hayl ✋

im lazy & drunk and need to vritual shedtwt rn but dont wanna get banned for posting myself on passgen or something so

but i clearly can't, it's too much, it's too agonisingly painful and humiliating and mentally flaying, NOBODY CAN DO THIS ITS IMPOSSIBLE

even if you TRY to do it as hard as you possibly can and smile painfully with dead eyes and the entire time the same fuckers all hugboxxing you and trying to be 'nice' and calling you she etc will

IMMEDIATELY then just jump and tear you to fucking shreds for fun and try to funnel you into misery & suic

they KNOW what they're doing, it IS on purpose. they ARE just trying to manipulate you into making a fool of yourself to feel better next to you and have a lolcow hon to make fun of I HAVE CONFIRMED IT ITS NOT EVEN A FUCKING

'CONSPIRACY, ITS LITERALLY WHAT THEYRE DOING IVE PROVEN IT

months wasted spent acting like a fucking retard and idiot trying to 'accept' myself & calling myself a troon & she and her and shit, and still entire time getting pelted with fucking insults and 'just jokes hon lol' and seeing fucking attention fishing passoids all making fun of and ripping into old ‘femboys' who look FUCKING IDENTICAL TO ME OR BETTER THAN ME WHILE STILL LYING TO MY FACE THAT 'ohh noo you totally look cute & feminine hon!'

fine, fuck it, im a fool, retard, gullible joke, fucks had their laugh at me making me into an even lower more subhuman lower form of target for them to feel better next to & have something to feel better about themselves by having lower than them

but now it's over, enough, jokes finished, im a loser and pathetic and a joke and ugly and disgusting and laughable and everything else, but im not gonna willingly make myself a joke anymore for the bottom of society to just have someone even lower than them

back to repressing, im a mentally ill male with the most pathetic laughable mental illness disorder on earth, but im still a male, i at least can still live as a normal male in society and not be a subhuman freak joke, so those fucks can laugh at & make fun of me but at least i can still walk away & be normal unlike any of you freaks. i still win

rot in hell, all of you

i am homophobic because im purely androphilic and hate myself for it & hate human beings regardless of sex

queen of hearts womb tattoo

‘built for pooner / ftm cock’ womb tattoo (or idk something effect of ftm patriarchy/misogyny theme thing)

when i say pooner i do NOT hate trans men & im not using it as a ‘slur’ ok?

just a word i picked up from people im friends with and often used to talk to a lot & mutuals on twitter etc who are many of them themselves trans men

im not using it to be insulting, i do like & love trans guys & see them as men

just, idk whatever anyone getting mad about me usint pooner isn’t gonna care & just look for reasons to get mad

st4tgen sucks and is mostly dead same as the rest of the board (& i might be region banned on the board unsure)

im banned on reddit & 4tran4 sucks ass now anyway

twitter has no real st4t stuff that isn’t usually piv or just theyfab stuff with guys not even taking T

im banned from the few dead st4t servers because they’re pussies, tho the servers suck anyway & are mostly dead

i love you too 🩷

pooner isn’t a slur btw my ftm friends and ex boyfriend i still love use it all the time

as heighthons we can’t change our height, but fat poons can very easily fix being bloated fucking pigs by not stuffing themselves and going to the gym

better in some ways & still pretty bad & struggling extremely in others related to loneliness and problem romantic feelings im struggling with badly but it’s fine