Mike Blaire, Trap Extraordinaire!!

I’m sorry that you’re having to go through that, you deserve better.

First of all, I would like to say that your mother is being really unfair in the way she treats you. You should be able to express yourself, and feel comfortable in your own body.

I would maybe try talking to her about how you feel. “Hey mom, when you did ___, it made me feel ___”

Communication is very important, and can help your mom understand better.

Maybe try talking to her about why you want to get a binder. Explain that it’s to aid you in feeling comfortable in your own body. Maybe send her links and resources to help understand you better as well.

The Trevor Project has a LOT of resources, and they are very informative and thorough while simultaneously being calm and patient in their explanation of the topics they cover.

Secondly:

Your brother.

I’m sorry that he’s doing that. It’s not fair, and your feelings are real and valid.

It seems that he is younger than you, yes?

If so, then it makes sense that he copies you.

Younger siblings tend to copy their older siblings.

They do that because, believe it or not, they really admire you, and they want to be just like you because in their eyes, you’re the coolest person ever.

it’s your brother’s way of saying that he thinks his older brother is so cool and awesome, and that he loves and cares for you.

That doesn’t mean it’s ok, or that the way you feel is wrong.

Maybe try to explain how you feel to him.

“Hey, when you do ___, it makes me feel ___”

Not only is it an effective way of putting your feelings to words, and communicating them, it also sets a good example for your brother.

It lets him know that it’s ok to feel and express emotions, and it shows him a way in which he can properly do so.

Lastly:

You’re doing great dude, and you’re trying your best, that’s all that matters.

At the end of the day, it’s night (/j)

Make sure to drink some water please

Good luck

bro this brought me to tears (/pos) (I’m just not used to support..) more explanation under cut- Ik you probably won’t see this unless you’re really invested or smth

I have tried, but she never understands. ‘Hey mom, it really bothers me when he copies me, could you tell him to try and do it less?’

‘He’s a child, he’ll grow out of it. And after all, mockery is the best form of admiration!’

but that’s not what I asked, is it, mom? I didn’t ask why. I don’t want you to tell me why. I want you to be responsible about your children and their emotional needs. This is MY life. We aren’t even the same generation. Let me live it and tell him to be his own person.

‘Hey mom, look at this progress I’ve made! I’m really proud of it!’

“Oh it’s terrifying! I liked your old style better. Also, it’s not even Halloween, why are you wearing masks?”

my old style was the terrifying one. I don’t even care if it’s fake, I just want the love and support that I’ve turned to strangers on the internet for instead.

I also have links for binder information, and I would send them to her… but she’s weird. She’ll see it as constant talk, too much work, not worth the money and research, etc. but when I DONT bring it up again, she’ll forget. I’m stuck. I’m just gonna wait until my dad has a chance to take me to a local lgbt center that gives them out. I don’t know when that will be though, as I can feel the weight of my parents about to get divorced (more in my first vent) like a boulder over all of us, and there not one but TWO hurricanes coming our way.

also my family hardly supports me. They act like the things that make me- well, me, don’t exist, unless we’re alone. They won’t use my name or pronouns, they won’t even acknowledge it. The most I get is them sometime calling me their ‘child’ or ‘offspring’ instead of ‘daughter’, but now it just feels… weird. Detached. Replaceable. Don’t get me wrong, SOEMTIMES they try. My dad took me to pride. My dad calls me my preferred name sometimes when my mom and brother take trips. Notice how only my dad does this, and only on rare occasions…? And it’s not even bc it’s ‘new’, I’ve been out to them with different things since I was ten, and I came out to them as trans and pan almost a year ago now (I’ve been identifying with those labels for two years now)

I should probably exchange some of my experiences too, then.

When I first came out (in middle school, after figuring out I was gay in Elementary/primary school), I came out to my mom, and I was crying, saying I wanted to become trans, because I didn't realize men liking other men was okay. She said she understood, and that she'd love me no matter how I looked or who I dated. Later, when my dad cam him, a few minutes for bed, my mom told my dad I had something to tell him. I was scared, because I didn't know how he'd react. He's reacted poorly (poorly is used very lightly) to me telling him stuff about my life. So when I told him the first time, he was disappointed. He said that this is just a phase and not let the stuff I watch on T.V. influence my choices. But it didn't. It never did. I always knew this.

Around two years later, I decided to become genderfluid until I went into adulthood and I could get GRAS done. My mom was still supportive of me, and I told her everything about my life. I could never do that with my dad, though. Because the next time I came out, it was because my brother told my dad that I liked men still (he's ten months younger than me). And I lashed out at my dad, saying "Fine! Yes! I am gay, happy I told you?!" and he got really pissed. That's when he started taking away stuff from me for liking men. (It was also around this time where someone tried gr0p1ng me, which becomes important later)

Flash forward to Freshman year in highschool (last year). My dad took away my phone, kicked me out, and when I got it back, he stole my phone to use as his and spy on me, so I'm not continuing being gay. I still am. And I still Identify as genderfluid. My mom and my father got into messy fights, a lot. And yes, they broke up/divorced, but it was for the best. My father was (and still is) a narcissistic abuser to me, my three other brothers, and even still to my mom, even though she moved out a year ago, and is living with my stepdad now (he's cool, and he doesn't mind the fact I'm gay and stuff, at all). My mom takes me and my older brother to hang out with our boyfriends (respectively), and she supports my actions and everything.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, that I had people like your mom and little brother in my life too (trust me, it's very annoying to deal with them still), and I also have a fair share of people in my life like your dad. And as long as one person supports you in your family, then you really don't need anyone else. Stay safe, and drink tons of water. I hope things bet better for you, and your situation with your parents gets resolved.

Stay safe, with much care,

Wiping down my dash at the end of an evening, I see your read-more, over-hear your rant in the tags, so I pour you a drink.

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http://www.triplepundit.com/2014/10/baker-hughes-fights-breast-cancer-pink-fracking-drill-bits/

Breast Cancer Research Foundation

Cancer Research Institute

Dana-Farber Cancer Institute

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I wrote a little poem after listening the whole video for at least 10 times:

Moon half moon I'd like you to come back And maybe ill help you Find your other half

Moon little moon You are so far yet i cant forget The first time we've ever met

Moon big moon You're so far yet so close Please accept me and this rose I think i should stop the dose This cold makes red my nose

Leo in his response story: "we must not let Jason into our hearts, for he is one with the wolves now..." with this image behind the text: