Ive Been So Unmovatied
Im looking back at my old art and wondering where that verison of me went?
I bought a tablet off my friends and Im trying to use that to make art cause I can animated on it. But Ive been finding it so hard to make any colored piece.
I wanted this transition to push myself to using a tablet cause I want to animate. I really like the program but I just cant adjust to it?
I dont want to come back to my confort zone of the computer. I want to know how to use the ipad and florish in animation on there. Why am I struggling? I just wanna come back and do what I was good at. But I need to push myself to try this.
Even before the tablet I stuggled to make any art. My job is so stressful. I just HATE working, it takes everything from me. Do I want this bad enough? Do I want anything bad enough? I feel so empty, I want to make wonderful peices again.
I WOULD LOVE SOME ADVICE!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!
Looking back at this, its interesting to see where my mind was. I didn't find out I was pregnant till 5 days after posting this. I think a part of me knew already. My body and brain felt that I needed to get something done. That I needed to jump start this art thing or it would never happen.
Now 2 years later I have that motivation back. I remember feeling so hopeless. Being 28 and worrying about my career and what a future meant for me.
Back then, I was at a job that I hated. I was harassed constantly and would cry in my car after my shift ended. I finally got a new job that I started 2 months after this post. I was in a major transitional period of my life. Now I'm at that again. I'm going through so much bullshit at my job now. Its up in the air on what my next shift is going to look like. I don't know if I will have this job in June.
Im floating again, but closer to the ground. This time I reported the harassment. I finally feel some power to this.
I also had a recent major death in my family. In which of the manner Iam not going to disclose.
Art is never really about the art. I'm doing this so my head doesn't explode.
