I’ve always oscillated between tomboy and girly I wonder when my next return to tomboyishness will be

I now live just outside of a city 3x bigger than the one I moved from about 400,000 more people yet I still have not made a friend in real life since moving here almost 2 years ago . My loneliness weighs on me more than pretty much anything else in my life but the only sense of equal and deep connection I have felt with another human has been restricted to one person who lives far far away who I will only see very rarely in my future after large amounts of money are spent on traveling to see her so the likelihood of befriending someone in real life I can feel any sort of comfort with is about as likely as my face being torn off by a chimpanzee while I walk through my city

I want a fully poseable taxidermy so it can play with stuff in my room