Welcome to my mind...

“I love that dress on you babe,” Harry said to his girlfriend as he tried to help her pick something out to wear for a banquet.

“No,” she looked in the mirror, judging her every flaw.

Harry just sat there watching her face. Wondering how someone so beautiful could not find the beauty she had in all these dresses she was trying on.

“Arg,” she said lightly as she walked back into the dressing room.

“Love, you have tried on at least 30 dresses and have looked lovely in every single one of them, what’s wrong?” he asked looking at the curtain she had just walked through.

“Nothing, it just has to be perfect,” she called back out to him. “I have to be perfect,” she said to herself to where Harry couldn’t hear her. After she stepped out of her dress she stared at her almost naked body. She jumped up and down slightly watching as everything on her jiggled. Her hands soon found their way to her stomach pinching at her excess.

“Do you need help in there?” she heard Harry’s calm voice call.

“No I’m almost done,” she closed her eyes as she whipped away a small tear.

“I can’t wait,” Harry smiled from his seat with no idea what his girlfriend was going threw with the demons in her mind.

She came out looking defeated as Harry sat back in his chair stunned. He looked at how perfectly the dress hugged her curves that he loved so much, where as she saw how the dress showed odd her fat hips and thighs. Her face showed her disgust which got Harry’s attention.

“Baby what’s wrong?” Harry got up and stood behind her his arms wrapping around her waist.

“Everything looks awful,” she put her head down.

“Hey hey hey, everything has looked amazing just as you look beautiful right not,” he turned her around to face him.

“Why do you like this?” she asked still looking at her feet.

“Because you are wearing it, plus it shows off how gorgeous you are and how amazingly it shows off your curves,” he said and she backed away from him shaking her head at his mistake he was unaware he made.

“What?” he asked following her.

“My curves?” she almost yelled. Thankfully the store was mostly cleaned out of people.

“What is wrong with your curves?” Harry asked looking into her eyes while placing his hands on her hips, but she pushed them off.

“Everything!!” she exclaimed. “Harry everyday you are surrounded by girls with flat stomach’s and thin legs with no hips at all. You are surrounded by beautiful girls who are throwing themselves at you and then you come home to me and the blob that I am,” tears started to come to her eyes. “I mean why are you even with me when you could be with any and every other girl in this world,” her tears fell as she leaned against the wall. Harry stood in place shocked at how she was feeling, here he was admiring her beauty where she was picking apart everything about herself.

Outfit

"How do I look?" Emily asked walking out onto the patio getting the attention of all six boys still out there.

"Wow," Tony looked her over head to toe. "Um excuse me miss but my friend just went in there to change, did you happen to see her while you were looking extremely hot?" Tony questioned looking up into her blue eyes making her laugh.

"Seriously how do I look?" she smiled.

"Amazing, but whats up with the shoes?" he asked moving his fork towards the ground.

"What they are comfy. Besides do you really think I'm going to speed walk it in these?" she held up the heels from her bag.

"Why not it would be hot," he raised his eyebrows.

"Oh please lets see you try it and you're just mad that I look hotter than you do in Toms," she stated sticking out her tongue as she pushed up the sleeves on her pink cardigan.

"Why are you so dressed up?" Tony asked looking her over one more time.

"The main Chairman is in town and Mr. Douche Bag wants a stupid promotion so we have to do this," she waved her hand up and down at her outfit. "Or we are fired because he's a douche," she put her hand on her waist.

"So why exactly do you have a complete outfit in your purse?" Tony asked.

"Oh I had to pick it up this morning from the tailors, turns out our leading lady lost a few pounds and you can't have a lawyer in non tailored cloths now can you. Plus I just got these shoes today arn't they cute?" She held them in his face.

"Adorkable, so pretty much you are Michaels bitch who's addicted to shoes," he looked up at her squinted eyes.

"I'm his assistant you twat, but yes I am addicted to shoes. But I will see you later I have to go," she started towards the office when his eyes went wide.

"Question," he called out standing up stopping her in her tracks. 

"You're a dork," she turned around to him.

"Ha ha ha, not my question. Are you going to need your car?" he smiled as sweetly as he could, which only made her raise one eyebrow and walk closer to him.

"Why?" she asked stopping a few feet away from him.

"Because I have an audition in east L.A.," he smiled some more.

"You have a car," she crossed her arms over her chest.

"I have no gas, please...." he complained giving her the puppy dog eyes.

"Dude what makes you think I do, we are both poor," she circled her hand at the both of them. "Why do you think I'm always at your house? It's cause you have the food," her hands fell to her hips as she popped a sassy stance.

"No you are always at my house because you can't cook," he retorted.

"Excuse me I can cook..." she started.

"Cereal doesn't count," Tony interrupted.

"I can cook," Emily pointed at him. "I just never have time," she shrugged her shoulders.

"Lazy," he sang and she punched him in the shoulder. "Oww..." he laughed holding his shoulder. "Please..." he begged some more.

"Fine on one condition it has to be in the parking lot at home by 6:30," Emily said while digging through her purse for her keys.

"Yes, why 6:30?" Tony asked waiting with his hands out.

"That's when Hope gets home from school and I want to make sure she has it in case she needs it," she fished around in her purse. "Son of a jeezees," she almost screamed shacking her bag listening.

"You need a smaller purse," he laughed while putting his apron back on.

"Bite me, oo oo I got them..kinda," Emily felt them all the way at the bottom under her clothes. "Here," she finally got them. "I love you but I swear to goodness if there is even a scratch on her I will kill you," Emily said as they both held on to the keys. "By the way this is not because of your puppy dog face shit," Emily did a circle with her hand over his face. "It's cause I'm running late and your an ass," she smiled at him.

"Right and don't worry your baby will be fine," he laughed ripping them from Emily's hands.

"She better be or it's your ass," Emily pointed at him before they exchanged kisses on the cheek and a quick hug.

"Ok now kick that ass into high gear and get to work," Tony said slapping her on the butt.

"Bitch," she jumped  as she walked away.

"By the way how fast does your car go from zero to sixty?" Tony called after her.

"Here we go," Tony inturupted the awkward non verbal interaction.

"Um, thanks," Emily looked down at the plate in the middle of the table as Tony took his seat across from her.

"It's our favorite dig in," he smiled at her grabbing his fork.

"Don't have to tell me twice," she smiled grabbing hers as well taking a bite.

"So are you coming over tonight?" Tony asked covering his full mouth with his hand.

"Probably, but we have to be quiet Hope has a hugh test this week, so she has to study," Emily said wiping her mouth. neither of them noticing the looks the corner table was giving them or the ease dropping that was going on. 

"What? School just started back up," He asked in shock setting down his fork.

"I know her teacher is a jerk," Emily said taking a drink of his water.

"Sounds like it," he took another bite. "When do you have to be at work?" He asked as he chewed.

"Swallow then talk," Emily laughed. "I don't have to be there till 5," She said leaning back in her seat enjoying the first day off she's had in a while, even when she was on her vacation back home she was working on the phone and computer most of the day for a combination of her two jobs. 

"So what..." he held up his finger as he finished chewing and swollowed.

"Thank you," she laughed taking a small bite.

"What are you doing out here right now?" he asked after smiling at her.

"Enjoying the weather, plus I wanted to go shopping and actually enjoy this town. Do you know I've been here for almost 3 years and I still haven't seen like half of this city," she exclaimed before taking another drink.

"How did you figure that out? Did you get lost again?" he asked trying to hold in his laughter.

"Nooo, okay maybe, and don't say again like it happens so freaking often. It has happened once and that was in the first week of me moving here. Get over it," she looked at him sternly pointing her fork at him.

"Okay okay I serender," he laughed holding up his hands.

"Good cause I would kick your butt," She smiled before taking another bite.

"I would love to see you try," he challanged her smiling as she raised her eyebrows. 

"Is that a challange?" Emily asked resting her head on her hands leaning forward.

"Any time any where baby," Tony leaned over as well.

"Challange accept..." Emily's phone began to ring. "Saved by the bell," she pointed at Tony as she reached down and grabbed her phone. 

"Hello?" Emily asked into her phone.

"Emily?" the girl on the other line asked jumping up and down to herself in the middle of the lounge of Columbia records.

"Oh hey Jaz whats up?" Emily sat back in her seat as Tony continued to scarf down the food.

"Well I was wondering if you could cover me for a little while this afternoon like now?" Jasmine asked biting her lip.

"Um.. possibly but I have to be out of there by 4:45 at the latest. Why what's going on?" Emily asked getting worried about her co-worker and getting the attention of at least two boys.

"Well Jake is back in town," Jasmine smiled.

"Seal Jake?" Emily asked about the boy she had been hearing non-stop about since she started working there.

"Yea," Jasmine smiled. "He got into town today to suprise me but he didn't know I had to work and he's been gone for almost a year.." Jasmine went on but Emily stopped her.

"Okay okay, I get it. Your boyfriend is back you have to rekindle your love. I do not need to hear the rest," Emily waved her free hand around covering her face.

"So you'll do it?" Jasmine bounced in her chair some more.

"Yea I'm about 10 minutes away can you last that long?" Emily asked grabbing her purse off the concrete.

"Yes," Jasmine almost shouted.

"Good bye," Emily hung up before the blonde could respond.

"Whats going on?" Tony asked wiping off his mouth.

"Oh the Navy Seal is back in town and apperently he is a little blue," Emily got up.

"What?" Tony questioned.

"Think about it. I need to use the bathroom," Emily said before turning on her heels and heading into the building to change her clothes. 

She walked along the road to the beat of the music blasting from her headphones, not a care in the world as she goes threw Los Angeles the warm weather feeling great on her skin compared to the Kansas weather she experienced just a few weeks earlier. She was so lost in her own world that she didn't notice any of the sounds or people around her. 

"Emily," Tony called from inside the wroght iron fence enclosing the restraunt from the sidewalk. He watched the young girl bob her head as she passed the first section of the short fence.

"Emily," he called a little louder trying not to get in trouble with his boss or the people eating around him.

"Emily," he said running out the gate quickly grabbing her on the shoulder to get her attention. She quickly turned around about to smack someone before she realized it was Tony.

"Hey," she pulled on the ear buds wrapping them around her iPod putting it in her purse.

"You need to turn that down next time," he grabbed her hand pulling her into the patio space and sitting her down at one of the tables.

"Okay," she laughed, "What am I doing here?" she asked relaxing in her seat plopping her purse down on the floor.

"I'll be right back," he said before walking away.

"Yea 'cause that answers my question," she laughed looking around at the other tables which were mostly empty except for 3 of them, which made sense for it being 1:30 on a Monday afternoon.

"Hey Emily," one of the waitress' said as she walked past her with an empty tray in her hand.

"Hey Julia," Emily smiled up at the red head. Julia leaded down and Emily leaned up just the slightest to embrace in a short hug. 

"What are you doing here?" Julia asked putting the tray under her arm and tucking the notepad in her apron.

"I wish I could tell you, but Tony just pulled me in here and walked off," Emily looked up at the shortish girl.

"Oh it must be around his lunch break and gossip time apparently," she laughed.

"Great whats going down now?" Emily asked scarred of the answer that could come up.

"I have no idea, no one trusts me with gossip," they shared a laugh knowing good and well that it was because she had the biggest mouth ever. 

"Well i better get back to my tables, see you later," Julia said as she started to walk away.

"See ya," Emily said loud enough for Julia to hear it as she walked away.

Alone again Emily started nodding her head to the tone she was remembering from earlier, tapping her fingers on the table to the beat. She looked up at the people walking down the street, most of them on their cell phones talking loudly and not enjoying the beautiful weather, which bugged her to the core. Emily always believed in living in the moment and enjoying the little things and after two weeks in a Kansas winter she was very thankful for the sun shining down on her face. 

Mistakes-Harry Audio Read (part 3 of 3)

Part 1

Part 2

Harry sat in the middle of his and his friend Louis' flat twirling around a locket he bought the day after he found out that Sarah was expecting. After the run in with Sarah, Zayn had tried to cheer him up but without success. All he could think about was the life he had pictured with Sarah and their baby . He couldn't help but picture the baby they had created. It would be a girl, no doubt. With curly chocolate hair much like his own, but with Sarah's baby blues that one day some unprepared boy would fall in love with. He had all these dreams of what she would grow up to be and when she left from a visit with her parents, Sarah and him would smile at each other with pride remembering the days when they could hold their daughter in their hands and how fragile and innocent she was.

"Harry," Louis busted through the doors, but Harry stayed in his own thoughts as he pictured walking his daughter down the aisle tears threatening to fall from his eyes as he lifted her vail and gave her a kiss on her cheek and she would smile to him looking like a spitting image of her mother with the same gorgeous smile. 

"Harry," Louis called again standing in front of the dazed out Harry lost in his own misery. "Oh for god's sake Harry," Louis said again clapping his hands as close to his friends face without slapping him.

"Leave me alone," Harry looked up at the boy in front of him and the older boy noticed the light shimmering against the Harry's tear stained face.

"Harry, Sarah's pregnant," Louis took a seat next to him putting his hand on Harry's shoulder.

"No she's not," Harry sniffled. "The test lied," Harry stared at the ground.

"No Sarah lied," Louis said making Harry jerk his head to look at him.

"What are you talking about?"  Harry's shaky voice asked.

"She met up with Hope and they talked about it, they didn't know I was listening in, but she is pregnant Harry," Louis looked at his lost friend.

"Why would she lie to me?" Harry asked and Louis gave him a knowing look. Harry got up and ran to his room picking up his phone from where he had thrown it when he got home to escape his worried friends.

"Pick up the phone," Harry said on his third try calling Sarah.

"Clear out your God damn answering machine!" Harry exclaimed as it told him he couldn't leave a voice mail. 

"God damn-it Sarah," he threw the phone on his bed as he started to pace.

"I might have a way to talk to her," Louis said looking in from the doorway.

"How?" Harry asked anxious he wasn't even mad at her he just wanted to talk to her.

"She said she worked at a bakery," Louis said.

"Thanks," Harry ran past him and out the front door.

Thirty minutes later Harry stood outside the bakery that he met Sarah in, a year later here he was standing outside looking through the window at her talking to customers smiling as they came and went.  He stood there for a few more minutes before sticking his hands in his pockets and walking away. He figured there was a reason for Sarah to keep her distance, and he didn't want to make her upset. 

*Two weeks later*

"Ice cream, Ice cream. Holy hell I need ice cream," Hope said as she looked at the many different kinds. Giving up she grabbed multiple different kinds making sure she got Sarah's favorite, many many tubes of it. Ever since the doctors appointment Sarah has been breaking down.

"Hope?" Zayn said looking her up and down as the five boys approached her.

"What?" she snapped, okay so Sarah wasn't the only one who was breaking down.

"What's going on?" Louis asked since they all had gotten close with Sarah and Harry dating.

"Sorry, nothing," she said putting her head in her hands pushing back her messy hair.

"What's wrong?" Harry asked looking in the cart filled with ice cream containers, now he knew the girls loved their ice cream and sweets but why would they need that much unless something was depressing them.

"Shit," Hope said shaking her head before looking at Harry. "I'm only telling you this because you were the father, but Sarah had an appointment last week and..." Hope got sort of choked up. "She," Hope tried to go one but tears came to her eyes.

"No..." Harry said as some of them stood there somewhat confused and Zayn went over to comfort Hope.

"What?" Louis asked.

"She lost the baby?" Harry asked in a soft voice, he was just told that he really was having a kid and now it was being ripped away from him again.

All Hope could do was nod her head before she barred it into Zayn's shoulder as he rubbed her back.

"Harry," she said after a little bit.

"What?" he asked trying to hold back tears himself.

"She really needs you no matter how much she deny's it," Hope said looking up at him and before anyone could say or do anything else Harry was running out of the store and towards the girls apartment.

"Go away," Sarah screamed from the couch that she hasn't left in the past few days unless to use the bathroom, but the person kept knocking.

"What the hell?" she screamed again getting up from her seat.

"Go away!" she said as she opened the door to see Harry standing there out of breath with tear marks down his face.

"I'm not leaving Sarah, not this time, never again," Harry said stepping towards her.

Mistakes-Harry Audio Read (Part 2 of 3)

Part 1

"No," Sarah looked at her friend felling bad about the situation.

"How could you not tell him? I mean he is the father," Hope tried to reason with her.

"I know, but its not like he wants to be," Sarah placed a hand over her growing stomach.

"He would make a good Dad," Hope tried to catch Sarah's eyes.

"He'd be brilliant," Sarah said, just loud enough for Hope to hear, as she closed her eyes. "But it doesn't matter, he left her, he left me," Sarah shook tears from her eyes.

"But Sarah.."

"No you weren't there when I told him, he looked sad and disappointed, like I had sucked the life from him. I don't want him in her life if he thinks she is a mistake. I know what that's like I'm not having her go through what I did," Sarah looked up a tear falling down her cheek.

"I know, and you know I will support you no matter what you choose to do, but we need to make sure it is the right decision," Hope reached out placing her hand softly on Sarah's arm.

"I know, you just want whats right for her, but I'm not sure he is in that equation," Sarah looked down again.

"Hey with the two of us, who the hell need Styles?" Hope questioned trying to cheer up her friend. Images of college flowing through their heads making them smile.

"She's in great hands," Sarah laughed looking up and Hope nodded her head.

"When is your next doctors appointment?" Hope asked taking another drink of her almost empty cup.

"Next Wednesday, he wants to do another ultrasound to make sure about the gender since it is so hard to find out right now, but she's a girl I know it," Sarah smiled looking down at the little bump under her shirt.

"Well I'll be in class, but I want copies," Hope smiled pointing a threatening finger at Sarah.

"Speaking of class, shouldn't you be in one?" Sarah asked looking at the clock hanging on the wall.

"You were in distress," Hope shrugged her shoulders.

"I'm in between hugging you for being there for me and slapping you for skipping class," she laughed before taking the last drink left.

"Your motherly side is starting to show up," Hope laughed.

"Oh shut it," Sarah laughed grabbing her purse off the ground next to her. "Now lets get you back to class, we need at least one degree for Darcy to look up to seeing as her Mom is a drop out," Sarah laughed

"Hey you are still a great role model, Love. You quit so you could afford to raise her, you are giving up everything for her and she will realize it," Hope looked at her friend sympathetically.

"I hope so," Sarah said as she organized their cups and wiped off the table.

"So, you are still going with Darcy?" Hope asked knowing that it was Harry's choice to name his first daughter Darcy.

"Yea, it will be the open thing her father gave to her besides being the sperm donor," Sarah tried to make a joke out of it to fend off her hurt.

"It's a nice name," Hope said grabbing her bag as well.

"It is," Sarah smiled."Now lets get you back to class then I have to go to work," Sarah said standing up adjusting her shirt.

"You're still working? But you're pregnant," Hope said as she stood as well throwing her bag over her shoulder.

"Only four months," Sarah laughed at her friend. "I will still work until I can't," Sarah shook her head as she walked the glasses to the back counter.

"Can you imagine walking around in the bakery with your big belly," Hope laughed.

"I don't even want to think about it," Sarah laughed as well. "I will make a major mess everyday," they laughed some more.

"You mean like you do everyday?" Hope asked laughing as they started for the door.

"Shut it," Sarah laughed as they looped arms  and started walking back towards the campus, only to be watched by the young man sitting was listening in on their whole conversation very intrigued with the topic of conversation.

Mistakes-Harry Audio Read (Part 1 of 3)

"Sarah?" Harry said taking off his sunglasses as he walked down the street as he ran into a familiar face. Her eyes growing wide at the sound of his voice.

"Harry?" she asked turning around from the shop window she was looking in, only too look up at the beautiful green eyes she was once in love with. 

"Yea," He laughed to himself scratching the back of his neck as she looked between him and the boy standing next to him, Zayn. "How are you?" He looked deeply into her blue eyes that he had been missing terribly.

"Great," she crossed her arms coldly looking at him trying her hardest not to rush to him giving him a hug. 

"And how have things been with the..." Harry gestured to her stomach making her raise an eyebrow at him and made Zayn look around uncomfortably.

"Nothing to worry about, turns out it was a false positive," She said to him rolling her shoulders.

"What?" He asked, as Zayn looked over at him.

"I'm not pregnant turns out you quit  things for nothing," she stayed in her defensive pose.

"Oh," Harry looked defeated.

"Don't sound so bothered, you didn't care about her anyways remember? You left us," she narrowed her eyes at him studying his face.

"Sarah.." Harry said stepping towards her.

"No, you had your chance and you blew it," she pointed at him before turning and storming off.

"I'm sorry mate," Zayn patted his friend on the shoulder.

"I just thought..." Harry said unable to finish his sentence, a minute ago he thought he was going to be a father in a few short months. He was planning on trying to make it up to his love for walking out on her. 

"Please pick up," Sarah said into her phone as she rounded the corner to where Harry and Zayn couldn't see her.

"Ello?" The thick Irish voice on the other end said.

"Hope?" Sarah asked sending a silent thank you into the universe.

"Whats wrong?" Hope asked hearing her friends distress through her voice.

"Can we meet up?" Sarah asked as she continued to walk aimlessly around London.

"Of course where?" Hope stuffed her belongings into her bag and started walking herself.

"The normal place?" she suggested as she started heading in that direction.

"Sounds good I'll be there in a minute," Hope rushed down the stairs and out the door.

"See you soon," they hung up both headed towards their meeting place.

The bell chimed as Sarah walked through the doors of the coffee shop. She stood at the door for a moment looking for her best friend finally finding her sitting by the window. They met each other in uni both going to Chelsea College of Art and Design, and have been friends ever since the roomed together.

"Hey," Hope said as she noticed her friend looking upset.

"Hello," Sarah said as she walked over to the table them sharing a hug before them both taking their places. The place was fairly crowded, the girls in the only quiet corner with only a guy at the table behind Sarah.

"What is going on?" Hope asked a worried look forming on her face. Sarah looked around before leaning forward to speak.

"I ran into Harry today," she said in a low voice just above a whisper.

"Harry, as in Harry Styles?" Hope asked loudly getting a look from Sarah and they both looked around to see if anyone noticed the celebrities name being mentioned, thankfully the answer was no.

"Yes Harry St..."

"Here's your hot chocholates," a waitress said setting the two cups onto the table.

"Thank you," the girls smiled and watched as she walked away until she was out of hearing range.

"Yes Harry Styles, what other Harry do we know in real life?" Sarah asked looking at her friend.

"Hey, I was this close to meeting Prince Harry," Hope held up her thumb and index finger putting them an inch apart.

"Where in your dreams?" Sarah laughed picking up her cup letting it warm up her hands before taking a sip.

"No, well yes, but also literally," she nodded her head.

"Where was I?" Sarah put down the cup spilling a slight bit on the table.

"You where in America to visit Harry when he was in California," Hope answered which only made Sarah advert her focus to cleaning up her mess. "Speaking of the boy who broke your heart, what happened today?" Hope asked before bringing her cup to her lips.

"We..talked," Sarah looked out the window.

"Did you talk about the baby?" She asked trying to read her friends face as Sarah looked down at her drink.

"I told him that there was a mistake, that I'm not pregnant," Sarah nervously looked up at her friend.

"You told him what?" Hope said in a harsh whisper, as to not draw attention to them. "You mean he doesn't know you are pregnant?" she staired at her friend in disbelif as Sarah looked at Hope with guilt written on her face.