Tw: talk about mental health/anxiety. Nsfw below the cut!

Ghost headcanons can be found here.

-> Despite the fact that I love soft König headcanons and think he has a very sensitive and soft side to him, I see him as a very ambivalent person, especially when you consider his background story. Just as every person, he has layers and different facets, but I believe he can tend to hide his more emotional open and vulnerable side behind a shell that mainly consists of a mix of his determination, competitiveness and even a dash of cockiness sometimes. It’s a matter of time and trust to see all of him. Especially if people meet him at work first!

-> That doesn’t meant he’s mean. In fact, I believe he has a deep urge to seek justice and would therefore not pick on someone for no reason. It’s just that he had to develope defense strategies over a while, and it's hard to let go of them. He knows the past is in the past but scars remain and it’s better to be save than sorry. If he seems untouchable in some sort of way it only means he lowers the risk of people getting at him again.

-> His behavior and mood can range from very loud, overt expression and humor, to being timid and quiet. He's an intense person in all ways but that makes him a very complex and interesting character to talk to. If he’s comfortable I think you can have pretty wide ranged and deep conversations with König. He does keep up a rather cool and collected image overall though; it's not even about him being insecure or shy, he just isn't too enthustiastic about opening up to just anyone.

-> Does find himself stuck in loops of drowning, negative or compulsive/intrusive thoughts and feelings. He suffers from a form of anxiety after all, so certain reactions and behaviors are caused by his fears/control issues. This form of hypernsensitivity and hyperawareness can tire him out a lot. Finds comfort in solo hobbies (especially working out since it’s balances out a lot of the mental and emotional pressure!).

-> Dreams of having his own secluded home somewhere in the country side one day. Wants to partially grow his own crops, wouldn't be opposed to owning a few farm animals either. Is quiet the tense person, because of his self protective nature. It shows in him being emotionally and physically exhausted, and he constantly searches for ways to balance these negative feelings out. He therefore really yearns for an environment where he can let his guard down completely. König is the type to go into hermit mode every two to three weeks.

-> An impulsive person! I think outside of the military he can actually struggle with impulse control from time to time. Has some random items at home he bought once only to find himself wondering why he thought spending money on it was a good idea in the first place.

-> Yes, he can do and say stuff that can come across as random or very out of the blue, but is still a very thoughtful person. Is the type of dude to keep thinking about the perfect weekend with his friends or keep tracks about the little things you mention and base birthday presents or date nights on those. Would be geniunely pretty disappointed in himself if he wouldn't manage to make the people he loves happy <'3

-> Is cautious of who he allows to gets really close and intimate with. And it’s not even all due to the fear that people might not understand his emotional complexity and fluidity, but rather he also doesn’t want to be friends with just anyone!!! König doesn’t hate people theoretically. But. In action. Well. There is a reason why he has a selective, close circle.

-> König has a very erratic mind and is very much in his head a lot of times. Really likes to draw. Off work can be found doodling while half heartedly watching a show, or listening to a podcast.

-> Either eats like a god or like a rat goblin. Off work he either cares enough to cook a two course meal with all sorts of greens and nutrients or it’s frozen food for a week straight. It’s like he’s got a moody appetite/diet.

-> Isn’t initially the type to think of size as important or add to anyones charm since everybody has always been smaller than him but it’s when he actually starts getting attracted to you that he’ll catch himself thinking ‘they’d fit perfectly in my arms <‘3’ or ‘if they’d wear my shirts it would rather look like a dress on them oh no <33’. Imagines how soft and warm your palms would be against his if you’d compare hand sizes. Thinks about how soft and warm the skin around your waist and hips would be next. How your back would be against his chest, he’d have you all wrapped up, his tall frame towering behind you. Gleaming eyes looking up to him, your head against the tough muscle of his abdomen. Will slap himself if it means it stops him from having wandering thoughts (but also because he will be flustered lol). Knows it’s natural to fantasize about people you desire but still feels AWFUL about it.

-> And that’s also when he actually really starts thinking about the difference in strength and seize. He becomes weirdly concerned about your safety, more so than he did before. Not in the fussy and controlling way, but rather in the ‘I’ll rather take the plates on the top of the shelf before they could potentially fall on your head’. Basically silently goes out of his way to prevent potential harm. If you’re in the military too, he’ll make double sure to cover you whenever you’re out together.

-> Also joins Ghost in the club of ‘longingly stares at you from across the room when you’re not watching’ because both of these men love to yearn for the person they want to be with. Actually? König can be found daydreaming A LOT about his Person of interest and how it would be like living with them together.

-> Listens from instrumentals, game/movie soundtracks, to indie, alternative rock and metal. Has certain…music snob opinions, but generally is pretty open to any type of music. But one of his fav artists is gorillaz, the diversity in the music tickles his brain just in the right way lol.

-> Enjoys board game nights. Yes he also is a video game addict but he used to play a lot of board games when he was younger and therefore is really fond of them. (Is also REALLY good at chess…..and there’s nothing sexier than seeing his hands moving those figures around the checkered board, brows furrowed, a few strains of hair covering his sight while planning his next move.)

-> That man’s a heater. Always warm. You’ll never catch him sleeping in a long sleeve shirt. Even less wearing socks in bed. But will always make an exception for you. Treats you as his own body pillow. Likes to give soft kisses on your neck and behind your ear when you are about to drift to sleep, hoping to give off some of his body heat to you.

König headcanons can be found here.

-> a very literal man. A lot of people around him might think he’s a mystery but they’re just blinded by the mask - if you actually interact with him on a daily basis you’ll quickly find out that he’s very straightforward and transparent at and off work.

-> also starting off strong with the fact that I believe he’s generally not a jealous person, not even in a relationship. I do think he has his insecurities and he def gets in his sappy moods once in a while but generally knows that yearning for things he has no influence on is very contra productive. Tries his best to always stay in the moment and to not get into his head too much (because he usually does).

-> But on the other hand I can see him being a tat…possessive... Being possessive doesn’t translate into him being very emotionally reactive about it tho. Makes sure that his fears of losing what’s ‘his’ stay fears and realizes them as purely imagined. Again, I think he knows very well that he’s an avoidant person. However, if he gets insecure and therefore struggles with possessiveness, it starts with a flicker and then a spark: usually hes good at catching it. It won’t start a fire within him. But if it does he’s getting into his head, being suspicious. Will translate into on and off behavior or him being more closed off at worst.

-> 100% clenches his jaws at night. Ghost is a certified neurotic, change my mind. Integrates specific rituals to sort out his mind in his routine if it’s possible (are all of these so called rituals healthy?? Not so much but as long as it keeps the thoughts into place he’s fine with it). Has tried out certain fidget toys like those small fidget cubes and has kept them near his bedside table or in his pockets from once in a while.

-> This one is a bit goofy but I can see him being the type to snore so loud the whole house will wake up when he’s drunk and passes out.

-> Also the type to push his body beyond belief and proves the hypothesis that under adrenaline humans are more capable of what we think of. Will rase the bar constantly and earns a lot of admiration for his dedication.

-> Actually really enjoys reading. Mystery, thriller, but also folklore and philosophy books. Could also listen to a few ‘work and grind’ podcasts or audiobooks when he feels his mental health and stress levels are kicking lmao but generally finds comfort in the dark and mysterious. Definitely has studied stoicism at one point in his life but knows that his temper gets the best of him.

-> Listens to ambience music and rain sounds, also uses them to help him fall asleep when insomnia is hitting hard.

-> If he ever catches genuine interest for something its becoming a niche/special interest he’ll be very particular about. Really enjoys learning and doing research until having a good grasp of the topic/skill. This might also be due to him being just a liiiiittle bit competitive.

-> That being said if he’s not doing his job he’s actually the curious type but is just very good at not acting out on impulses. If he feels save he would roam around a store for a while and look at every object, but the military (and life to an extent too) kinda excorcised the ‘child-like’ qualities out of him. If you’re lucky you see them possess this 6’4 man once in a while and he’ll be gone, lost in his thoughts thinking about this and that, observing nick-nacks like a crow that found a shiny silver spoon lol.

-> Deep, deep down is veeeery sentimental. Has no pictures in his apartment except for a box with a few pics of the boys and him underneath his bed. Reminds him of things he deems as important. Would keep one special item of yours at his place that he keeps looking at once in a while.

-> Don’t look at me but I believe this man has a wide knowledge of birds. Is very fond of them. A nerd and not ashamed of it (but no one really knows, except for soap maybe). Used to spend his time watching birds as a child, still enjoys looking at them when he’s out on a mission and has a bit of free time. Is actually comforted by their presence. He’s equally amused by their funny nature, impressed by their intelligence and also very emo about the fact that he was jealous of their ability to be free and go wherever when he was younger.

-> He’s a silent learner. Learns by observing. Especially people. He could notice that you might have some sort underlying communication issue that affects your dynamic and weeks later he comes back from the shadows and is actually tending towards your needs. Things just run smoother now and you wonder why. Will absolutely not change character and personality for you or bend himself in every direction to please someone, but is quiet aware of his own short comings. He also likes to solve problems before things escalate. He might also be a liiittle bit of a control freak.

-> That being said he is very stubborn if he wants to change and work on himself or not. If he’s comfortable sitting in his own misery because it hasn’t negatively effected his life so far why should he? His red flag is thinking that having intimate connections with people can exist without him getting changed by them in the slightest. Commitmophobe tendencies are triggered by the consequences of genuine intimacy.

-> he’s either a Capricorn, Sagittarius or Scorpio change my mind!!!!! (you can’t)

-> Yes, he is indeed a cuddly person!!! I will die on this hill, it only really shows when time and place is appropriate and he will be subtle about it but will start mewling when you hold him and stroke his back gently, intertwine your fingers and make sure to lock your legs around his!!!! Loves becoming a human pretzel with you when he has time to relax fully, but especially when you’re about to go to bed. He’s also a big fan of you laying on top of him, will start holding you or caressing you right away. He does it all the time, absentminded. Reads a book? One hand is in your hair, combing softly through it. You’re waiting in line at the grocery store?? At first you didn’t notice but his hand found yours and now his thumb is tracing circles on your hand. Def very subtle in public but enough to let you taste his sweet affection once in a while.

-> This one is one of my favs but he’s a dude that’s not getting embarrassed. Not only because most things are simply normal but because he doesn’t care. He has to make sure none of his team mates die at work you think he cares about dirty kitchen dishes?????? A pimple?????? A burp or fart?????? You must be joking if you’d think he’d waste his time thinking about these meaningless things when existential dread is all that fills up his mind.

-> Enjoys playing card games. It takes him a while to get warm but he is keen on winning. But almost always looses in the last round coming out second. Enjoys the fact that it’s a team activity the most.

and what if the from home mv is my happy place (click on pic for higher resolution)

tried something new recently so here’s some Lee Know fanart!

kuroo as an deadly angel because he own my heart

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Thanks for sharing this beautiful au with me 😍

Au: 18th century alchemist + vampire Oikawa and his student Iwaizumi

Gorillaman in the gym 🦍🏋️