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Dulu, kata “bermain” memiliki esensi yang penuh canda tawa, riang, gembira, serta obrolan tanpa beban. Bermain dengan teman maupun saudara adalah pergi berenang, makan mie goreng kotak dengan badan yang menggigil, tidur di atas kasur yang penuh manusia dan tawa, menutup mata dengan bantal dibagi dua saat menonton film horror, berlipat kaki di depan tv sambil menunggu sarapan yang sedang…

Sadly ayah can’t wait until i make him proud. He’s already gone. Gone too soon, gone too young, and gone forever. The silver lining is in his last seconds he was surrounded by his daughters and wife. I think God knew that ayah had gone through so many things, had big burden on his shoulder. God just didn’t want to make him suffer more longer. I wish it’s just not what i want to think, it’s God…

Hi, mba! how are you up there? all good right? we’re doing well heree! By the way, happy birthday ❤ Every year, approaching the days we lost you, I always read our chat over and over again and it always ends with me and my ugly crying. When I read it, I think I always come to you if i faced any problem, you’re like my sister! I asked you how to take the bus, you offered to accompany (all the…

“I Try to Hold Myself” Hold me like I’m dying shower me with praising words, I know I’m still not good enough to hear those words, because I behave more like an animal. Don’t gloat on me, just because you are a decent human. Don’t, ever, being condescending about my situation. I hold my soul, and try not to fall from the bench. Yes. I’m about to jump. but I’m holding myself…

Hi people! I’ve had some news to make… This year and through, i’ll try to make a holiday card every end year!! And this year is gonna be the kick off!! Im excited 😆 For my first holiday card it’s inspired by Wes Anderson’s film that i just watched it a few days ago!! “The Royal Tenenbaums” my favorite, and there’s also gonna be “The Grand Budapest Hotel” touch in it ^.^ It also contained…

#imakeapoem | puisi lima belas

The Dawn the dawn is mine consume all the goods feeling all the odds suppress all the negativity i close my eyes tightly the calm embark inside me and following by the storm who try to thorn me down the dawn is mine where everything seems to be halfdead when the quiet give me comforts and solitude made me a decent one but… why do i think i owned the dawn? why do i think it will…

A Letter For Her pt. 2

Hi mbak! How are you doing up there???? I miss u sm. Its been two years today when you left this hell like world. I went to you today, gave you some flowers hihi still cant find any blue flowers nearby:( but once i find it then i’ll come by ok? Btw i met your nephew tonight too, she looks a lot like you! Beautiful as you do, endearing as you do, a cutie pie too. She’s growing up so fast! Wish you…

I have infinity words to say about ayah. But every time i try to talk about ayah, i ended up crying. A father figure has a big role to his daughter, because he is the first man his daughter met right after she was born. My father has a big impact portraying the characteristic of a ‘man’, i must admit he made it so hard for a ‘man’ to become a ‘man’ like him. He set up the bar too high for them to…

a song that made me cry tonight | #RandomPost

D.O – My Dad I enjoyed some of exo’s music, but i never really into them to be called as their fans. Tonight while i listened to my playlist then it reached the last song so spotify will randomly give you a recommendation song and this song suddenly played. I enjoyed the melody because it gave me a warm vibes, and i decided to put it in my playlist but when i saw the title and the singer it made…

It’s been a year since she left, but i still can feel her existence It’s been a year since i can’t hear her laugh anymore, but i know she still laugh with us everytime we talk about her, i always look at the corner of the room and see her smiling from ear to ear But it’s never been easy for us, she left us a year ago but it feels like yesterday we were cried a river for her She, a beautiful…

#imakeapoem | puisi empat belas

di tengah riuhnya kamar mandi aku sedang melihat diriku di depan cermin meratapi wajahku lekat-lekat, sambil bertanya, “kamu..bahagia?” tanpa ragu kepalaku menggeleng, menegaskan tidak setelah mendapat jawaban dari diriku sendiri aku beralih ke mata, kata orang mata tidak bisa menipu mataku tiba-tiba parau dan sendu aku menemukan banyak kenangan masa lalu dan harapan masa depan yang…

  halo mbak sisi, aku gak tau kamu bakal baca post ini apa nggak semoga saat ini kamu lagi baca di sebelahku ketika aku ngetik ini ya hehe.

udah beberapa hari yang lalu sejak aku mendengar kalau kamu pergi, bukan pergi yang dapat kembali tapi kamu pergi dan tak akan pernah kembali. rasanya sampai detik ini aku masih belum bisa melupakan kenangan – kenangan yang ada kamu disana. setiap kilas…

music that represent what i’ve been through (i guess..)| chapter 1

*warning, aku nulis acak adul dan dalam berbagai bahasa hehe*

hola !

kali ini mau kasih rekomendasi some music yang maybe mewakili segala ceritaku, mewakili perasaan sakit dan bahagia, mewakili segala kekecewaan dan kebanggaanku selama 21 tahun aku hidup di dunia yang penuh fana namun indah ini.

but, most of the music menceritakan kesedihanku sih.

Eli – Worthless

used to hear eli’s songs since…

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life update during #DiRumahAja

hai semuanyaaa, how’s life? is it good? i hope so

so udah hampir 3 bulan ya kita di rumah aja, dan during this time bener-bener super bosen. 1 bulan pertama everything was okay, karna banyak hal yang udah aku lakuin alias ide tiap hari mau ngapain tuh lancar banget. tapi jalan bulan ke-2 dan 3 udah bosennya minta ampun. ditambah lagi kuliah online huhu jadi makin-makin banyak tugas, dan kalo lagi…

Udah lama banget gak nulis #DiskusiBarengNafa yg aku ganti #AkuCerita karna sepertinya ini lebih ke cerita daripada diskusi wkwk, aku tuh sebenernya nggak pandai ngerangkai kata jadi rada minder zuzur kalo mau nulis.

Me Myself And I, kata-kata ini selalu terpikirkan ketika aku lagi memikirkan diriku sendiri.

Kata itu selalu muncul ketika aku lagi bener-bener ngerasa sendirian, entah lagi…