-can’t go for a walk/drive? try opening the blinds or curtains. you’re still exposing yourself to the outside world. baby steps. (i also play animal crossing or sims; it may be virtual but fuck it. i went on a walk.)

-can’t go into work/school? let people know. let your coworkers or classmates know it’s an emergency and you can’t make it. give yourself up to two days, but then you have to go back. ask to have your work emailed to you so you know what you missed.

-can’t brush your teeth and wash your face? makeup or baby wipes and gum or mouthwash. don’t let yourself physically rot bc you’re rotting emotionally.

Remind us what we are working hard for

1. Biggest Looser

2. Americas Next Top Model

3. Revenge Body

4. My 600 lbs life

5. To the bone

6. Say Yes to the Dress (want to be able to fit into the sample sizes)

7. Skin Wars (the models are super pretty and so confident)

8. Too Hot to Handle

9. Thin

10. The Bachelor / Bachelorette

130-135 vs 120

idk i feel like there should’ve been a bigger difference but ig not

my jawline is more prominent

my face is slightly slimmer

i can see my collarbones resting

if i suck in, i can count three ribs

when i lay down, i can feel the dip between my ribs

my boobs are down from a 36D to a 34DD

pants that fit me sophomore year fit me now

pants i wear all the time are starting to become loose

i went from a size 14-15 to a size 10-12

my waist went from 35 inches to 30

i can feel my hipbones when i sit down

i can sit on my knees comfortably

i can squat down for longer

i can curl up on the couch comfortably

i feel less hungry than i used to

my wrist is smaller

Remember how you look naked Remember how your thighs touch Remember how you look at others Remember how your stomach looks Remember how unhappy you are Remember how we are always here Remember how your friends look Remember how you envy them Remember how ashamed you are Remember how long it took Remember how you felt last time Remember how it’s not worth it Remember how you tell your lies Remember how you want to change Remember how your body looks Remember how people see fat Imagine YOU when its done