Am I Changed?
I know this is outdated. but i tried to retake the test. the first one was taken long time ago w/Ā result is ENFP-T and now it changes to INTP-A. Such character development. Or is itĀ deterioration?Ā
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Am I Changed?
I know this is outdated. but i tried to retake the test. the first one was taken long time ago w/Ā result is ENFP-T and now it changes to INTP-A. Such character development. Or is itĀ deterioration?Ā
ENFP-T
INTP-A

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That's how it goes kids. The friends, neighbors, drinking buddies, and partners in crime you love so much when you're young, as the years go by, you just lose touch. You will be shocked, kids, when you discover how easy it is in life to part ways with people forever. That's why, when you find someone you want to keep around, you do something about it.
Ted Mosby (How I Met Your Mother)
the worst thing is when you try to open up and expected someone to listen; they only hear but didn't listen.
what's wrong? of course my expectation.
Journaling
Lately I feel I'm losing myself.
Feels like I'm not me. I'm just somebody's wife and somebody's mother. Me? Didn't exist. My daily routine not really interesting anymore. Sometimes it's exhausting. I lost sparks on myself.
I'm not feeling good and didn't like what I see in the mirror although actually there's no much change. My weight still the same (less muscle tho).
Then I thought journaling would help. I have that small notes with green cover and I think I could try to have some new hobby. Cute stickers ordered but it's ended up on my daughter's sticker book. I write a thing or two after she's slept. Now it's lay down on the corner of the drawer. Maybe I would try to write again later on.
Need to gather the energy left on me to really really start doing something I like.
boxing. dancing. crafting. coloring. or anything. I don't vote for cooking since it's my daily and my daughter can't let me cook by myself. She'll pull me off the counter.
Maybe it's time to buy dance or sports games for my switch
Motherhood Lyfe
My new life begin on 2 Jun 2022. My daughter was born. The first time I saw her, āsheās so cuteā i said to myself while my body still trembling due to the anesthetic effect. Then my vision starts to blur and I lost my consciousness.
Days after is the hardest. Canāt avoid the baby blues and postpartum depression either. Itās getting hard day by day, even tho i stay at my motherās house. Still iāve got no time for myself. Need to breast pump per 2-3 hours because babyās demand still low but the milk production at the highest. Have to choose what to do while the baby is sleep. Sleep, eat, bath?
The peak day is maybe around 3 weeks. It is the hardest time. My body canāt keep up. IT FEELS SO TIRING. How can I keep sane when my basic needs isnāt fulfilled? I thoughts being with my family can makes me less stress but no. They have their own things to do. I, basically only stay in different place with just a little help. Then I started to broke down. I keep crying. A LOT.
The oldies around me said that I canāt have baby blues. But actually I am without everyone knows. Somehow my mom knows about it. Maybe she caught me crying. Then she tried to help me a bit more.
I cried not only because of the tiredness but because no one understand. They only said, āthatās what it isā. I feel a bit relieved when I talk about this with my cousins. She validate my feelings. She said that she and most of her friends also goes thru the blues. Itās not that iām weak, but IT IS THAT HARD.
Being a mom is hard. Itās also hard to keep yourself sane while you still have a lot to adjust because everything is changed. Especially when no one understand what youāve been through.
This journey still long and is the hardest compared to any other things. Even after 7 months, I still found it hard. Iām still tired. Sometimes I cried in office bathroom stall. Hope it will makes me feel better. I try not to cry while my baby is crying too.
Be strong, Mama. You got this.

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Never Been Easy
Losing someone, especially family will left a hole in our heart. Maybe it will left empty for our whole life because there will never be anything that can fill it.
It's been half year but the feels still here. The shock, hurt, sad and everything. Sometimes it feels better but most of the time it feels worse. My regret just feels a lil bit better, just a bit.
I can't help but feel useless that day. Still can't believe it. In a blink of an eye then he's gone. Thought he'll be safe and can continue to do his plan, do and get everything that he wants.
But God has another plan; the best plan. God ask him to come "home", maybe he'll do better there. No pain, just happy.
Will try my best to not regretting that day. Try to believe it's just how it works. It's one of god's plan, I'm just mere human that can't do anything unless with god's permission. Even though I took other action and decision, it won't change the result.
Yes, it's the best. Especially for him. Al-fatihah
Just noticed that when I feel uncomfortable with my surroundings, I tend to become needy and my desire to move far away from here is become higher. Sure I don't want to live here (this country) anymore or at least I want to move to Bali.. Not because of the place, it's just because the person.
So tired of getting asked; when you're having a kid? Why u doin' this? Why u doin' that? U should do this, do that.
Why should I? Just let me doing my way.
Haa.
One of my biggest regret is not fight hard enough to get myself move to other country. It sucks.
My Random Flow turned 11 today!
Woa. Can't believe that it's been 11 yrs.
Glad tumblr didn't shut down. so I can still post my blabbering thoughts here.
Nothing good happens after 2 am.
Sometimes, there's nothing good happens before.
I'm a real freak, isn't it?
Life is a joke. Should I end it?
The joke, ofcourse. :)

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Haha. Funny things always happen.
I try to keep improving myself since I know by bad trait is escaping from a problem by not clear it and pretend it's never happen. Then continue living as if all is well.
Now i'm getting better on it. Push myself to not running away and try to clear it. But you on the other side is such an athlete. You keep running even what we really need is talk. Haven't tired yet?
Wow.
What a luxury to escape a problem with a sleep? What to do when communicating is such a burden to you? Am I suppose to always bottle it up since it's useless to say?
F.
What's standard and normal anyway?
I've been so attached with BL lately (only for the 2gether main cast tho), because I watched 2gether and it hooked me. It feels so happy to see them together even after the filming. In my opinion, their love is sparkling. They look so good together and the chemistry work so well. It's hard to believe if they really didn't feel anything toward each other. Bcoz of this, I've been wondering about how's their feelings?
Don't really understand about LGBTQ persons feels, I just want to highlight the "Love" in it. I wonder about it sometimes, how they feel when they realized that they're "different"? Did they fell scared and un-sure? Still wondering is it the real thing or just a fling? And if they're sure, didn't they afraid to tell the world? Do they fell anxious about their family and friends judgement? The question list still goes on.
I have a few friends that love the same gender and I asked how they feel? How to do the relationship?
"It's the same as you.", they said.
The love is the same, it's similar feelings when we as "normal" person loves someone. It just looks different because they love the same gender; not align with the "standard" norms. Let alone with religion.
There's no way this country will support them. It's a good things if they're happy, but still they have a lot to fight. Family, friends, and also society...
Same goes with "different religions relationship", most family will against this. Didn't even think about their children happiness, they would say it a sin and you can't get married. Then it will leads to another case; they will try to get pregnant before marriage so they get blessings. Or, they won't get married at all. Just living together, far from their family. Cut the ties to get their own happiness, them against the world.
It will become more complex from this. But it's not a bad thing to prepare ourselves. Who knows what lay ahead, maybe it's us who should understand and support for their happiness without dictating them how to live based on our standard.
Isn't the "Standard" and "normal" one should be being a human and just be kind?
I know that sometimes my wish sounds silly and it will be hard to get. It didn't need any validation from anyone, nor words to discourage me. I dream to keep me enjoy my routine daily life, because sometimes my shoulders feels too heavy to the point that it could sinking me down.
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yoyoyo. welcoming another year of me getting older and closer to death. It doesnāt meant to be dark, itās reality. While we get older, we also walk closer to death. But we donāt know how long we can walkĀ ātil there. maybe years or faster.
As always, many things happened and I donāt make time to update.
well well well. Talking about thatĀ āmany thingsā. Itās actually what I always said in my prayer. A big example is getting married.
Selama ini kan banyak yg nanyaĀ ākapan nikah? udah umurnya jg.ā dan berbagai macam bentuk pertanyaan lainnya yg merujuk ke nikah. Dari saat gw masih jomblo sampe akhirnya punya pacar lagi. Padahal pas lg sendiri pun, gw udah meneguhkan diri untuk tidak menikah. Sampe udah ngomong ke nyokap gimana kalo misalkan gw ga nikah, ya ujungnya diomelin sih bukannya diijinin. Tapi yaa di lain sisi, di saat ditanya soal nikah gw selalu jawabĀ āya sebelum umur 30 lah pokoknyaā Saking gw udah males nyari lagi ya, apalagi udah 1.5 taun lebih jg belum ada yg nyantol. Ehh, bener dong ucapan yg selalu gw ulang2 itu jadi kenyataan. Gw bener2 nikah dipenghujung umur 29. desembernya umur 30, bulan novembernya gw kewong.
Contoh lainnya jg gw selalu bilang kalo udah nikah maunya pisah rumah, ga serumah sama mertua ataupun orang tua sendiri. Gapapa rumahnya deketan asalkan gak satu rumah. Itupun jadi kenyataan, kebetulan udah ada rumah untuk ditempatin dan di depan rumah mertua pisan. Emang kalo doa harus selengkap2nya kali ya. Hahahah
Terus kaya gw pengen bgt belajar ngerjain import selagi kerja di daikin, gw udah bawel minta pindah posisi ke import. Akhirnya gw dapet deh ngerjain import di kantor yang sekarang dan ini masuknya double job, bukan kerjaan utama. Sekali lagi, kalo doa yang lengkap gaes. Masi banyak lah ucapan2 lainnya yang jadi kenyataan, tapi ya minor lah yaa.Ā
Ucapan yang sering gw ulang2 sekarang adalah soal tinggal di luar negeri. Gw mao tinggal di luar negeri, di swiss atau new zealand. Punya kebun dan peternakan di sana. Tapi gw juga pengen coba tingggal di Jepang, yaa 5 tahun lah gitu di Jepang. Atau lama juga gapapa, buka restoran Indonesia di sana. Aamiin aamiinnn, semoga kesampean semua yang dicitakan. Nyokap jg udah doain jg biar gw bisa tinggal di luar negeri dan biasanya doa mamak itu ampuh ges. Ngarep dan berdoa dulu ajaa, ngerjainnya sambil jalan. Semoga semoga semoggaaaaa.
Dah gitu aja, dahh neekkk... Kapan2 apdet lagi kalo pengen

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Toxic Behaviors
Undoubtedly everyone has their own toxic behaviors. Of course thereās also mine. It leaves me regret many things as I recall the memory. But whatās done canāt be undone. Consciously or not, I knew that Iāve hurt some people.Ā
As I remember, Iāve abuse someone with silent treatment and so do they. Iāve received this kind of treatment as well. It hurts me and I believe it also hurts them even just a ālil bit. I admit that itās one of my toxic habit and i'm done with this shit.
One of my top bad habits is that I sometimes canāt controls my mouth. I donāt sugarcoat things and it sometimes turns to badmouthing someone.
Well, Iāve received some kind of bully/harassment as well regarding my body. As the time goes by, I choose to didnāt care about it. Thereās a time that Iāve become so insecure back then and now I donāt really care about it. But it also backfires me,I can talk so bluntly to someone without holding back and maybe some of them is very offended. Itās just because I donāt really care so much about it anymore and I think everyone will feel the same way.
Iāve started to improve myself to drop my bad habit one by one. Try to speak up when thereās something that makes me uncomfortable. Try to communicate about how I feel and resolve anything that isnāt clear. Also how to embrace myself more, so I wonāt feel insecure for aĀ ālil things.Ā
Now I need to hold my bad words more. I have to think more before I speak, I mostly speaksĀ spontaneously. Well sometimes it gives a good credits, but Iām gonna improve myself more.Ā
Didnāt have to change and being yourself is absolutely comforting. But you have to remember that you canāt controls someone to always understand and acts the way you want to makes you feel good, youāll still get hurts by others.
I think that becoming our better self, make peace and dealing with ourselves brings better sight and things to you. A person will always have to improve their-self isnāt it?Ā Ā
Iām in love with the shades of you
This is not about someone, itās about color.Ā
Lately Iāve noticed that my favorite color is changed since a few years ago. I confident that my fave color is red since iām still middle schooler and it goes on maybe until iām on early employment stage. I even have red converse shoes, the red chili one. Itās being used until college time while itās half torn up.Ā
Didnāt realize that my fave color gradually changes from a brave, bright, strong, pop up color to a calm, cool, deep shades. My preferences mostly shift to darker color. Grey, blue, black is the most dominant on my closet; still thereās some sparks from theĀ āweirdā clothes. The glittery purple, the colored mosaic t-shirt, flowery Hawaiian shirt and so on.Ā
Somehow the color palette also describe myself; iām not as bubbly as before. I like to spend time with myself more or with my fave people and feel more tired when I have to spend times with a big crowd. Still sometimes Iād like to have a big crowd energy; group travel and live music would be nice.Ā
Sadly this world still in poor condition; our move is limited. Hope this will get better soon.