museforay

I would love to actually look at pictures of myself and not immediately get dysphoria so we could actually post pictures of us and like idk Maybe have people compliment is and shit? I don't have a job so I can't buy us things to make us feel good We don't get random comments or conversation with anyone whether it's on my are or just randomly And we can't post photos because none of us are okay with how we look I just want to feel good and there isn't anything in my life right now I feel good about.

a good thing happened today but i cant even remotely enjoy it

I'm going to fucking scream I need to scream I can't scream People have more problems I just want to go home I am ten seconds away from losing it.

I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays I hate the holidays

I want this to be normalized. I want to be able to talk to her friends. I want our every day life to be so normal that we could willingly and openly talk about it.

"oh don't mind her, she's just being Ashley" "Who else would she be lol" :) I wish death upon me :)

Why do I even attempt to vent anymore Not that I do it often either

I hate this

So on top of having a complete break down about not being accepted for separate health insurance so I don't know how much longer I can see my therapist, but tonight I had to rush Ares to an emergency vet. He just came out of brumation and hacked up phlegm everywhere. Thankfully I caught the RI in time but I am just Every single night this week I have had a break down And this month is the anniversary of Apollo's death so like Idk I'm so numb right now

It's official We have a new fucking member.

I can't fucking breath