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Hi! I don't have a name yet, still deciding. I am autistic and speak odd sometimes, and also am a system, we don't really differentiate ourselves publicly because it makes us anxious. Bodily/chrono adult. Any pronouns. Severe chronic pain which melts my brain frequently. Polyamorous relationship anarchist.
My favorite animal is the red siphonophore (Marrus claudanielis)! I love eating a ton and being fat, weed and psychedelics, stained or colored glass, leather, and ceramic sculptures. My dream is to become a body modification artist specializing in species affirming and transhumanist mods, I'm currently working in operating rooms assisting surgeons and I will eventually do a piercing apprenticeship to accomplish this. Right now the only mods I've done (stick and pokes, scarification, play piercings) have been on myself to build my skills.
Types (in no particular order):
siphonophore, canine (coyote maybe?), domestic cat, chipmunk, spotted hyena, tiger, early homo sapiens or hominin cladotherian, some kind of insect (scolipede?)
Interests:
- biology, zoology, paleontology, archaeology
- therianthropy, alterhumanity, transhumanism, species transition
- body modification especially piercings, tattoos, subdermal implants, plastic surgery that doesn't reinforce societal norms, and nontraditional or unique body mods
- kinks and fetishes of all varieties including ones I'm not into personally
I block: blank blogs that interact with me, twerfs, exclusionists, zionists, capitalists, pro censorship, people who weaponize their disgust against others, mens rights activists/reverse racism believers/etc, most christians, if I am on your dni and you interact with me*
opinions under cut :D
* TLDR: you probably won't like me if you don't like pro-para, pro-endo, pro-transID and radqueer-adjacent people
I am a moral, religious, existential, and cosmological nihilist.
I am an intersectional transfeminist and I am inclusive of all sexualities and genders, including kinks, fetishes, transID, paraphilias, etc. I don't believe anyone is above criticism for ideas they believe that are reflected in how they choose to label themselves or in their sexual/etc practices, however.
I support systems + nonhumans of all origins and I am against psychiatry and its labels and treatments. I support anyone who chooses to label themselves psychiatrically in order to explain their lives or the way they interact with society, but I believe it causes harm to the way they see themselves and others by defining "normal" thoughts and experiences opposed to others.
Humans are animals and they are not superior or inferior to other species, we all fill a niche; I am against the idea that humans should go extinct but I believe climate change must be stopped, including if it reduces quality/standards of life for those in the imperial core. I believe all animals should have their wants and feelings heard and be allowed to make their own decisions unless they cause significant undue harm to others. I am not opposed to eating meat or animal products and I think universal opposition to such is unethical, but I think factory farming is generally evil.
I believe children are an oppressed group that deserve full rights and autonomy. I believe in an ideal world children should be raised communally and/or choose their parents when they are old enough to communicate so. I think the school system should be massively overhauled to emphasize children's choice and health while still providing them with the education needed to understand their world and choices. I do not think minors should be subject to laws regarding CSEM possession or creation, as this allows minors to be jailed or permanently marked as sex offenders for having relationships with their peers or possessing nude photos of themselves for themselves. I believe the minor/adult dichotomy is a false one that creates an oppressed underclass based on age and should be abolished. minors should have the right to bodily autonomy, medical care, work & housing, and freedom of movement.
I am in the medical field and highly critical of it, doctors/medical professionals, and medical research and treatments due to their goal of correcting people to a "normal" standard. I believe anyone should have access to whatever medications/surgeries/treatments they want to change how their bodies look, feel, and function, regardless of societal ideas of what is healthy or normal, using an informed consent model. I don't believe there exists a treatment to change what you experience sexual attraction to or what you see yourself as and I don't think anyone should be punished socially or medically for that. Changing opinions or body image is normal and I do not think surgeons/etc should be blamed for doing procedures that were consented to at the time that the patient later regretted.
I support everyone's right to create whatever art or fiction they want, and I support everyone's right to criticize and hate any art or fiction they want. I believe intentionally putting your art where someone can see it allows them to criticize it just as much as it allows them to praise it. I think there should be spaces where certain content is not allowed, such as sexual content or content depicting bigotry, but under a capitalist system this is almost never done ethically and therefore I do not support this type of censorship currently.
I am generally against prisons, police, and militaries for groups that are not actively defending themselves or liberating others. I only support imprisonment as a solution in very specific situations where the only solution is for the person to be removed from society, (such as a powerful political leader that uses their influence to make violence against the vulnerable occur and will not change), not ever as punishment. In these scenarios I still believe the prisoners should have normal living standards for the area and not be forced to do unfair labour. I don't believe police or prisons can be in any way useful or ethical in a capitalist world that sees humans as resources to be controlled.
I am against racism, imperialism, and ethnonationalism. Race is a social construct and not a trait concretely reflected in our biology, and whiteness is an absence of racialization.
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i am half blind. on my eighteenth birthday, a freak accident left me with a slashed retina, a temporary eye patch and a permanent loss of 86% of vision in my right eye. i don't talk about it much, and apart from the inability to drive a car, placing my notebook next to the desk instead of on it once in a while, and making me truly abysmal at beer pong, it has not impacted my life much.
except for the bittersweet fact that i can never show people how breathtakingly beautiful the world looks when you eyesight is fractured straight through the middle. i close what my opitician calls my good eye and the world explodes in colour, every pinprick source of light spreading out into iridescent flares into all directions culminating in bright circles at the edge of my vision. every star, every streetlight, multiplying into a tenfold symphony of colour and light.
it's so overwhelmingly beautiful. how can i ever explain this to people? that when they find out and look at me with pity they should be envious instead. what an immense privilege, to be able to look at the world and see it too.
Y'all understand that it is a patient's right to refuse treatment, yes? You understand that this extends to psychiatric treatment? That there is something deeply troubling about immediately dismissing a patient exercising their right to refusal as Symptoms™? It's very important to me that you understand this.
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phones love to go "do you want to clear up .3 GB by deleting these cherished pictures that you havent looked at in more than 30 days?" while also installing random apps and AI bullshit you didnt ask for. and you cant even uninstall half the apps
to those of you who need to hear this: there are absolutely surgeries that give you both a penis and vagina at the same time, they're called salmacian surgeries! look them up!
I told someone these existed and they told me that was exactly what they wanted, but they'd been afraid to look it up for fear of how devastating it would be to find out there's no such thing. well there is! which means we need to start handing out flyers and running ads
r/salmacian and r/altersex both have healed pics of healed surgery results, recommendations for surgeons, and other relevant documentation of different peoples' experiences for nullification, penis-preserving-vaginoplasty, vagina-preserving-phalloplasty, and different options for all of the above! for example, several users who have had phalloplasty opted not to bury their clits, so they have a penis with a clit beneath it, and a vagina beneath that
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I never really wanted to get into this on here but I want to talk about it now so nobody can stop me.
honestly one of the worst things is that I knew. a lot of people talk about not knowing they were trans until xyz event where they realized and went through whatever hardships and then transitioned. people talk about repression and discovery and all these things. and those are all powerful and important experiences I don't see myself as above them in any way. but I knew.
I was never an egg, I was never in denial. when I was 3 years old I dreamed I was a princess. I know this because my family retells it as a funny story. I tried to wear my sister's clothes regularly, I asked people why there wasn't a word for the reverse of a tomboy, I put on makeup, I used she/her pronouns online since I first learned to read and write.
I don't bring this up to do this "I've always been a woman deep down, so you should listen to me as super valid Mr psychologist gatekeeper". my point is that it didn't matter.
I knew, and it didn't matter. it wasn't an issue of having to figure out who I was and then realizing that. it's that who I am was intentionally killed and locked away at every turn. it's not that I didn't realize I was a girl, it's that I wasn't allowed to be one. I was hurt and punished and sent to conversion therapy repeatedly. I can't "go back in time and tell my younger self to save her years of struggle". it wouldn't matter. it wouldn't change anything at all. the issue wasn't a lack of information. it's a lack of power. kids and trans kids especially are subject to so much abuse and we have no power to do anything about it. it is such a great tragedy beyond words. knowing what you want to do and wear and say and be, that you want this name and these pronouns and that cute dress, and being powerless to do anything about it anyway. forced to wear clothes picked out for you by a guardian, only able to use pre-approved nicknames online. only allowed to engage in these specific hobbies and have these specific friends. all of whom treat you like garbage. but it doesn't matter. it doesn't even matter if you know it's unjust, there's no way to do anything about it. it is perhaps the most powerless position anyone can be in. there is no level of knowledge or personal strength that will get you out of it. you just have to shut off until enough time passes for the law to deem you as worthy of being a person.
I think that's a big part of why I'm like this now, once you see that powerlessness, when you experience the depths of hopelessness and disenfranchisement, you can never unsee it. it does something to you
it's easier to think that I did something wrong. that if I were smarter or stronger or cleverer I could've figured it out. and that when I did get out of that place, that it was due to my strength. but the reality is it wasn't. none of it was my fault, and that's almost harder to handle. there's no amount of trial or belief or hope or self knowledge that can magically warp the world to be kind to you. when I got away it's because I was a legal adult. that's it, that's all that changed. the only thing holding me back that entire time
“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”
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