man. having Grown Up problems doesnt seem that bad til your Grow-ing Up problems catch up to you. what do u mean im feeling burnout from my job that i thought was easy a year ago. what do you mean my bills are stacking up i was making bank 6 months ago. why are my dishes and laundry so backed up. why do i feel as trapped as i did as a teenager. um. what do i do now
I am happier and more fulfilled and less in a fishbowl feelin than I was at any point in my teens but mayne i let my mental health go unbothered for so long.
im just mad resting on my one coping mechanism which is alcohol 😬😬😬 iont gotta tell you that thats not sustainable long term. esp how i been goin sumn like 5-6 whiskey shots a night. Recently also relapsed self harm after 5ish years and i been hittin that shit every day for the last 3 days. When i was younger i only ever got my upper thighs so nobody would see but ig being married n all that wasnt a problem so its been my upper arm. shits new and also old for me man idk.
Imma try to get in touch with a doc soon abt going back on meds. my job randomly demoted me so i lost my health insurance but ill try to figure it out i guess. damn
