My letter to you.
Good morning love. I think you may think I’m crazy by now. I’m really not. You may think I’m being too clingy or just a lot to handle but I’m not really. You see, I just never felt this type of way for anyone and I just don't know what to say or how to say it or even how to act. My emotions are so strong at times that they get the best of me. I know you have alot to process about me based off of what I been writing but in person I’m just a totally different person.I just need the chance to show you. Im not a jealous person unless you give me a reason to be. I am very trusting,very loyal,very flexible, I am not the controlling type, I am humble and would give you the space you need when needed.I wouldn't have any issues with you hanging out with the guys or going out because guys need time too. I am not the type to call you a hundred times a day. I am very nurturing, very affectionate, very grounded. But also very passionate about things too. I’m an ambivert. I'm not the type that likes to go out but once in a blue just to blow off some steam. I'm a homebody. I like Netflix and chill type of days over going out. I like movie nights at home and game nights too. I take a lot on; TOO much sometimes, I always want to do for everyone.But that’s just me. I am very generous but to the right people. I am thoughtful and love the small things over big extravagant things because it’s the thought that counts. I give a lot, like randomly giving gifts because that’s MY love language. I am very chatty and love to have conversations but then some days I don’t talk at all. I am goofy and fun loving, child like, joke around type. I love pranks I love being silly. I love to laugh. Especially with the kids. I am a mom before anything. I love to dance, to sing, to cook, to help people who need it. I am adventurous and daring. I love nature, and car rides to no where. I love doing random things. I have a love/hate relationship with planning things out. It stresses me.😖I love food! 😂 I love music. I hate conflicts and fighting, I don’t start trouble. I worry a lot and always need to be self assured. And if you’re having a bad day I would lift you back up and make you feel better. I’m good like that. I am no psychic, so I DONT know when you are feeling a certain way and you would need to communicate and make things crystal clear to me. I always need clarity. Otherwise my mind would run on a thousand, like it is right now.
I don’t ask for much, just love and respect and loyalty. I’m a really good person I would take care of you I wouldn’t care if you didn’t have a job or you were homeless or didn’t have a car or have the finer things. Those type of things don’t matter to me. I am a very independent person and don’t need anything. I don’t expect gifts at all or anything for that matter. Im not the type of person that cares about looks or how people dress. As well as what people think about me for that matter,I could care less. As long as you treat me right and you have an awesome personality is what matters to me.( And by the way you are the sexiest man I know and that’s a fucking FACT!!) I would definitely remind of that and show you for the rest of your life. I would be your hype man. I would support you in anything you want to do and only make you more confident. But I also would let you know if things aren’t right or a bad idea. I give my opinions. I also want to be taken care of too.. but most of the times I’m self sufficient. On my sick days it would be nice if someone took care of me. I have never had that. I deserve it. To be babied. But most of all I’m the type of person with a big heart. And a lot of love to give, but to the right person who deserves to be love. I’m tired of being a second opinion because I should be the first. I’m not a perfect person at all, because I have many flaws and insecurities but for the most part I’m very confident. There’s so much more that I could say but that would be left for you to find out. So I want to just tell you that I love you so much and I know things happen so fast but I do, I don’t know how and I don’t know why but I do. And I don’t want you to lose me. I’m rooting for you.I know that sounds very cocky( trust me I’m not at all) but I just want you to be the one. Now I don’t know if you feel the same but if you do it would be a good idea to let me know so that I have a reason to stick around. Because you are it for me. I see a future so bright with you. I can picture a blended family with a lot of love and blessings. You are perfect for me in every way. I don’t care what you say is wrong with you. I accept you because of who you are. And people that love other people do that. I’m patient for the most part. Especially when things are clear to me. Now if you don’t feel that way and just see me as a friend and want to work things out with her let me know that too. Don’t be afraid to let me down. Don’t be afraid to tell me or hurt me, because not telling would be worse and lying about it would hurt me even more than not saying anything at all. I don’t want to be lead on. I don’t deserve that either. I deserve much more than that because despite everything I think I’m a great catch. (This is my confidence speaking). So I hope this helps you figure things out a little better. I’m very transparent about things so if you have any questions or there is anything else you want to know just ask. And be open to my responses. I wanna move forward with you with openness, no lies only truth. With a new start and start off on the right foot to building a solid foundation with you. Even if we need to start off as friends it better than not having you at all.
And now your gone🙏🏻🪽
