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softly hurting (teeth eater)

Dewey, 2009

obviously nettles dropped yesterday and its captivating to say the least, but i feel like despite all the traction I've seen about the lyrics, everyone has kind of brushed over the actual concept of the line 'this was all for you'. in all fairness maybe i missed the hype since i've never heard this before its official release/ didnt listen to it on yt/soundcloud (the only unreleased songs i typically listen to are live house in nebraska and punish demo 2, crying during sex and dust bowl- which, by the way, im going to lose my shit when that drops on the new album) but as i was saying all day that line has been on my mind. ALL of it was for him. all of the pain and suffering she went through. being abused, trafficked, abandoned, pimped out, addicted, literally fucking murdered and cannibalised. none of it would've happened if she had willoughby. and yet, she seemingly isnt bitter. theres no sense of resentment only painful pining that almost kills the listener, like in sun bleached flies as she reflects on her life and is reminded of all the trauma she experienced and is still dreaming of their house in nebraska ,even crying out 'oh willoughby' as she lets go of all the suffering she endured. it just completely rips me apart tbh but that is what true true love does to someone. and i am going to be incredibly insufferable on here and irl up until the album release and afterwards cus i got tour tickets mehehhehe

this is 100% not what hayden intended w this album but this is a fun interpretation to consider <3

i wish i could draw them all day

+ if ur interested i made them another playlist! it has the same songs as the old one but i made it more compact/easier to listen to in order

happy valentines guys. heart emoji

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