Broken Faerie Tale

Cincinnati yesterday, finishing the Sunburst today. Final time was 42:05. Faster than my 5k a month ago by seconds. #runnergirls #runner #runnersofinstagram #southbendrunner #sunburst2018 (at Notre Dame Stadium)

My coffee this morning mustache me a question. #coffee #baristalife

Summer is here and that means it’s time for cold brew. #coffee #coffeeholic #coldbrew #coldbrewcoffee

Some days call for a 30 minute run with the best group of runners I know. I love my Sunburst training group. Can’t wait to beast this Sunburst 5k with y’all. #runnersofinstagram #runner #runnergirls #Sunbust5k

This morning I’m running the Cinco de Miles 5k in Mishawaka. Hoping to set a personal best.

28 minute run (2min walk and 2 min run) went pretty good. Calf keeps cramping though and despite my compression sock it won’t go away. Pushed through the cramp today but I’m not sure if it keeps getting worse if I’ll be able to. Presently sitting with heat on it and will lacrosse ball roll it later. #runnersofinstagram #running #southbendrunner

I wish I could explain it today but mental all I feel is fear and pain. My face and eyes hurt from crying and my hands shake as I type this. I just want to feel normal again. #depression #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness #1in5 #endthestigma

First trail run of the year and boy was it a muddy one. Trail gloves need some serious dry time. (at St. Patrick's County Park)

Last nights run was pretty successful I’d say. It was kind of a hills workout but I will say I enjoyed running the East Bank Trail more than I thought I would. Though let’s be honest this trail girl is ready to see some trees and dirt again. I don’t wear trail gloves for nothing. #runnersofinstagram

Some days it feels very much like I’m winning the war and other days and weeks I can’t remember my battle plan let alone that I’m in a war. Those with mental illness are soldiers and we fight a war everyday that can be ugly and tough but everyday we come out ahead we are a little stronger. #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillnessawareness #mentalillnessrecovery #depression #anxiety #1in5 #endthestigma

Started Therapy this week for the first time in a while. One of my homework assignments (apparently therapists also get to assign stuff) is to log my mood and thoughts. Especially when I get anxious or start to panic. Found this amazing app called Mood Notes that I have been using to log. It’s a beautiful tool and I am loving the ability to log more than just one emotion (cause those with anxiety disorder know it’s more complex than just being anxious). #depression #anxiety #mentalhealthawareness #1in5 #cbttherapy

Today’s run was not very far or very fast but it did happen. And the shin splints are finally going away. #runnersofinstagram #everymilematters #charitymiles #hogwartsrunningclub

Took this forgetting about seeing the miles but it was a mile and half. Did a short run with high intensity. I’ve also decided I like the gym on Sundays, because no one is there which means the track isn’t jam packed with people. #running #runnersofinstagram #southbendrunner #hogwartsrunningclub

Forgot to turn my Charity miles app on but didn’t manage to log the last part of my 5k this morning. #hogwartsrunningclub #da5k #runnersofinstagram #running #southbendrunner

Trying out compression socks today while I run. Hopefully this helps the shin splints. #runner #runnersofinstagram #southbendrunner

Running today was a challenge. I have a horrible shin splint that has refused to get better and it isn’t responding to foam rolling it. I can only run about a quarter of a mile before it hurts so bad I have to stop and since I’m not running outside presently the hard track isn’t doing it any favors. #runnersofinstagram #running #southbendrunning

Some days call for short runs. And some strength training. #running #runnersofinstagram