TeeMantic

I got dust bunny’s in my pockets,

Trapped in the house like I’m being held hostage,

Ransom is sky rocketed,

If I had a bell I’d still be in jail cause we’re all broke as hell,

These raining days doesn’t seem to ease a thing,

Got me going insane, I actually thought I heard T-Pain singing my ear.

Wish I could roll sum dice just to win some change,

Shit it’s that bad out here,

Got me thinking about Only.Fans as a gig,

Just kidding Ma, but shit

Quarantine got me hallucinating,

Ayo Halley Berry, nope,

it was just a Tree,

Welp,

I’m back wit my rant and shit,

I’m broke as hell,

Fuck,

I’m shit outta luck,

Luckily I got my lady, who’s my baby that loves me,

Shit it’s crazy cause I can’t even take her to her favorite places,

this shit is buggin,

I’ve been snapping on myself as if I’ve got a split personality out this bitch,

I’ve been feeling at war with myself as if it’s a long term gig,

Rewards me with such a feeling I can’t even explain,

They say keep yo expectations low, or you’ll be consume with the false information your brain injects you with,

It’s an chemical reaction due to the impulse of thinking about what’s real,

We live in a society where we watch others live the thrill as we sit back and just chill,

Living through someone else’s experiences, while we just gaze at the screen,

“Knock, Knock, Knock”

Is anybody in there,

“Helllooo” sounds so hollow!

Are you even alive,

Are you allowing your life to slip through your fingertips,

What have you done?

Have you traveled just for fun,

Have you took a leap of faith and just experienced something outside of your comfort zone?

Damn, so you just sit on your phone all day and take selfies as if you’re enjoying yourself,

As soon as you put your camera down, post yourself , you start crying because the fake smile you pretended to have is an illusion of the joy you wished you felt.

Tee, slow yo self.

I’m about to go in,

We are so media based we forget to live,

We feel pain yet we push it away with the clubs, drugs, and even sex just to feel better then we did,

Now that’s a shame,

We have more sex workers than case workers keeping the kids safe,

We sell our bodies just to feel a connection,

Lost isn’t even the word to use in such a case like this.

Children are more consumed with the bullshit that their minds are making them believe that their this or that!

Shit, kids are more suicidal than an adult now that’s just crazy!

Nobody else sees this shit!

Pain comes in all ages but taking your own life shouldn’t be a thought at the age of six.

Those three words, they get thrown around so freely now, and those three little words can mean so much to someone who isn’t use to hearing it as offended as they do now. It’s easy to get lost in something you’ve never had before, but that doesn’t mean you should go blind to your intuition on if it’s true or not. Don’t allow those three words to fool you into believing in something that isn’t true. Don’t allow your past to allow you to believe you aren’t worthy of those beautiful three words either. ❤️

Teacher calls on student, the student quickly ignores.

The student is wishing they could just fall to floor, “maybe they won’t hear me, maybe I’d be like a tree in a forest falling without a sound, maybe, maybe they can’t see me.. yeahhh they can’t see me”

Teacher yells! Hey you, come to the board,

Heartbeat pacing, hands start shaking, armpits sweating, why couldn’t she pick the one with their hands raised instead.

Fingers turning, feet is burning, “oh god please give me strength”

Teacher asks questions about what the student comprehend from the assignments.

The students mind went blank... and all of a sudden it felt as if the student was sinking in their own fears. “What if they discovere I can’t read, what if they discovered I didn’t completely understand it, what if I ask her to explain and she laughs at my lack of intelligence”

Trying to grab ahold of the understanding of the assignment was a struggle itself, suddenly the process to begin the explaination of what was learned were jumping around within the brain.

Teacher yells “hello are you there” as the rest of the class laughs.

The student grew into frustration within themselve, held back those untold tears that they were dying to let out, soft whispers within the ears, “you’ll never be smart enough” were stumped into its mind as if it was the loudest thought pumping as everything went blank,

The student try’s to explain, throat closes up as if their body was beginning to shut down, the student explains, “it’s hard to let out the thoughts itself to separate what was gathered and what was unclear, or just how to explain in general”,

Teacher skips over the student,

The student just wishes she would’ve done that in the beginning, she knows I suffer with comprehending....