MyCornerOfHappy

I saw C again last week on Thursday, but been busy all weekend being social (which is a change for me), so I’m sharing today. It is also post number 100! Which I will do a little dance for. I’ve been on and off writing things, but slowly finding my flow again and might start doing the 10 or Thursdays again. Exciting times! Back to the Therapy. I never realised just how impactful Therapy would…

Fresh in my mind as session number 4 was yesterday evening. We were aiming to do some art stuff to help find my inner creative, and instead I had a rant about the stress and pressure I felt I was under. Which became the priority given just-finished-crying face, and bags under my eyes from lack of sleep. This week should have been good…I got offered a job and accepted it. Yay! Except my brain…

So, ahead of my therapy session tomorrow I decided to indulge in some art. I know I’m not the best, I could never have it as a career or sell it. That’s fine. I’ve decided to use it as a therapy tool, to create things I was always told I was rubbish at. Following my last therapy session I talked about how my love of doing art died after a teacher told me my art was rubbish, to my face, and in…

(Last Friday) This one was interesting as we delved into me a little bit more and what I want. I talked for a while about how I grew up and how I felt isolated from my sisters and now felt I had no relationship with them apart from a surface level. It was hard but I was forever at loggerheads with my Mother that I only remember brief moments of good times with my sisters, and all the rest are…

This one felt so much more relaxed. I knew that this was time I was setting aside for me, to talk about my things, to have a therapist ‘C’ guide me into finding things about myself, uncover my memories I’ve boxed away in a dark corner of my mind, and help me heal whatever trauma is making me feel certain ways. Last week I talked about my family and how I felt alone, and like a black sheep. This…

It’s been a while since I wrote on here, but I’ve been busy with my travelling and the travel blog for the most part. AND, key here, I’ve not had much to worry or be anxious about while travelling so my mental health has been stable. A few wobbles here and there, mostly fear of unknown, but otherwise good. I have, however, decided to start therapy. I promised myself that when I got home from…

I genuinely feel it in my soul. I disappeared into travelling with my partner from May 2023 to January 2024. We had an amazing time, and it still feels so surreal to have been out and to have seen the world. It still doesn’t feel real to me at all…despite the picture evidence. Yet, at the same time, it also feels so long ago that I went. I’ve only been back for 5 weeks and the adventure feels…

I know I haven’t been as frequent as what I used to be. I’m pretty sure I wrote more in 2021 than I did in 2022, and even less in 2023. So, here’s the deal. I’ve been busy planning, researching, and booking my dream life goal which is travelling. It is something I’ve wanted to do since I was 21, and finally at 31 I have earned enough in my savings to take a full year off work to travel the…

Will I ever be good enough, is a question I have been asking myself a lot lately. I’ve had a series of events that has caused me to spiral into a negative mood and struggle with my sense of worth. I have always struggled with my purpose, with who I am, with whether or not I am a good person, with whether I am deserving of anything I have in my life. This feeling has always been there…I have…

As per the title, I need to vent about something that has been annoying me for 3 weeks now. My partner has told me I shouldn’t let it bother me so much but it does. I feel cheated, and like a fool, so I’m bound to feel annoyed. I know sometimes with my mental health, things can be blown out of proportion, or I end up focusing on little things, or I get annoyed with things that shouldn’t even…

…I’m loving life. Honesty, I’m doing well. I was very stressed, anxious and depressed in my last post but it has been a week, and I am good. Since my last post, I have put in a sick note/sick leave for a month and I am enjoying the feeling of not having to get up for work at the moment. However, don’t think I’m sat around doing nothing. I spent my initial week off sick (self-certified) doing not…

I’m done. I am sooo done. I’m writing this 3 days after I’ve phoned in sick for 7 days. I’ve self-certified off work sick for 7 days. I’m done. I have never in my life been more angry, frustrated and disappointed in a workplace in my whole life. I have had crappy jobs, and jobs I wish I’d never applied for, but despite those, I’ve never had a job where I’ve phoned in a 7-day self certification…

New Year, New Me. New Year, Fresh Start. New Years Resolutions. This year I will…I’m going to give up…I’m going to start…Make this year, your year. ETC. Been there, done that, and it repeats every year. We have heard them all before and they never seem to last very long…you know you don’t keep those resolutions! So, this year, lets do something different. Let’s stop pressuring ourselves to do…

Ten for Thursday #33

I haven’t done one of these for 11 months. Last one was January, wow. I’ve just not had any ideas for a long time, since I went back to my old job actually so I guess I’m overworked/stressed in it. Anyhow, I’ve been struggling with my mental health again. This week, I’ve actually had time off work as annual leave and so I’ve actually had time to reconnect with myself and do some…

Such a strong word. Definitive. Conclusive. I need to write about this word today because I am both deeply hurt and shocked. Furthermore it has stirred up some deep insecurities and self-esteem issues I have been working hard to squash. Everything I’ve worked hard to overcome ruined with a single word. Late last night/early this morning, I was informed I am hated by my colleagues at work. Not…