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especially taken into the context of kevin mourning riko after his death and wanting the boy he once knew back?? like theres so much we dont know about the two of them im going insane

You know, I still wait at the edge of town

Praying straight to God that maybe you’ll come back around (a small part of kevin hoping theres still some hint of goodness in riko amongst all the anger riko has)

I cry every day, and the bottles make it worse (kevin's alcoholism)

'Cause you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt (i wonder if we'll ever see a kinder riko that tried his hardest to take care of kevin, so much so that kevin actively reached out to him for comfort)

And I found photographs of our school, on the day we met

I thought that you were so beautiful, it was love, I guess (kevin looking up to riko and idolising him as no.1 while kevin stayed beneath him as no.2)

And you might never come back home, and I may never sleep at night (riko haunting kevins mind - 'i can still hear him. can you?')

But God, I just hope you're doing fine out there, I just pray that you're all right

(that last lyric - kevin finally being able to admit that he loved riko and wanted the best for riko, but only AFTER rikos death)

anyway sorry for my little ethel cain kevriko dump! theres just too much to say

HIII thank you so much for taking the time to write this i love this fandom so much

the fact that kevins book is out there somewhere being written and his relationship with riko is being defined (are they like brothers? best friends? rivals? or..eurgh..lovers?) and we just have to wait patiently to read whatever masterpiece nora ends up releasing.

i completely agree that kevin was deep down hoping riko would change and that a small part of him still longs to go back to (a newer, improved) evermore - why else would he still be creating his 'perfect court'???

the bottles linking to kevins alcoholism...rip kevin day you wouldve loved ethel cain (the way ethel sings that line is so gut wrenchingly sad and she transitions that note into the next line "bc you were the only one i was never scared to tell i hurt" you can rlly feel every word & the heaviness & longing)

omg the concept of seeing a kind riko...ive always thought he had to have some redeeming qualities for kevin to have been so close to him so im really interested to see if he was ever conversational/normal around kevin and not just the psycho he was in the og trilogy.

I CAN STILL HEAR HIM CAN U goes platinum in my mind every day...that was the first line i thought of when i heard this song in the kevriko lens. YOUR MINDDD.

:( kevin wanting the best for riko even tho hes caused him so much pain

also , not to make this even longer but:

when ethel repeats "i feel so alone" in the end its so much quieter and echoed and far away and i feel like that could kevins deeper, subconscious thoughts that he's too afraid to face - his loneliness when he sees jean in california healing and freely loving jeremy, or when he sees neil break away from the mafia and love andrew and play exy in a way that isnt mentally unstable like kevin does, or even seeing andrews broken past and how hes healing too & starting a life with neil - but kevin has exy and nothing else (especially since rikos gone hes the only person still thinking about evermore/the ravens and when he asks jean if he can still hear rikos voice thats his twisted way of seeking comfort)