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tus.

she/her/they/them.

20.

169cm.

this entire page is my diary for my eating disorder habits. i have no where else to talk or vent about it, so i’ve decided to use tumblr for it for the first time. on my blog will be eating disorder content, body measurements, etc. i’m not pro-eating disorder, i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. i’m only pro for myself. i am majorly pro recovery. if for some reason you’re visiting my page, please keep yourself safe.

HW: 245.

SW: 235.

CW: 242.

GW1: 235 / GW2: 230 / GW3: 225

GW4: 220 / GW5: 215 / GW6: 200

GW7: 190 / GW8: 175 / GW9: 160

GW10: 150 / GW11: 130 / GW12: 120

UGW: 110.

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my tags: #tustusmeasurements. #tus30day. #tusprogresspics.

my accs: @tusrecipes @villainnectarine.

#ana thoughts #just ed things #pro ana #pro mia #not actually pro #pro just for me #ed fasting #ed #disordered eating #ana #mia #mia thoughts

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when i first started working and i wasn’t eating as much n i was close to passing out every day >>> ong best feeling. i miss it. i’m gonna fast tmrrw

i want my coworkers to notice i’ve lost weight

weekly meal plan:

sunday: salad (204 cal)

monday: salad (204 cal)

tuesday: salad (204 cal)

wednesday: salad (204 cal)

thursday: chicken alfredo pasta (cal unknown rn)

friday: ramen (cal unknown rn)

saturday: subway sandwich (cal unknown rn)

i’m allowing myself to have fruit everyday as a snack, and possibly a granola bar in the morning before work. i’m gonna try my best to cut out soda or only have soda with no calories.

daily budget: 550 calories

#ana thoughts #just ed things #not actually pro #pro ana #pro just for me #lose-weight-fast #ed fasting #fasting #anna miia #mia thoughts #low cal recipes #meal plan #meal log

my bf will not love me if i am fat that is what my brain is saying even if it isn’t trueeee

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okay ummm lolz i’m gonna start starving myself again 😋

lol i’ve gained so much weight

something just snapped in my brain

hi! i’ve started an acc on ed tiktok (: it’s kinda nice aside from the extreme hate and dts i’ve been getting.

i did it. i reached under 100kg. i’m going to cry. ive wanted this for so long. i haven’t been this low since february 2019.

i’m so proud of myself.

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IM SO HAPPY HOLY FUCK KM 220!!! THAT MEANS IM 1 POUND CROM BEING UNDEE 100KG HOLT FUCK IM GOING TK SYART SOBBING OH NY GOD IM SO HAPPY

#anna miia #pro mia #pro ana #not actually pro #pro just for me #weightloss #lose stomach weight #eating disoder thoughts #disordered eating #disordered mind

i know i’ve lost 10lbs, and to people outside of eds that may seem like a lot, but to me it’s just... not?? like? does that make sense?

i reached my first goal weight !!! :)))) <333

#disordered eating #anna miia #pro ana #pro mia #not actually pro #pro just for me #just ed things #just ed stuff #goal weight

tw suicide attempt, mental hospital, eating disorder, abuse

so last week i tried to kill myself via overdose. i was so afraid i drove myself to the hospital and got sent to a mental hospital. in that hospital, i went through so much psychological abuse and neglect and more. it’s triggered my eating disorder back and i’ve lost over 10 pounds now due to this. i feel bittersweet about it. i’m malnourished entirely, but, i’m losing weight. i’m losing weight faster than i ever have, but at what cost? i survived, but at what cost? is it worth it? i’m becoming skinnier, but... i don’t know. i should just be happy i’m losing weight now i guess. idk. but i suppose i’m back here on tumblr again :)

#just ed things #disordered eating #disordered mind #pro ana #not actually pro #pro just for me #anna miia #mental hospital

cribblingdebression

my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

skinnygrungedreams

pretty sure i’ve reblogged this already before but it’s just so accurate

suicidal-kiwi

this is literally so fucking accurate. my brain will always tell me shit like “just have a fruit and dont log it” but bitch i know what i did!

hungryiguess

the accuracy is astonishing

humairalili

Just now I was arguing in my head & saw this

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cribblingdebression

my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

skinnygrungedreams

pretty sure i’ve reblogged this already before but it’s just so accurate

suicidal-kiwi

this is literally so fucking accurate. my brain will always tell me shit like “just have a fruit and dont log it” but bitch i know what i did!

hungryiguess

the accuracy is astonishing

humairalili

Just now I was arguing in my head & saw this

I JUST WANT TO BE SKINNY.

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