First Day Back in Therapy
Wow. I'm exhausted from that first session. I think it may have been 6 years since I last went to therapy. I'm not confident that is the answer though. I went back for grief therapy. And I am exhausted now. Counseling is a lot like working out. It hurts like a bitch and it leaves you sore and it's exhausting. It sucks. It's tiring. But if you stay with it and fight through it and stay consistent, you keep evolving and developing internally. I have been living my life like a bottle pent up with no release and it has had a terrible effect on my mental and emotional and even spiritual health. I had a breakdown at work the other day and I knew it was time to listen to my best friends who were urging me to go on leave and get help. I think I waited too late because the stress had built up so much that it came to a head. It's not just my nephew's passing that is haunting me. There are at least 6 others in my life who have passed and I never dealt with it. I guess I never realized that is something you "deal" with. I guess I had my wake up call. Time to take my Seroquel which calms my mood (I'm worked up from my therapy session) and also helps me sleep beautifully. I hope for another day tomorrow. Hmm. That wasn't my wish just a few days ago.











