Nancytangotits

Fuck cupcakes

How does one know if their depressed? Cuz like i still smile and laugh and find joy in stuff but at the same time theres no shot that everyones life feels this heavy ALL the time. Idk ig its not all the time it kinda comes in uneven waves sometimes ill be good for like 2 weeks and then bad for months then good for months and bad for a week and yk so on. Is this rlly normalll???? Its not like i have a therapist to tell me if this is normal or not and i dont wanna be thinking that im depressed if im just suffering the affects of being a teenager ykwim? Ugh i js wanna be skinny and i want my friends to think about me and care about me as much as i do. If im physically around them we’ll talk and laugh and have fun but over things like summer vacation ill see them all together on their insta stories. Wait that makes them sound like terrible people, their not, i promise. I only rlly joined the so called ‘friend group’ earlier this year and theyve all been friends longer than I have so like i cant expect them to just accept me with open arms and stuff but idk i guess i would like to be invited to stuff. Im js so tired

Me after binging

Oh! Ok then, the day never had a chance anyhow...

Hell is truly a teenage girl. I'm just gonna jump straight into it: My grandfather is dying, I'm not really even close to the dude it's just the fact that my grandmother is grieving and doesn't know what to do without him that makes me rlly despressed 4 her. I wanna b skinny so bad it's not even funny. This past week I was at the beach with some family and I felt so f@t the whole time. I couldn't skip meals with them around so I ate 3 full meals a day for a whole week. I gained so much I feel so disgusting. To make matters worse, I js went to Starbucks to get away from home, and the plan was to get a black coffee to suppress my @pp3t1t3, Well guess who gave into cravings and somehow ate like 1000kc@1 worth of food and coffee. I have this weekend camp thing this weekend and I rlly dont wanna look f@t in the pictures that they take. If anyone can leave tips to reduce f00d noise that would be awesome. Is that a bad thing to ask?? I dont even know dude. I'm not even like big really. I just have huge thighs, a gut, flabby arms and a double chin. If I can just get rid of those Ill feel so much better about myself. I need online friends. Or moots? Is that what they're called? I need to learn how to find good communities and rlly get connected on tumblr cuz I have no clue what I'm doing. Anyways, that's it for my trauma dump, ANY tips on getting friends on here is greatly appreciated lol.